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Last saturnday had dinner with Sarah, Jereld, Jason and of course Jereld gf. We had steamboat at Sarah house. Me and Jason went over to Sarah house and had abit of conversation between ourselves. The stuff about the donkey*( I just dunno how to spell her name except her nick given by other) I am very impress by the person thinking and her feeling. Reading the blog actually make me laugh out loud but if I do not know her I can say I also can feel the sadness within her heart. One thing I realise that she shared with several people I had known is that these people do not have friends at all even it is, it just by the surface that all. The worst is to get disliked by people whom you try to befriend to. So we can pointed out where the problem. However I do not know her and she have to crawl her way out of her own world. You cannot keep blaming other and giving excuse that misfortune keep falling on to you. You must understand that there a reason for it to happen and what can you learn from such event. It is not other who can help you but is you yourself to pull yourself up.
I respect how much the effort you put for the one you had in your heart but due to the nature course. The love you have is in vain. Attend some self improvement course or volunteer your service. Hopefully from there you can achieve something morally.
Back to the dinner then, Meet xiao xin xin. He really puff up abit and the way he talk is so random that it make me laugh until I cant even eat a dinner properly. Poor Jereld, I bet he enjoyed being kan jiao the whole dinner from Xiao xin xin. Jereld grilfriend is Huiting if not wrong. Hmmm, quite social and outgoing. Cant say much more about her since we get to know for only few hours? Hahaha, I like the food although there dont seen to be any sauce. Well, it much more healthy I guess. Chit chat there and enjoy the entertainment from xiao xin xin. Cant really talk much cause dont even know have any common topic anot. Hehex, I really love the dinner though it just a few of us but it is the heart that matter. While eating and chatting together, it suddenly make me think that it really a family dinner. The guys chat at the table while the spouse go to room to gossip latest new and the children playing games together. It so cool if only it really happen within the next 30 yrs. Still very long ahead but then I will definitely be contented. Oh ya, I almost miss out Jason gf. Although haven stead yet but Jason told me that they will be together. One thing I really found it to be funny when he told me that his girlfriend not pretty at all. What the, did I mention that you must get a pretty and hot girlfriend? I thought I alway pointed out that personalities and Characters is the one that mark the strength of love. -_-||.....sweat. I be happy if both of Jason and Jereld have an everlasting love as well to those I known and those I do not know. Love is hard for it is a commitment. It flow like smoothly and it just dried up. How much can you last is up to you and how your partner think. Do not think how long you think you can last, think how much can you achieve by having her beside you.
Sometime is not that I dont believe Xiao mei thinking but is just that I cant get myself to believe it. If she went into relationship with that guy. It is how mature that guy is thinking not how xiao mei think.If both parties can be think too much then I fear the the relationship can be also too much for them if it happen.It not easy to live or to live by yourself in a world that you do not know how to adapt to but it is up to your determination to fight for it. Althought flow by the nature, it our chance to get better thing within our grip. I finally know what all the guys out there have been facing in their class but neverthless we do know we have true friend around us.
THank Peng yu for sending me home. Through these years he really treat me very well and I hope the moment I get my driving license I can fetch him around if he need to. Awww....think of that...I just dont believe I can fail my basic theory test 3 times!!! Waaa.....damn sianz....haha...god will...
This blog have finally reached an ending. Hopefully within this 2days I can switch over to the new blog. I dont intend to use worldpress,xanga or livejournal. Yea....so this post will be quite a bit long. WEEEE!!! XD
I wish the well being of all who dwell in this earth. I am very grafeful how blessed I am to know all those people around me giving me support and understand me well. Although Edmund confess that he is jealous of me however the truth I also envy him for his livestyle. The truth lie within my heart, if I have an brother/sister is because my love for him/her. It is also a commitment. The only thing I need to do is just to appear when they need anything and I just vanish if there is nothing needed from me. The most important thing is how you love them and express it. Heex.....although I really dont have time to contact some of my family* but I still remember them in my heart whether it can be 50yrs later or what. Muahahaha.....okok.
To those WCG player in zinc, if you happen to played with me. The reason why I am 2nd-hamsterlord is because I am born on the 2nd of june. I love hamster and they are brighten my daily live. I really love a hamster that why. I have several nick and the previous nick before the hamsterlord was actually ruinlord. Somehow like the sound of lord thus hamsterlord is formed. Heex.
-The ending of Hamsterlord(2007)- (Analog)
Nut and Nut before I gonna be one too.
-The ending of darkpassion(2006)- (Analog)
When the heart of mine burn with passion it is by fate that the person I love cannot be by my side. For that I sent my heart to the deepest depth of hell and posion it by the hatred of evil.
Not quite sure is type analog or what.... Offcial closure of this blog!!! Cya again =D
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:15 AM on Tuesday, November 27, 2007
The morning was quite a funny one. I wake and went to on my PS2!!!! Then my father sitting on the sofa say one sentence, "early morning only know how to play game." This sentence really make me -______-|||......Waaa liew....holiday le.Awww..... And so in the noon while playing dota, my mother say stop playing computer game. I just finished my assesment now holiday liao and she remark that drawing only. Ehh, hello?!?!? Drawing?? Talk like so easy, never see how some people break down while doing assesment. Never see how diffcult it is to draw and design. One sided talk.....only assume sia. Make me unhappy.....ayioooo...
One thing I have to say is that. Under different circumstances you had to stead with that person. Imagine that there is a girl who alway cut her wrist to attract you. She cant stopped herself and out of kindness, you give her a little hope by steading with her when there is really no choice. So you have feeling for someone in your school and one of your best friend knew about it. You are being blacklist by your best friend which you had no idea. However you want to break off with that girl for fate bring you to the one you like. Yet what will happen to the girl that keep cutting her wrist?
To me, this kind of problem must counsel with girl parent. The parent will definitely bring her to counselling center. Oh well, Good luck to that person.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:35 AM on Thursday, November 22, 2007
My mouse for the Mac had applied a vacation at Constance house for dunno how long which there no contract to be exact. So I guess I need to relax before getting the mouse back and start to study again.
The reaction of a person as well as his word and action reflect his inner self. I make mistake myself unknowingly and I do not seek apology from any. I rather seek it myself. My face is born to be what my parent give. It is pointless to say my face is alway black just because my face is quite emotional. So that one part of disadvantage for emo people. Whatever it is, stay positive as usual. =)
Sense someone with ill intention and give me some creep. Run again?
Applying for B and C camp. However have no idea who to ask to register. Plus the T-shirt I dont even know I can wear anot sia. Ayiaaaaa........Jialat....
It is hard to pleased everyone and what worst is when they make use of this point. No matter how hard life goes, we do see the light through the cloud. If there is knife alway stabbing you behind. Take it silently and wait for the truth.
If only there is fairytale, I wish it can also happen to me too. Let it happen to those who deserve it.....it may not be now but as long for the rest of my life. I am willingly to submit and use my life to stay beside her and serve her. =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:06 AM on Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Remember the meaning of love and remember the meaning of oath.
Best wishes XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:17 AM on Sunday, November 18, 2007
While I awake from my slumber. Inner beauty colour of some finally can be seen. Though with pain and joy, they mark the point of realization. Things turn to a naught with lesson that taught at the right time. Dont believe or dont accept is the flaw.
Trust too much trust too easily make life harder. Being cheat or to cheat, the cycle still remain. Heart seen to bend in along with the mind.
Another side story
With the heart totally sinking in the sand pit. Darkness and cold engulf him. Protecting him from the warmth and the heat of the scorching sun. Having to understand the need of two different strength. Heart finally understand the nature of law. The law that he know it will cost him his future and his own life.
Crawling out in the night and sober himself. Through decades, a small stream of river was spotted around there. Slowly it become a river. Creating relief and joy to the nearby village. Heart must know that happiness must begin from sadness and suffering. With his continuous sadness and pain within him, his tear will be the saviour of many.
It will take sometime for anyone to find the cause of the stream. When that moment arrived, heart cannot stay and have to wander away for shelter. Heart take a glimpse of the nearby village during the night. Few children splashing the water with their parent on the straw mat enjoying the pure angelic moon from the never reaching skies.
And so every night, Heart will hop in a sand dung and continue to observe the people. Heart do not understand why everyone are happy. Heart do not know love. He do not know what is happiness. He only know he was left in this place. During the day, he sleep under the cool iron bed of sand. He will drink and chill.
That fateful night while heart continue to observe the human. He cry again for he want to know what is happiness and love. A streak of light suddenly descend in front of him. After a few week, the river dried up. Villagers check out the the cause of problem only to realise that there wasnt any water source nearby at all. They will never know that it is heart that actually help them through these period of time. They will also never know the existance and the ending of heart.....
View: All of us are Heart. Different starting, plot, climax and ending. What is happiness and love in life? Ask yourself what is the meaning of both? What the ending you expect? Does thing turn out to be the ways you expected? Do you know your action and words affect other?
-Each object refer to respective exp of our life.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:51 AM on Saturday, November 10, 2007
Love cannot be love when act under different situation and due to some circumstances. One may not have the confidence when another was high on it peak. However dont give up hope and have your sincere heart to touch the sky. It most probbly wont come but it`s better than nothing.
Alteration alter not only oneself but also the rest. Each indiuval find alterative to keep love by their sides even to underhand mean. So much for love that poison the mind of one easily.
I still wish to continue watching you even to the last minutes. Till that fateful moment , I will alway believe myself in you. Words may drift us apart but swim back again and again. No love taste like chocolate make of gold and filled with elixer. All should know love is not easy to take and give. Love is not trade and pure entertainment. Love is commitment. The moment you had someone by your side, it is love. It is your job and your duty to live and be part of each other live. Taking care each other mentally and physically till the edges of the universe.
100% happiness come from pain 50% itself. No pain no gain. If there is no pain or suffering then you cannot find the truth of happiness itself. Love is not what you think or assume. Love is what both felt and act accordingly together in our unsecure and mystery future.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:08 AM on Friday, November 09, 2007
Please ignore that few people who play prank on me. Honestly speaking we must forgive them for they are just a child. They haven mature so please forgive them plus I also haven who are they. Dont suddenly offer help, I mean we all are already matured. Hahahaha....
Hi Kid, Maybe to you is fun and exciting. Maybe your life is better than mine and even you think my life is full of crap but I assure you that all life being in this universe face the same judgment regardless of your race or reglion. This blog was meant for passerby and nice people who just to read about logic of life and my daily exp. I understand that you are lonely and you need attention. Howver the way you choose will make everyone dislike you more as you can see that actually quite a number of my friend are finding you. Hahaha, I do not care since the tagboard is closed and you can no longer disturb the peace here. So the moment you read finish, you slap yourself 3times. 1 from your mother who give life to you 1 from your father who work to support your family and 1 from me for you had not shown any slight of respect in my Virtual world.
Blog Reader and Blogger should know the basic rule that you do not play prank or type down any racist remark. You believe making me angry will make you happy but you are too shallow if you think it work. Be a man even you are an aqua, you are still a she-male. =)
Closing a tagboard does not end my destiny with people out there. Instead there is a new approach of destiny outside. I already discussed with Yee 2month ago about closing down my tagboard. It is not a surprise so everyone thx for Tagging especially those last minute come see show and offer Help. Haha......
Whatever goes will return. Today you make someone angry or unhappy, it will come back to you sooner or later. You create unhappiness or negative mental effect on other, You will take back double of the pain you cause to other. You may approach Bomoh, medicine man and those priest who are skill in Art. The sin of one is alway build by one. So try to harm me more and you will get feel the same effect within a time limit. =)
I`m sorry kid, u got to do better than this. I sure will place 1 fist on your face the moment you show yourself. Dont ask why for you deserve it. The moment you say my life is full of crap. Then explain to me that if I am one then all also suffer crap stuff in our lives.
You try being knocked down by vehicle, jumping down from building, cutting your wrist, crying everynight alone, sleeping outside in the street, drinking dirty water and consume stale food, try to be stabbed by other in the middle of the night, being murdered for no reason , being raped, being robbed, breaking off with your dearest, getting into jail, being isolated by everyone, worrying about supporting family, over working and had no time to spend with families.
Are these crap??? YOU CALL THESE CRAP? Spare a thought for the people around you, everyone of us have to handle crap stuff daily whether it can be at home or outside. It can happen with family, friends and colleages. You see, next time when you say something, think carefully and spare a thought.
Thx for reminding me of my goal. I wish you good luck dude. Dont keep faling =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:27 AM on Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Even I didnt disappoint othere, I already disappointed myself.
Think of setting up a new blog to put name of people with remarkable character. That night till now I still really admire Xue yang. 8 years of feeling toward Mei ru, I mean they graduted from the school 4yrs already. He still buy present and put at Mei ru house there. Although I think he should hand it to Mei ru personally but due since he is too shy. It really such a waste plus Mei ru already had a bf 2yrs ago.
Li xin is getting married and the banquet will be held at Tian Hui on 17 Nov. =)) Come and think of it, some of the brothers and sister have already married and really hardly contact. Ayiaaaaa......really miss the good old day. Lao Da really clever, save money and held banquet in malaysia!!! Save money until like that..... =P
Skin still peeling when I suppose all skin should have peeled off by itself. Now my skin like not nice liao.....eeeeeek....
Remaining work,
Design drawing need pic reference for colour plus drawing and colouring( Lucky can finish in 1day)
Ad design need to do sketches and redo some of the mock up.( 1day enough)
Graphic design require style book(going to do later) Need plenty of sketch plus haven print out my research.( 1day)
Flash haven colour and draw a nice storyboard, still at 5sec!!! (ROAR!!!) write up on the way soon with research haven really go find and print out(1day)
Visual study, I think there is a problem with the stand. I dont think it can stand properly, I ask peng yu for help to make a stand. Calling help from my friends and I really wish to finish the tree within 3hours provide got all materia and tools needed. Need to redo the presentation board.
1week more to go.......Gogogo!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:14 AM on Tuesday, November 06, 2007
To ( u suck and HALO)
No one is perfect. If you are then you are infallible. None dare to claim for all have to face death. Everyone have to face the karma of born, live, sick and dead itself. Who you are is not important. When I speak of someone, I care. If you are the one, you be happy for I care. If you do not listen to other and keep on going your way. You wont realise but you will understand when the day come. Oh, please dont let me know who are you for you will know why.(I already knew who the person**) =)
It is kinda cowardly act. Please dont do that again. I do not know who will have the last laugh. I am still a beginner in my life, I do not and never consider myself to a great or perfect person. It is not how I am what I think I am but it is other that make me what I am. Explain to me, Just because I act all the yr in my life in school mean I am forever like that? Hmmm, think your own way. I would care so much and I will be happy if you are wasting time to play prank on me. =)
Be happy when one speak bad about you for you learn,
Be happy when one left you alone for they want you to be indpendent
Bong bong for Yu jing and Hiutung. Remembering how they start with a struggle when Dickson flared up and make trouble for both of them. I still remember how each of their personality fit each other just nice , how loving both of them are when together. One my buddy and one my brother, I do not know what to say. I did ask Yu jing and the reason is really very simple. Dumbfounded, I sat on my chair thinking about it. 2.5 yrs is not an easy task. Considering the time, effort and money in for the sake of the one in your heart. You have done your best. I mean for both of them.
Very wasted....Haizzz.....it so sad to see them brkup. Zzzzz
Lao Da getting marry le!!! He is marrying to a gal Y*. Funny fellow, he brk up with his previous gf after stead for 7yr plus and stead with Y* for 1-2yrs plus and getting marry this coming Dec. Alamak, why go malaysia sia. I no passport to attend, Arrgghhhh!!! Stead for 7yr plus but brk off in the end, sound abit of irony.Hahaha
Tonight meet alot of people. Si han represent Rp in WCG!!! Piang, talking to him really make me giggle. Still the same, as cheerful as ever and thx for sending me off. Met Edmund and went to canal to relax during evening. Quite sad that he decided to go ITE next yr because the course he took cannot continue just because he fail his 3rd and 4th exam. Wasted one yr of youth, play somemore. Hahaha, bro you must keep your word. I know I fat liao and you are slimmer liao. So relax man. Hahahahaha...... Met Roy too. 5 Di, never change, he is still living well. I`m quite pleased to meet him. Chat a very short moment, they board the bus and went off to lot1.
Around 7pm plus meet Guo bin and Xue yang!!! Long lost friend!!! Omg, cant believe we can go out and chit chat. Peng yu drive us to Ntuc and then lock the lorry with the key inside. -_-||.....Rofl!!! However we went to Canal and slack. Exchanging info of how everyone is living now and who got marry and what funny stuff and blah blah blah. Hahahahaha....
Cut short for now. Tonight I must thx everyone of you for the conversation. I will definitely contact everyone when I have the time. Proposal of chalet is good but the problem lie in gathering the number of people left. The gathering for Media bytes is still quite a question in my head. I wonder where the spot for the gathering, I want to make it short and fun for everyone to share their life-exp in their poly and other school. I may have holdiay but it seen the rest of the poly will be having their exam soon. Tiaozzz....
Respect yourself first before you want people to respect you. Thank
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:49 AM on Saturday, November 03, 2007
Everyone have their own exp even not they have the knowledge however the amount of knowledge will have to depend on their own lifetime exp with other.
Counsel is good, even you get unwanted answer or advice. They serve the main purpose and that is helping you to get out. =)
Come to think of mine, it sound quite a dead track. I do not know but I really believe. I dont care whether it can be fake or anything else. This is something I cannot let go. Maybe I dont have enough capabilities to handle it but I will keep proving myself till the last minute where the destiny of us get seperated.
As I observe, it seen there are people who are good in calculation. I want to work along with them to improve myself. Well, hopefully it can happen sooner or later.
That christmas tree will create quite a nusiance if it is to be left alone......Aww
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:30 AM on Wednesday, October 31, 2007
I dont want to care or else someone will say kapo. I got enough through my sec school life plus everyone is in tertiary education. The rise and fall of one is up to each indivual. If you dont want to fight your way up then you might give up your dream and your goal. Even you hold on it, you never reach and you will be struggling there forever.
Not I want to complain, Gaffy really sometime make me very disappointed. He hack care and he just too lazy. What the point of coming to school and ask me for work when the lecturers mention that you never hand in your work? You told me you will study!!! Dont give assurance when you are not a man of word. Aaron is nice guy but then he is another one gone case. I dunno what is he thinking but I think he sure fail this semseter. Haizzz.....
Taking picture now when we need to show everything FINISHED ** by next week?? Still can say got time? Beside Yan,gab,joe and me, I can see the rest of the guy jialat one. Still chill and slack? Hallo!!! This week is trial print liao!!! WTF!!! Not showing design!!!
Ad design, I make sure I can finish designing by this thursday and find her. The newspaper is a big problem for those who are not sure.
Design drawing this week is to be show in computer and let miss lye help you to combine into junior page. Not go there draw and colour!!!
Flash, It can be easy and diffcult depend on each person concept board with the character and effect involved. However there is a need for a work folio to be sufficient***
Pc leong the logo is easy but need quite an amount of research and more in sketches and development to allow the accesser a better understanding. Thus this is one tricky part.
Visual study, This sub sure send all rush like mad. The gathering of resources require vast amount of time, effort and money. Plus when it come to building, the logical effect of physic come into place. Those who are bad in physic or calculation will get a hard time building it.
Presentation is very important!!! Do a nice and neat work. Organise work accordingly.
Designing is not about how strong the visual and typo can be. It is the concept!!! I can see someone really jialat liao.
I am blur and all the times I do. I enjoy this personality myself and those who apperciate it. However I dont slack all the times and chill as and when I feel like.
Dont bother to say someone who dont even listen to you. Words you say is the same as saying it in your heart. Let them taste their own fruit. It nt like I gonna care but it is them who dont give a damn.
OVERALL ytd night I come to think of new ideas. Work with those who are hardworking than who are chiller. Thx to guo wei during the conversation too about the work efficienty.
skin peel bit by bit.........can my heart skin peel and become better? 0o!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:10 AM on Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Damn upset over myself, say want to work but in the end I go slack or waste my time playing. I sense that time is indeed short and I have to discipline myself. However I still get distracted, Imao. There still some hope left, ROAR!!! Hmmm, Sure I face one big hardy time just because holiday is coming.
Helping people is like offering seat to stranger. It is not trade nor any self gain stuff. Offer the seat to someone who need it mor than you is the same as helping those who ask for it. Even the the seat is offered to those who never ask for it. Dont have to expect any reward. It just like helping oneself. If passenger around ask you why do you do that and say are you stupid or something just ignore them. Just be yoursef in all situation. If a person want to offer seat to nearby passenger, you dont have to say that person stupid or idiot. That is because you never know that there are people who are tired already even their face do not show. You can choose to stand or sit down but which one will you prefer?
Another example is to offer drink to traveller who passby your house. They may not ask for it but it is a sign of concern. If they complain about the sanity of the water perhap you can tell that these are the people who do not appericate thing around them. They may not say thank you and left quietly. However you dont need to hear such word to negate your deed. Wish them bon voyage is enough. If a person refuse the offer then let it be, dont have to force them. You have to know the reason why you have to be kind to all. Even all soul in this world taken you for granted, dont give and do more merit for yourself and someday someone will apperciate your kindness. Even there no one, do it for yourself.
This is what I think of, even that person is lazy just do it since it just a trival stuff. However the moment they went out to the real world, they will learn the lesson. Everything need time.
I sense it quite well the pressure given in the class by anyone eye. Those who only care for their own friend or group in class should be more social toward the rest. One class few tribe, it gonna be war if anything bad happen. I already exp some of the hidden mental war wages between different group. Reading people mind sometime is good and bad at times.
If I have to be alone till I graduted then I have no choice for my life is my life not on other. I`m quite tired of slacking and slacking. Maybe maybe however what will it be??
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:07 PM on Sunday, October 28, 2007
So many exciting stuff but yet too tiring to write.
These is what I got physically,
Sunburnt!!
Insomina!!
Jelly leg!!
(Mentally)
Excitment, joy, dazed,
Overall- Hyperactive mode!!!
Thank alot for my brothers again!!!
I only get to give a small cake for chen ming!!! Awwww!!!
Yea!!! I done a great job in entertaining the rest during the sport day. XD
Oh ya, one thing for sure. I really only dream of taking her hand or hugging her not any further. So dont anyhow how. =P
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:02 AM on
Not everything is impossible, maybe confidence help alot. It just differ on whether you willing to take the risk anot. Somebody finally got a bf, not going to mention who but then it just make me grin. Hopefully she pick with care this time round. Nobody is happy to see anyone brking up again and again. =)
Seen like tse hwee got quite a number of admirer!!! Too bad she my sister, now and forever!!! Hehex.....That the pros you get for being nice looking and attractive and great personality. =P
I want to attend the 10days mediation course in st john island!!! However that is during the 9th week of school and I fear that there will be submission on that day. T_T!!!.....Ahhhhh, it so sad. I want to continue to learn how to expand the rythm of my mindset. Thinking of no communciation and only peace there really make my mouth water. It not like I not going to miss everyone especially the one that trap my heart. Since holiday is coming , there is nothing I can do about it. It not whether I want to or not, is I cannot. However I believe action speak better than word. So I will still be myself throughout the time. Yup, thx xiao mei for that sentence. Well, kinda of hardly chat with her le. Hope sometime can ask her out wor.
Maybe I shouldnt talk so much but then it wont be like me. My action is alway the opposite way of my thinking. Maybe I should be careful about that. =)
Jereld really never sleep enough, it abit of heart pain to see his eye patch so big and dark. Haizzz, he big enough and I really hope he can take care of himself. Maybe to this point, I start missing Roy. Those were indeed the days of being brother toward each other though sometime I never respect his decision but it definitely for his good. There are times when great friend have to face seperation. No choice for that life. Even I cry all my life just because I cannot be with the one I love greatly , there wont be any miracle. =O
Chen ming birthday is 2days ago. I feel damn bad for unable to celebrate with him. Sian, my 4th brother yet still hardly contact. Sometime I just feel pasieh sia, awwwww......At least he still treat me as his brother. =) I`m willing to spend my time with you and all my families together to make up myself. If Jason is counted in the circle during the secondary school days, he is the 8th. Hmmm, now only hardly mixed with roy and yu hang. life still go on!!!
Birthday maybe not important but other do remember for they care. So be happy for someone care for you wor!!! XD Anyone can sms me to sms to them happy birthday if no one send their wishing to you. It will be a FREE SERVICE!!! XD
I feel like asking Kairu how much she will cost for teaching english. Oh mine, she is one of the fiercest sister I have. Either my brain turn into a supercomputer or else I have to ask someone to teach me english. The best is FREE!!! ROAR!!!!! XD
Ayiaaaaaa.........
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:30 AM on Wednesday, October 24, 2007
I found some of the lyric for some of the japanese song I like. Sharing session!!
-=Rahxephon=-
Even so, what can I possibly do?
What can I do to change this tiny box-garden reality?
I haven't even lived half of my life;
rebelling against, and embracing others -
These experiences are being tattooed onto my subconscious.
When I was stood on the edge of a cliff,
"Adversity" grabbed my arm,
and for the first time, I could see where I was.
Towards a wider field; towards somewhere deeper, larger...
I'm just heading towards a world which I can't even imagine.
Tell me, what is the definition of "strength"?
Does it mean to hurt yourself,
or perhaps to throw yourself away to protect someone who you should protect?
The gazelles in the savanna raise clouds of dust;
they have no choice but to remain standing in the wind, till the day they die.
Humans keep walking onward,
just in order to keep on living.
They proceed, while still decoding an incomplete piece of data.
It looks like I've already walked out of the desert of my beginnings, alone.
I want to remain as myself till the day I turn to ash.
Where did I come from, long ago?
Where will I go, in the far future?
Being thrown around without knowing; time will come to an end before I realize it.
It looks like I've already walked out of the desert of my beginnings, alone.
I want to remain as myself till the day I turn to ash.
When I was stood on the edge of a cliff,
"Adversity" grabbed my arm,
and for the first time, I could see where I was.
Towards a wider field; towards somewhere deeper, larger...
I'm just heading towards a world which I can't even imagine.
I want to know about myself...
This is the 1984 song of Macross THE MOBILE FORTRESS.
-=Do you remember love?=-
Right now, I hear your voice
saying "Come here to me."
Just when it seemed loneliness had beaten me.
Right now, I see you
walking over to me.
I close my eyes and wait for you to come.
Till yesterday, it seemed filled only with tears.
But now my heart is
* Do you remember? The time when our eyes first met?
Do you remember? The time when our hands first touched?
That was the very first time I set out on the journey of love.
I love you so.
Right now, I can feel your gaze
though you're not here with me.
And in my body a warmth begins to glow.
Right now, I believe in your love,
so won't you please
watch over me from so far away?
Till yesterday it seemed filled only with tears.
Now the world is...
Repeat *
** I'm not alone anymore
now that you're here with me.
Repeat *
Repeat **
Another will be Macross7, the anime is quite boring and senseless at time. The main objective of the anime is to show that war is not the solution and song could be one of the approach.
-= Try again=-
* If only one rock 'n' roll song
Echoes into tomorrow
There won't be anything to keep you
from the distant morning glow
In the embattled sky,
an aurora descends
In the beaten night,
You're not alone
Now and forever
With only a single word
The future is decided
Our beat is
A shining diamond
Into the true sky into the true sky
Our life shining into the sky
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Let's rise up
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
Wave goodbye to yesterday
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Believe with all your heart
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
You'll be loved tomorrow
Only one mistake
Can ruin your chance
But, in the middle of storms, don't avert your eyes
C'mon, over and over again, c'mon, over and over again,
You can surely start over
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Let's rise up
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
Don't ever give up
FLY AWAY-FLY AWAY
Believe with all your heart
TRY AGAIN-TRY AGAIN
Make the sun rise again
* refrain
This is the opening theme of Macross7. Although you may wonder what does blue moon mean , you may consider to have look of the opening theme to understand more about it.
-=Seventh Moon=-
When I look up at the purple panorama
of the galactic highway,
a shooting star
passes through my heart.
In the sleepless city,
my heartbeat accelerates once more
when I wish for
the unseen future.
That melody I hear...
That mysterious voice won't let me go.
Please tell me, seventh moon,
why my heart's so anxious
Are you taking me somewhere?
Palely shaking, seventh moon,
to the echoing rhythm,
I'm just searching for an answer to the maddening dance.
[Guitar Solo]
The silver dome
catches the reflection of the sunny sky
as I try to figure out
my dried-up heart.
That melody I hear...
The unshakeable power revives me.
Please answer, seventh moon,
the riddle of this power.
Am I chasing some kind of rainbow?
Dissolving in the darkness, seventh moon,
time passes by
so that some day I can continue the dream I had lost.
As long as the parade continues,
aim for a new tomorrow.
[Guitar Solo]
Please tell me, seventh moon,
why my heart's so anxious
Are you taking me somewhere?
Palely shaking, seventh moon,
to the echoing rhythm,
I'm just searching for an answer to the maddening dance.
Please answer, seventh moon,
the riddle of this power.
Am I chasing some kind of rainbow?
Dissolving in the darkness, seventh moon,
time passes by
so that some day I can continue the dream I had lost.
Please tell me, seventh moon,
why my heart's so anxious
Are you taking me somewhere?
Palely shaking, seventh moon,
to the echoing rhythm,
I'm just searching for an answer to the maddening dance.
The next few will be From Angel Heart. Although I did recommend louis only but he did not like it due to the fact it not really action packed. I like the storyline and the meaning of it. =)
Opening theme of Angel heart...
-=My destiny=-
Say goodbye
to those nights where I got tired from crying alone
Say Hello
My Heart begins to melt in the warm sunlight
this feeling that thinks of you strongly
changes into the strength leading to tomorrow
You’re My Destiny
the feeling for you trace down my cheeks as tears
and it overflows, unable to convey it into words
Say my name
putting my wish on the star shooting across the autumn sky
Say your name
so that that name doesn’t turn into a mere memory
no matter how close I feel you are
why does this loneliness just increases?
You’re My Destiny
I’ll find you even when I’m reborn so
please don’t forget that we loved each other
ah if I loved you
more than now, more than this
this heart of mines will break...
Is this Destiny...?
You’re My Destiny
the feeling for you trace down my cheeks as tears
and it overflows, unable to convey it into words
Cause I believe I’ve found my Destiny
-=Battlefield of love(2nd opening theme)=-
I stand alone in the passing crowd
I look up and see the moon I can’t reach
Even if I reach out my hand, I won’t be rewarded
With love and truth, but for that very reason
Now I want you to love me
The way you want to
Even if we reach the end of the earth
This love has no end
I want to keep sleeping like this
Wrapped in your arms
It doesn’t matter what scars I have
I want to carve out proof
That if I’m with you
I can turn them into strength
Even if we don’t have the future that was promised to us
We can’t turn back, we can’t go back now
Now I want to love you
With everything I have
Even if we eventually end up at the end of the world
This love has no end
I want to keep protecting you
Wrapped in my chest
Now I want you to love me
The way you want to
Even if we reach the end of the earth
This love has no end
I want to keep sleeping like this
Now I want to love you
With everything I have
Even if we eventually end up at the end of the world
This love has no end
I want to keep protecting you
Wrapped in my chest
Well, that all.....Peng yu now here with me le...time to do work!!! 10PM le...lolx..I feel more like sleeping XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 9:46 PM on Sunday, October 21, 2007
I hardly get the concept from the brief. I really feel it is my english that give me problem. Most likely I will make use of the holiday to get one of my sister to teach me. I know this kind of thing maybe abit late but one thing for is that there is really a need for it. Ayiaaaaa......ayiaaa ayiaaaa!!!!
It good to feel guilty but it is useless when you know but you do nothing. Woot, hope when that person read he know who I am talking about. XD
Thx the classmates of their concept that generate new idea for me. I cant think out of a box just because I never do it before. Maybe some wont like it but whatever it is, I just grabbing the essence. Hehex
Yup ytd is Sarah birthday and so is Hui keng birthday. I wont say anything out since Sarah mention that her birthday is nothing. =) The meal is nice cause it FREE!!! XD ooop.......imao!!! Thx for the treat my brother and so my daughter. Hehex....too bad la. I really no money sia. -_-||
I take Mrt so many times and this is the first time I get stuck in the middle of the 2door. Everyone rush into the train and then I was lagging behind due the heavy bag and my camera bag. So while I was in the middle of the 2 door. The outside metal door and the inner door just close on me and my bag. I still can wriggle my way in the train with other people all looking at me. Say isnt that some kind of entertain?Hahahaha, I know some keep on looking at me grinning or giggling away. Well, kinda of lame huh? XD
So Me and Jason went to chen boon house to pass jun jie ez link card and Jereld and Sarah take bus home. Chen boon leg seen to be better and he still playing game happily sia. Hahaha......on the way my left wrist was hit by bird shit!?!?! -_-
Send Jason to his void deck and return home. Stuck outside the house for quite sometime because my parent lock the wooden door from inside. -______-|||...sweat*
After bathing, rushed to ping siong house. Hao long when got miss me sia? He got ming si what?? EEeeeek!!! I dun need him to miss me!!!! Vomit** Jkjk...hahaha...Went there to attend the so call tutorial and the guide line. Ping siong guide me on how to do graphic in 3D. It seen that perpective is very important with the shadow and lining. Hmmmm, show both of them the flash I want to research during my coming holiday. Got this address from ping siong and see that friend work. Totally impressed and left me full of question mark!!!
Left ping siong house after 2am plus and tata!!! End of that day!!!
Soemthing to say seriously, disease just fall on anyone anywhere and anytime. However it is so fucking unfair to fall on people that are so kind. Mentioning about how chen boon father pass away from cancer sometime make me feel like crying. I still remember the last time I see uncle at MRT station with the rest of the guys. He saw us and simile so happily and he seen to be fit with no problem. However within 2week, he just pass away. So fucking shit, I dun want to accept it nor want to believe it. I strongly believe in my judging of people and I dun understand why would such a nice guy die so early. He still have to suffer the effect of cancer before death. If god can be so mercy why cant just help to relieve the pain before his death.....
From the exp until now, one thing we have to understand is that life is definitely unfair or fair due to each indvuial mindset. Haizzzz.....I want to do my part to take care of my parent to show them how much I love them. I will definitely wait for that chance.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 9:06 AM on Saturday, October 20, 2007
Please go to crunchyroll and watch KOGEPAN!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:18 PM on Monday, October 15, 2007
Went to paradiz center to play lan together. I play dota after 3months of untouching it!!! Wow....luckily my skill still there. Hahahah....
And so there goes one day. It ust so hard to imagine that lives is passing by faster and faster. I totally agree with huat, we just dunno how on earth we spent our time. Even we look back, there no time to regret or spend our tears to flow.
I like this lyrics very much.
-battlefield of love-
Standing still in the moving crowd,
I look up and see the unreachable moon hovering in the sky,
Even I`ll reach out to you, neither love or truth,
will be requnited, so that is why,
I want you to love me the way you can,
even if we reach the edge of the earth,
this love is endless,
I want to embrace and continue protecting you,
THe lyric is not completed and I cant get the full lyrics.
Each day is making me more and more nervous until this evening when I went out for dinner alone. The vast sky with the sun setting down clam my anxiety. I am grafeful for that.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:37 PM on Sunday, October 14, 2007
Got the apple during wed night and start to configurate the system. It`s simple but I dont like some of it`s stuff and I have alot of trouble opening and closing the program using short cut. I do not know the short cut making me totally headache.RAWR!!!! So I use com and apple to msn, finally able to access 2 acc at one time le. Yeaaaaaa.....seen quite a number of pple who haven add my new acc -_-||
Get to chat with kl about the flash I want to do. It very hard and you need a lot of action script to have it animation to the best is what he told me when I show him the webbie of what I wanna do. Oh god........
Pat told the class that there will be essay onward for 3rd yr. Power, I got problem in english and then you tell me got essay. Would you like to read singish for my essay and entertain you with my essay for that whole day? Imao.....I gonna find a english teacher real soon if that essay stuff is confirm. I try to print screen the flash stuff but then I dunno the short cut for mac and in the end went to another computer lab to do it. What a waste of time.....
Get to have lunch with David and peng yu together. I like the conversation with David, there are just some points I toally agree with him. Went to play CS with the guys after that which I actually want to do my research for Pc leong. Grrrr...what to do?? TUU Duuu tuuuu......In the end went there didnt really got anything to show her although the lesson really funny.Hahahaha..
Well,today morning lesson is quite relax and I can forget to do my style research which make me speechless. I remember everything but I just forget that very thing which is the style research. Really nothing to say sia.......why keep on forget sia.....grrrr.....
I enjoy the chat with Da jie ytd night. Yea.....da jie jia u!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:17 PM on Friday, October 12, 2007
Through these times I faced, nothing is as hard as this. So much for living until now I just cant balance myself well. It a shame to tell them what I really now when my father tell me study harder. It a shame to see my brother pushing himself so hard and me standing behind him far far away. It just make me jealous of all my friends my sisters and brothers of their lives while I am nothing but just a loner which I think I am one. Sometime I just call someone to chat with to let me pour out what I want and I feel better but just for a while. Sitting down along the shore which swept away my sorrow. Who know that whenever I left the park or my friends, all the unwanted memories just return to haunt me. So stuck in my life, I dunno but I just look so lost. I just want to run away from here and from everyone. I dunno what am I doing but it so hard to pretend to everyone that nothing happen. I not like those people who are popular and I am only wanted when there a chance for me of being used except for a few. Hope? All the hope I have seen to dimished from my world. It just like how the sun had burnt itself out. If I say I dun need any warmth then I definitely send myself to grave earlier than expected.
Everyone have a reason to live. If I still live then the only thing that pull me to my sense will be those around supporting me especially my parent. So I might as well say I am a coward which like to forget everything. It so crazy to believe that I was being depised and being misunderstood in class. I dunno!!! I feel down with the grip of darkness clinging my leg with my hand grabbing the rock on the cliff. If you read now It could be maybe I abit depress and I just want to type how I feel. You can dun bother to read if you feel it`s disturbing.
It hard to action when you know. It not I cant do what everyone say. For the god sake I just want everyone to be happy and then all kind of irony stuff happen. What happen? Why does this kind of happen? Give me a pair of wing and I will go confront god on the games they played on me. Pain pain pain....that cannot be compared to the rest.
Trying my best to do yet alway have the opposite happening of what I expect. This is so unfair but everything that happened cannot be undone. So lost for words right now and I can just imagine I am standing on the edge of a hill shouting away all my anger and fustration in the clear blue sky. Trying fly a kite and then cut it away when it is flying at it peak. I want to be like that...freedom!!!
I wont run away from the problems but it will be a tough nut to crack. Time to be better for tomorrow!!! JA!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:57 PM on Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Sometime you wonder is it possible to cut open your heart and throw it away in the sea. Thing that seen so important turned out to be the only thing I do not want.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:20 AM on
Human are getting extinct........when will it be hamster turn? XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:35 AM on
Guo xiong sms me on friday night!!! He still in camp!!! XD During the night time meet Jasper, huat,jeffrey and ah di. Eat supper together and talk alot. Hmmmm, I can roughly what jeff anf jasper want to say. I dunno but then I think I can do it. Thx alot jasper, I didnt I was given so many chances anD I may still have the chance. Cool....haha....Jason nvr meet me up. So boring..... =/
Sat afternoon want to go book the basic driving theory one but then went to take photograph instead. Went to peng yu house to learn playing piano, S.E.N.S wish is quite simply and I like it although sound abit different from the mp3 one. Peng yu then play S.E.N.S kirara which is really fantastic!!! Nice music sia....Grrr...I really regret for not learning in my childhood. I just cant understnad why am I so naughty when small.....sob sob.... =(
Went to help peng yu with his funiture stuff and went to the factory and saw alot of stuff. I really feel like stealing some for the Visual study the chirstmas tree. Hahahah...jk la....went together with piggy and penguin and then went to grandma house for the camera memory card. Ask xiao shu for the loaction of the pic he took. Then everyone set off during 4.30pm. The weather is really bloody hot sia.....woah!!
When reach the place, I forget the name le. haha....Anyway there got nice monkeys!!! We went to the park there and I start taking pictures. Take until 7pm like that then went for a brk and return home. Hmmmm......it quite nice but then too cloudy that disappoint me. Well, lucky kctan mention is in grayscale. All I need is just to brighten the image and grayscale it. Overrall, I feel it is quite romantic down there. The view is pretty nice and beautiful, quiet and peacful. Omg!!! So lovely down there!!! XD
Reach back home not long later, sit and play all the night. Hahahaah....Well, I not quite what is the situation of my parent. I really dunno and I dun wish to know too. I cannot make any decision too for I am a child that all. It lke parent in cold war and I really dunno how to talk to both my parent. Haizzz.....Bong liao bong liao..... =/
Today is really tiring....woa..... XD
-I will be more responsible in future and therefore believe me once again-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:01 PM on Saturday, October 06, 2007
Few days ago, my left eye keep on tweaking non-stop for 3days. During the 4th day, while going to lesson I walk out the door and almost step on a pretty big greenish beautiful moth which just fly directly under my leg. I stared for a moment. I do not know what to say but then GOd bless.
Visit the aunties again, thx for the tips. I understand things cant be force, I`m just doing my part. Praying and wishing which is what I alway do. Lilly alway want free stuff one... -_______-||....I no money to buy chocolate!!! Really!!! LOLX!!! New yr will buy one...steady!!!
You are the brightest star that illuminate the heart of people. Thou you attract many ye you await only one. Whoever you choose, it definitely happiness that follow after your decision. Shine brightly in the skies.............
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:15 PM on Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Ytd night attend the photography lesson and was being taught how to develop photo in darkroom. It was definitely fun with everyone screaming and shouting for the sake of fun. Hahaha.....I still haven actually learn how to print. -____-|| Ad design was sure shoick cause I read the brief wrongly!!! Power, make myself pasieh...haha....
Get to ask idea about photography from xiao shu. Get alot of idea and learn several new what to do and what you shouldnt And what you should take note* Now I just realise how big the difference of my standard with him. Now then realise sg photgraphy club not a club for newbie -_-||.....I want to get that cert also!! Thx alot xiao shu!! =D
Wei yan kor kor call me ytd night telling me to go have a look at the Mac laptop on thursday afternoon. Weeee!!! I almost completely forget about him. Ooopx!!! =X lucky mother got tell him about it cause I also not quite sure about computer espicially laptop like mac stuff. Get to see him again!! XD
I thought SD is alrealy the only one who like to use vugalrities but then the champion tittle should belong to constance alrealy. While walking home with her, at bugis there. There was this passerby who happen to knock into her bag accidentally from my observant. Then it start, she angerily hurl some vulagrities at the passerby who still continuing her walk. Wow, I was being stunned for at least 5minutes. My mind just go blank like that. So many ah lian I know, she can be even fiercer than those ah lian. Waaaa.....make me nothing to say. Power.....wonder what will happen to her kid. Oh my god!!! =X That why I scare gal who are fierce......Runn!!
Jin lai have a chubby kid who is 3yrs old alrealy. Weeeee!!!! So cute!!!! I really just want to go back to time and be his little brother. Arrgghhh...I bet alot of people sure miss him. Awwwww........hope to meet again My brother. Wish you happy family and a bright child!!! =D
Get to know Phyllis is getting marry soon although the date is not confirm. Woa, she now only 17 if not wrong, pretty interesting right? =X Although it is heard to be shotgun marriage but then that person is willingly to take up the responsibility. As a friend of her, of course we can only wish her all the best. That guy seen to be ok fellow. 4month is really really short but they dont have chioce too I guess. God know and may the god bless them too..... =)
-=(There no need for word, the smile you have give me strength for tomorrow)=-
Well, I just want to be by your side that all!!! I feel contended but that day still seen far far away
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:10 PM on Tuesday, October 02, 2007
I get to understand abit more about presenting work and I know my standard is really suck to the core!!! Waaaaa....I really want to learn from him. He mention that previously nafa art standard is quite high not like now so slack. Woooo.....Squeak!!! I sense danger!!!! XD I`m dead.....
Getting the cheapiest mac laptop soon within 2week and the motivation should be triggering soon with now I realise how important self-discipline is. Cool,now I dont mind a fierce gf with me yelling at me to do my work. Imao!!! That just kidding...hahaha...I dont want to be a slave!! XD
I know I really have to redo some of the work due to the term2 presentation. I know last minute is the one which lead my downfall. I am sorry for myself and to everyone too for being like this keep on slacking all my life...lolx....Chill somemore and I think I will accompany penguin at the north pole surfing the ice!!! Weeeee!!!! That freedom if it happen!!! XD Cant imagine how great it could be.
I know I`m stupid and useless but then surely I must have something to achieve in my life. Hahaha....wonder what can I achieve now? =/
Xiao shu Camera is fuji s3 pro!!!! Wtf!!! That camera itself is rank 16 out of 124 which compared to mine which he gave is 64 out of 100plus....Man, what to do....I quite happy cause IT FREEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! However if I can use his camera, surely I can get better picture!!! Imao......his camera cost more than 3k...One scratch I will be send to the grave instantly!!! Scary!!!
Oh, time to say something. I want to express my wishes to those war veteran. I do not and may never understand the situation one may faced when returning to your own country to settle down with injuries that make you unable to work for a living and facing debt. I feel hell too when reading the new, to me I really feel like I have no where to run. If not for families and friends who stay side by side, surely commiting sucide is the only solution. No house to stay.......how can a soldier who fight for his own country and come back to face such situation? Peace is not easy to achieve but war is not an option. A total pacfiy( <-spelling not correct I think!!)
may not happen but senidng your own countrymen to fight and to return to have such life. What will you do if you are them, stoppping giving nice word and beautiful ideal to the world. When one go beyond the strength of it own but when continuing expanding his vision. Yes, they can have glory, fame,wealth and alot thing but for a limited of time. When your era is gone, you get nothing except emptiness and loneliness with no true friends and hardly anyone by your side.
This is the same logic apply to all people out there. You can be the top student and be a rich kid or whatever status you gain. The moment you are on the line of external(Illusion) you must balance yourself with intenal(the instinct of oneself) to see the light and darkness equally balancing your life. It is hard for everyone even for me. However whatever you do, think positive and you find life much beautiful as ever!!!
aLaMAak!!! I need a space to put the photography ink stuff. Feel like approaching people with locker but then....Who GOT LOCKER?!??! Imao...guess I have to carry to school.
Friend is not a transaction during a anime I have watch. I totally agree with it. Everyone got different destiny and lifestyle. We may get seperated like me now lonely in siglap!!!! Waaaa....why must it be me!!!! @___@||....SOb....however in my heart, I still care for them and no word is needed for explaination.What we do for our loved one, our family and our friends is pray for them everyday. This is for yourself as well as for them. Even you are unapperciated, it ok just continued to the same. So ja!!! =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:30 PM on Sunday, September 30, 2007
Fm933 still got play Ai ru chao shui ?!?!? Woa.......I really want to perfect singing that song. However the pitch so high!!!! My throat cannot go higher or else my voice give a *pop* sound and then you see me choking liao....Meow!!! Hahahaha.....gab mention that can train one. How how how?? =/ Old song are definitely better with meaning but then I also want to sing japanese song because the word you sing out is fine and smooth but then I dunno how to prounce the word. Imagine I alrealy have problem prouncing english and chinese word, that is far more terrible in japanese!! >_
Where Jasper?? I remember he will be back soon but no new from him!!!! Guo xiong dunno book out anot. Sian le!!!! I haven send the picture to the sui how they all and I WANT to edit first before sending to them. EEeeeekkk.....my grandma house com really cmi liao.....virus is totally dominating the whole com. It will crash sooner or later but hopefully can hold until I got the hard disk I have from my brother. Thank to ah di for buying me a hard disk!!! XD It so NICE COS IT FREE!!! WEEEEEE!!!!! I still can ask him why is there porn video in folder that is named music folder and he just grin at me. Waaa liew.....make me damn pasieh sia!!! >_
Mascot look fun and terrible cause I dunno how to sew but maybe I can go find 3gu pou to teach me if the time come. I hate needle espicially the big big one for transfering the blood. However since it for good cause, endure lor....hahaha...dunno why this few day after the donation can get dizzy easily one....
Saw shi nian on the way back, what to say. Can understand him and his lifestyle. Well, really time to go higher......
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.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:07 AM on Saturday, September 29, 2007
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 8:56 PM on Friday, September 28, 2007
When it rain it pour and I have to wake up!! Alamak.....the best time to sleep when it rain and I wake up when it rain. Tuuu duuu tuuu.......sad.....I wonder how much time will I spend finish typing whatever I want. Hahahaha....
First thing to note down, I know that studying is important. However if you are taking such tactic for the reason for breakup y9ou may cause the person depression with mental impact which will either block out the person will or have the morale fall. With such effect, the person actually may have greater diffculties in studying for O level. 1 month left and it not wise to breakup, that will apply to those who going to do that!! =X During this stepping stone of their life,what they need is encouragment and support at this moment. Dont leave them at this point, you will regret it. When you look back and wonder what the hell you have done, you will wish time will refold again. So hope 1 paragraph is able to express those victim feeling, spread the msg around. There are sure pros and cons too, but either they still need love just like everyone. =)
Ytd night went to ecp for enjoyment, can see alot of people there despite the fact that it is weekday and many tradditional lanterns. So me,peng yu and huan yeong just went to the seashore there and sit under the lively luminous moon. So we were chatting about some show and then suddenly huan yeong ask one question. Dont you feel it funny that until our age we never have a gf before? You see even ah meow ah kao ah sheng ah huat those kanna ram by lorry one all got gf one but left us no gf. Well, I guess is because nowaday Gal prefer guy who are being rammed by lorry or truck or love ghost movie. LOL!?!?!? Every morning can scare them wake up that why the gal will chose this kind of person or watch too much beauty and the beast. Who know, whatever now or future I only can hope to understand more about her. Nothing to hurry since I`m not going marry anyway, bleahx*** However the situation is like in red zone, look like I need a wing to cover her.
There are times people will fall into depression. It like everyone have to go through and to attain happines is to step back to examine**. For female it will be easier since you all have period and mood wing alway happen. Alamak.....you can swing how high you want, you dont swing until you fly off la....Muahahahah...When you feeling moody go out or even when you are tired chat with you family. It better than me alone down here in ecp and the only solution I have is to go ecp to enjoy the scenery there than meeting all my bros and sisters in cck. Tiaozzzz...so get something on your hand and hopefully you can get over it soon. =)
Today went to blood donation, 3rd times this time and it really pain sia!!! Alamak, the first 2 times not pain one sia, get to served by an auntie. I dunno she poke the needles for the blood transfer correctly anot.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!! Everything is fine until when I can go off, I just realise my right arm hurt. It like a sharp piercing pain still inside there.......Crap...so stay in workshop for quite sometime and then go happy hour with indran and gabriel. Funny thing is that gaberial dont have my hp no which left me still hoping around for answer. =/
After the fun, went to smu there to chill. Chill until we chat abit more senstive stuff, thing is I`m abit old fashion and abit tradditional la. So it arlight la, my personality mahx....hahaha...some people dont see them funky or weird people, they are good at heart and they apperciate thing around them. Never judge a person easily too, mix more with them to understand them better instead of condemn such kind of person. I feel like I also being condemned too!! =P Fact is simple, I only want to watch her back and be her silent guardian till the time to leave arrived or to be together(My wish*). For I will be happy for I know the one in my heart has truly found happiness. Love is alway giving never taking, it can only be embrace that all. It can be hold but with gentle and care. It sound easy but to make it in action will be hard which I think I also may not make it. Hahahahaha.....
(???)
Take a feather with you by your side,
hold it under the moonlight to shine,
a warm cloak of blessing cover you,
a comfortable feel that usher you to bed,
Never feel empty for now or ever,
for moon is similing at you now,
the sun will be there for you,
never feel lost and empty,
Life is filled with thorn and pricks,
Let my wing be your stepping stone,
to guide you out of your misery,
close your eye and pray,
for the moment you pray,
I will be praying for you too,
I will be the one,
the one to give you happiness....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:30 AM on Thursday, September 27, 2007
Get to meet all classmate again except yvetta and gafyy. Boy, why they absent one? Gaffy somehow really let me disappoint, he did told me he will do his best. Haizzz, when will the leaf rest on the bank? Ah lin shu shu went back to his design firm due to some situation and just chat with him my problem. I saw hope when listening to his question. Are you lost? This sentence power la!!! Hahahaha......I really lost and had no motivation at all. I understand staying back home is better than living with my grandma. There are pros and cons which me myself is unable to choose for I can only adapt not change. Waaa.....it sound so bad!!! T_T!!!
Guess as what Ah lin shu shu mention, it like that one. I dont see hope in unite the class guess fat hope le. =/ I gonna book basic driving test!!! Arrrggghhh!!! I gonna drive to the best spot for taking the most beautiful sunset and make it in my portfolio. Or drive to lim chu kang in the night to take some ghost photo!!! XD As long I dont get in headline I happy liao....Muahhaaha..
SRW produced by the Jam project is full of different rythm and instrument. However I really like the music even it could be mostly only 1min plus to 3minutes but it strong reflect the emotion and feeling to the listeners. I bet if I can do a nice flash with one of the song, I make all viewer cry!!! XD
(Friend)
Do not feel lonely when you are alone,
call or find anyone in your handphone,
Everyone will be glad to hear you voice,
trust us to trust you to trust a better tomorrow,
lead us to your favorite place,
show us that world of your own,
you will find friendship with us,
so live today and for your future,
we may not change your future,
we can shape your future together,
hand upon me and everyone,
you find laughter and joy today,
take it as the prize for today,
make it as memory forever,
in your heart or your mind,
that what friendship are for,
Open the door to have fresh air,
you will find light beyond that door,
embrace it with love and care,
friendship are fragile at time too,
Keep your eye to mark the step,
Angel in disguise guide you along,
Devil of seduction pull you down,
choose your friend carefully,
How about this poem? Maybe the english is abit simple...but this is for many out there. Cheer!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:52 AM on Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Reaching the school, my face was full of -__-?!?!?...THE SCHOOL HAD OPERA!!! Omg!!! The best thing was that no student apperciate about the opera and everyone was restless. Seeing how almost all students had the sian sian expression made me want to laugh.Ayiooo......Maybe even Mr codeiro should start to think for everyone. =X I meet alot of old face which really brigthen the night!! So many friends were there!!! Chat non stop with some and must really confess everyone change but for the better too. Weee!!! I wont forget the old days in school. It is because of everyone that why I miss the school so much not the school!!! XD
So take the photo of the school and from the school area.No one hang around at the 6th corner. I expect to see some loving dovely couple hanging around. Woo hooo...heheheh.... Left the school around 9pm and went to meet jason. Saw him with DONKEY!! =X Well, that the nick given to her from them* =X I`m innocent!! Dont come poke me asking who say one.Heex....Take photo with friends and it is yi ping birthday. Get to take photo with sec5 friends,it seen they are the only one left who still remember me. =P I feel honoured* =X
So after leaving the school meet jason and then on the way to limbang park saw xiao mei at the playground!! Tiaozzz.....small world I guess. Hahaha, chat for a short while since I also on the rush. Somehow I got the feeling actually xiao mei did like the sec2 guy. I cannot give any comment because I am the 3rd party. It good to try, even it fail. Everyone still young. Although it is not impossible for a girl to be older than a guy to be together however the only problem is the age that matter. Too young.....hmmm....so the best for Xiao mei bai...haha...
Wait for Ym and chen boon at lot1 for a while and saw Jian kai!!! Woo hoo....he also kanna caught by the Saving program the sale promoter!!! Waaaa.....lucky I keep on reject the promoter...woo hoo!!! Continued the journey to limbang park to meet xingee....waa liew....actually if not she my sister I wont want to meet her. Walk so far!!! >.<....Dot!! Nothing much to chat also....ayiooo....so boring...haha....Meet Wendy again!! Woa......she sure look very pretty if she grow 5cm taller. Oopx....ahaha....First time talk to Samatha too. Wooo.....thought I wont get a chance to speak to her in my life...wahhahahaha......Junhao was there alone too. Just make me wonder how come there isnt any other guy with him. Hmmmm...... =/
After 10pm plus Peng yu come take us for supper, Tian zhong and Ai Xue also join in the fun too. Of course not to mention Airpork!!! XD Junjie bicycle is quite light compared to it size,bet must be quite an exp one. Went to Ang mo kio eat....and blah blah blah........1can of drink cost you $1.50!!! WAAA......That can drink really spoil my night!!! Awww......yuck, what the hell is the manager of that food court thinking!!! Why everyone anyhow rise the cost of the product one....Zzzzz...this is so unfair for everyone. Wont forget that night thank to everyone for that night, everyone of you just bring me back. Yeaaaa!!! XD
Sat was quite slack. Went to ym house and cut hair with ym. The cut is somehow really T.T!!!....MY HAIR!!! IT OVER!!! MUMMY!!! Ym mother give me a hair tonic!! Imao....it better work or else I will be monk in future!!! XD In the night meet with Jereld and Jason. This is damn horrible man, I only get to meet them less than 5 times this year and less than 3 times for xingee and yu hang!!! No one complain so I`m still safe!! =X Went to canal to chat and I am very surprise that night was quite windy and the moon just shine beautifully on the bridge as if welcoming us. The atomsphere was perfect and romantic but too bad, all guy only!!! Sad, must really wait for a gf then bring her there....Ggagagaga!!! XD One thing to say, no matter where the future lead us or even seperated us from anyone closed to us or what. Remember what we spent in the past, believe us and believe youself. No word will be needed when the time come. This is what everyone have to face. =)
So Sunday which is actually today la, wake up at 7.45am!!!! I must swear this is really the 1st sunday I wake up so early this yr!!! Power!!! I still actually having my perfect dream!!! Well, actually there isnt any dream. XD Went to help carry the food and meet peng yu and help carry the food. Meet Mu xing and Jian yi!!! WOO!!! It been a long time to see them again. Setting off after taking the bread at teckwhye market. It rain quite bad, everyone use the plastic bag for cover and apparently I am the worst user because I am the only one totally drenched when we reach Tian hui!!! T_T!!!.....my sock just turn soggy....soggy soggy!!! Well, it was really very crowded and quite hot too despite the weather. The food abit exp though.....Hmmm....somemore also hardly spend much....Saw alot of angel..can even see ming yik eye stuck on a gal!!! Muhahahahaha.......lolx....saw tsee wee also. =)
Went back grandma house after the visit and taking photo. Went for afternoon nap not long later and tata!!
Upload some of the photo at flicker since it been easy to upload several at one time. Wooooo......Laptop will be hard to come since I had to pay too. @_@.....tiaozzz.....City hunter and Angel heart is a touching story. Very impressed at the storyline. 5stars and it heartwarming too!!! XD
-=Our destiny lead us afar from our past however just move on and forward with faith.=-
That what I can think of to tell everyone. =P
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:02 AM on Monday, September 24, 2007
Maybe yes or no, we never know but what is left is for us to gain isnt it everyone? Run along and we will win for our lives. Yuppy!!! Tml friday....it spell trouble for my phone bill!!! My extra soucre of income was cut off!!! WEEEE!! Look like someone will be headline tml....Roar!!!
I will learn to that stage and understand why they willingly to listen and keep calm. It is not easy but I want to be like them and think the same way as them. Coldplay music is nice.....listen to their song like yellow,clock and so on!! Ggaga
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:33 AM on Friday, September 21, 2007
Cant find SD one,her pen knife she want it urgently but everytime call her alway mailbox. How to use mailbox? I no idea le...hahaha...who want to be a teacher to teach me? =P She better dun start with all those funny vuglar word on me!! Run away from her words!!! Weeee!!!
Tomorrow teckwhye secondary school and xingee ask me whether I will go. I think for one whole day and I really dunno should I go. Honestly I dun feel like going, I want to spend my own night meaningful to me. Maybe a night with my family and my friend bai. Although I miss xingee alot and sad to say I hardly take her out or chat with her even I am her brother. Guess this happen everytime to all my so call sibling,goodness no one come complain never spend time with them!!! WAhahahaha!!!! XD
I want to go Siew lian auntie house to take photo of her cats.She used to have more than 50cats in her own flat but she give alot away to dunno where and now left only 10plus. However xiao bai still with her!!! Xiao bai!!! I wanna to know you!!! Dont eat me !!! Cat dont eat hamster right?? Heeee!!! No idea whether I can go to her house at evening....Hmmmm....
Guo xiong went to NS ytd not today!!! WAA liew!!! Sob la.....I want to give him my best wishes but I forget!!! I also forget tse hwee sister birthday!!! Well done lor, I can even forget my best friend and my sister important date!!! Look like I not a good friend and person!!! XD Fu xian kor kor come back to sg 2months ago, I was very happy that he come back even though he mention it was a 3yrs trip. I got a feeling something bad happen but I believe it good to be back. Hardly meet and chat with him but he is really like kor kor to me. I cant do anything for anyone and everyone but I pray for all those who still dwell in earth. Be happy for yourself and for everyone!!! =D
Saw kee wee today when I decide to send my greeting of moon cake festival to all the aunties and promoter I know. Everyone was fine and saw lily!!! Thought she not going to work after married, thought she want a baby? Her tummy not big le...lolx...even big maybe is full of those oil. Muahahahaha!!!! =X jk ok?
Thx 3shu for the $60!! I own him alot of times and too much I guess but one thing for sure, I will not disappoint him. However need $80 more....siao la...help me!!! Omg...fortune god drop me a gold bar!!! One is enough!!! XD But the more the merrier!!!! WEEEE!!!! Just dont drop on my head....hahahaha....
It time for happy and fun song. I will start to work on the lyrics and the illustration soon hopefully. Lyric dun have to be complicated to be nice. It is the rythm and the sound and the meaning.
Thank to angel heart anime and comic. I realise what is the most important of life. Yaaaaa!!! 2bucket of tears today(Jk)!!! HAHAHA!!! Think you cry more y9ou can lose weight!!! Gonna give a try!!! =P
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:46 PM on Thursday, September 20, 2007
So I sleep very happy happy and I switch off the hp alarm and even the alarm I just tap it off when both ring at different timing.....it was near 10am when I got an sms...I read it and that one sms really wake me up!! It goes as dear customer, pls make immediate payment for your bills,or outgoing calls will be barred in 3days, pls ignore this if you have already made full payment. Waaaa....sian la...early in the morning this kind of stuff can happen...the problem is I no money sia!!! Omg!!!! The school fee and the expenses alrealy making my bank account number to eggy soon....I like egg but I dont want an egg number in my bank account!!! How how!!! So too bad la, I must think of something or else no outgoing call. Eeeeek....I nothing to say sia.....bet it will be $130 plus for that 3month of phone bill....Awwww....
2days left now.....sobx....gonna think of something....maybe I just take a knife and wait near an Atm there and rob someone. Woa....jk la...hahaha..u know my style. I wont do it....lalla.....Went to the school and do the 3D...best la...nice angel...Wing wing wing!!! One day hopefully my back will grow big and nice wings and I just fly to where i want. Dont have to pay for transport too!!! Weeee!!!!
This week abit tight..........well,sunday religon food fair I want to turn up. There will be alot of nice angels around. Yuppy!!! XD Heex!! Well, school starting soon. That a bad joke I guess....eeek!!! Got to hear Alicia going clubbing!! Quite surprise but when heard why she go that really make me laughing. Well, hope everything goes well for her. Such a nice girl, say wont we pray for her happiness? =) Gab say quite handsome and Joe say normal, whatever it is. It is their destiny and it is the fateful encounter that lead them together. =)
Mistake jasper brother for jasper!!! I feel someone will come finding me with a knife soon when he return to sg. Run run!!! XD
Life is how we create and enjoy with meaning. Live with joy and laughter to brighten our days ahead..... =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:08 AM on
Promise to show Mr lim my work on monday but then games just holdme up for hours and I never get it done...guess who the cuplrit!! Dont look at me!! XD
I get to watch Angel heart which was actually introduce by my uncle then my brother. Honestly speaking I dont understand why they like that kind of slow story so much. So I just watch the anime at crunchyroll and POWER LA!!! Nice story and comedy too...make me laught and shed tears like crap sia....5box of tissue paper gone in one afternoon today....LOLX....damn...I can be a water dispenser you know...haha...that jk... =P
I understand abit more life* and yea with my personality I know I can improve more although I`m sensitive...well,Assasin also quite sensitive.....that physically and I`m mentally!!! Weee!!! So does that count I`m a Assasin too? =X
Went to the chinatown see and see the lantern festival....hmmm....prefer chinese garden which had a lot more varieties and I am very impressed by the big big temple which I forget the name. Damn big and I really love the place....cool....one big buddha at the middle and everyone praying at him. So I was thinking, what happen if I am the one sitting there? I got a feeling, no one will even step into the temple bai...whahahaha.....sound like a damn bastard...lolx...
Hmm.....eating meat sometimes is quite a serious problem....I dunno what to do but I guess just try my best!!!
Anyway got to chat the end of world stories and what will happen. So earthquake and some water disaster just pop out and all the top government official run away leaving the country in complete chaos. Many dead from the collapsed building or drowned in those low level area. Shops being broken into and people being murdered openly with people all running around back home. No transport and roads all jam up. Lunatic just run away killing spree and destroying everything. Many left without shelter and night fall,the whole country was in pitch darkness with the only hope that the stars or the moon will guide them to their home. For weeks later when people in their home ran out of ration and water will start to explore with the embrace of death or new beginning. Those who are too weak to step out into the real world will either die from starvation, water and illness. Considering months later, many will fall due to the fact singapore have no agriculture and many food and drink should alrealy being cosumed alrealy.Many will start to kill each other and eat them up until the nothing left or hope arrive.
So in the night pray for the sun rise and in the day pray for sun set.......smell of burning and blood all around with smoke turning the whole sky black. It sound like a total hell and the moment you are in the street, there will be someone chasing you with some weapon. Kill or to be killed will be the lesson from that moment.
It could happen soon or later cause gabriel say it could be either this or next generation. Whatever it is, dont happen now or later cause I dont like it and I dont want to see people killing each other!! Sound scary mary right? Wooot!!! Dont start having nightmare after reading my post!!! Wahahahahaah....when that moment,use the power of your faith to survive the onslaught!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:28 AM on Wednesday, September 19, 2007
My brother was nice and of course we brother understand our own situation. It like we are now abit of so call facing some finacial problem and well our parent seen like got alot of stuff to pay. I dunno cause my duty now is to study hard......it gonna be really hard!!! So my brother just tell me one of his personnal stuff. I have nothing to say but his words do console me so is mine too. Whatever happen, we just have to be ourselves and do what we alway do. For our own sake and not for other. One thing is that we cannot pleased everyone, my words and my action alone may hurt you or other but yet it is never my intention. Only wish time and chance will arrive together to let me earn what I want.
Maybe someone can deny or heck about it but one thing for sure is that action speak louder than word. Since I`m abit of sensitive if doesnt mean I do not sense anything for that crazy 2weeks,hehe....
Last night get to know Jason live at where. 3rd floor and I can SEE him from my kitchen room!! Imao!!! Then we still can wave to each other saying hello!! you are the one waving right?!? wAHAHAHAHAH!!! Gonna meet him later for tea.I was thinking of visiting Violet since the projects mostly were given but then I remember I told Mr Lim that I will show him my work and my drawing including the research. So I do not know what to do for tomorrow and there is a farewell gathering for guo xiong too and also for japer for his educational trip to china.
One thing that flash across my mind was Yu jing and Hiutung. I do not know how and why but it like it a pity to such an outcome for only 2yrs plus. Feeling come and fade along with time? Seriously speaking, it all come from our mind. Maybe you got the feeling regardless of your choice but to fade the feeling is by each indivual. Too much talking is useless so the best thing to do is to apperciate what was left behind and what come along. If you want to regret something then go and cherish what you have to amend the mistake you done. For me, I guess I really no hope liao....now that crap. Imagine someone keep on giving hope to other and when it come to his turn. He just remain silent because that idiot only know to talk but not to apply on himself.Lolx....alamak.....
Wait for miracle and it will be 50-50 odd.....win or lose just nice...hahaha...
Moonlight shining on the bay,
Misty as alway along the river,
Walking along and alone,
hand in the pocket gripping with anxiety,
The night so lonely for none can bear,
fogging the dim litted passage,
so blurred my vision my light,
slowly foward with cautious,
did you see a little red heart?
strolling along the riverside,
a little red heart holding a liquor?
did you see a little red heart?
if anyone spotted him around,
give him a blanket and a candle,
say goodnight to him when you leave,
for you had given him the warmth he lack.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 3:23 PM on Saturday, September 15, 2007
I swear I dunno need to print out 6 pieces of illustration and I got the feeling I just pass only thank to those design sketches,development and colour testing factors. If not I will be the 9th person!!! -_-...squeak!!!
Flash was kinda of lame sia, I should have use motion guide to settle the bee so the bee can fly more smoothly instead like some kind of bee that was like damn fake.Imao!! I do not know why is there a motivation now to do more work and I am really very serious in it. I do not know but yet I can tell it will change my future. One thing is that I really hope no one change class, this class is good enough as in even I may not be close with some classmate but then you have to understand that getting to know each other is not an easy thing. If need help,,ask for it and you will never know that you will get an hand. Of course must help yourself first!!
It will be definitely lame and some kind of bad joke if you started vuglar language on the start letting everyone catching no ball. You have to remember that whatever you speak reflect the personality of yourself. Dun anyhow say cb or knn in class....I still can remember putting 50push up for any vuglar language in media club and double for the senior. However cannot put in the class cause no one will do it.Hahahaha....I can understand what you are trying to say but you dun have to be like that. When you speak more politely and get rid of your unpleasant word,you will find the light of your classmates. =)
Whenever you go,there will be someone who will dislike you but be yourself and prove yourself. We ain no mess up and we come in peace. Be kind and be nice anyway, everyone will benefit. So......Dun run away problem by changing class or wat. Help each other.......you go designing......it will be groupwork not solo work......like creative department....unless you doing the printing or even editing you have to do pair work.....2brain is really better than one....trust me.....
All misunderstanding clear up hopefully by now but yet hard to say since I never get to discuss face to face.There is alway deception behind the sentence.We never know but let just hope for the best and remain the way as what we once are.. =)
Term 1 nightmare was finally over with the 2nd wave of onslaught on the way. More chill and it will be death that will embrace me within it abyss. Weee!!! Congralution to all!!! Weeeee!!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:55 AM on
The true value of a person lies in their heart*
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:08 AM on Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Jason moved to teckwhye alrealy just around my house!!!
Jasper going to china for fun also too!!!
Guo xiong NS enlistment is due within 2week!!!
Ytd night never sleep....got la...6am -10am.....do work at ecp enjoy the breeze and quiet night....loving man....wEE!!! Peng yu tired until can snore!!! Aiseh!!
Flash middle part stuck like crap......cause the creator is a crapper that why got such a crap stuff!!!
Song book is way behind estimation!!! If cannot make it then it will be doom!!!
Jasper finally share his story with me....hehex.....yes la bro!!! Gotcha!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:19 PM on Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Flash only need to change the storyline. Once that done....by wednesday it wont be any problem.Sound cool arhx but then estimation only.......haha...must sleep 2 hours before doing any work. I need father medicine!!! Black eye is now rising.....I think I now mutating into zombie soon...weeee!!!!
Think later update again........waaaa sian sian sian!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:37 PM on Monday, September 10, 2007
From wed night until now never sleep enough...I tell you the freehand, the song b0ok all not easy ok.....beause the idiot now typing is actually playing lord of the ring halfway doing his work. Damn.....that crazy!!! Friday night totally is crazy because I spend more than 4hours to play lotr and then sat night I rush to junjie house to learn flash function and to learn and do on your own suck ok......2am plus meeet penguin and airpork at sunshine place and talk until 4am pluse then I run back home to have a shower and want to do my photography only to realise my house dont have the software and then go to bed lor....wake up early 10am plus and do abit of inkdesign touch up and chiong bugis double A only to see so many pple all standing there to quenue sia....waa dude.....then go the colour vizio print....I dont mind pay more but for fuck print me poor quality stuff.....waaa really na bei cb!!! Fuck!!! My work print until got line and not in actual size....paper quality like cheapskate and I have to cut the size myself....waa cb la.....I have to pay alot more sia....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! FUCK!!!!
Double A burn 1 cd only $1 and you tell me yours is $7....KNN!!! daylight sucker sia.....fuck...I alrealy running of my patient from all the stress and pf stuff....waa liew liao....come on la...
Finish ad and book jacket le...later will finish the mounting and the dpm at night and paint the background to settle the song bird....tuesday die die must print and bind!!! Flash now no problem but junjie say I MUST CHANGE MY SKETCH!!! He dun understand the story line at all....waaaaa....fuck sia.....now I want to change also dunoo got time to change anot....if change have to draw new character then no time left for me sia....arrrgghhh.....fucked up!!!!!!!
Friday must go workshop discuss with mr Lim my mock up and chiong liao.....na bei......really want approach ah lin shu shu for help sia....Arrgghhh.....damn........Now I hate last minute work...I estimate my stuff wrongly everytime because of those stupid game...arhx.x.....Can finish 3project ytd night one.....sian sia....
Today not spared from you either because when I sleep I dream of the u again...the only thing is I dunoo what the dream about but good thing is that it isnt a nightmare..who can brainwash to forget my sorrow and let me be one happy idiot for life.....to tell the truth, it ok to suffer since everyone suffer.....I really want to wait quietly and hope ting get better...even everyone graduted and nothing improved.I presume that maybe our destiny linked together have to be such outcome...no choice but I still believe what you feel. No one is in the wrong because we are born and grow and think differently.
The final touch down for this term will be this 3night left and I will adapt to ting ting tip to get me through it. Anyway, thx for peng yu and junjie for the ideas. I want to meet Jason today because he finally move to teckwhye.... I want to see him!!!! I really miss all my brothers sia....AWWWW.......
To all my brothers
3rd-Yuan man
4th-chen ming
6th-jereld
own-Jason,Yu hang
Teow kim,jian long,sui how,akid,edmund,paw,fang zhen,yu jing,kai tan,green apple,guo wei,minghan,wei cong,Andrew,sarah,winnie,cyindee,dong yi,Jeremy,ming xue,stamford,minghowee and to all those npcc squad of sec1-sec5 from yr 2000 to 2005!!!!
I really missed every single person out there!!! Damn!!! Teriary is full of crappy self centered soul who like to chill and cold the whole atomsphere and so fucking unapperciate!!! Good old days.....fuck hell sia...move to kembangan......lost so many contacts.......nb.....cb I now feel like one idiot.........
Dont overwork!!! If you are rushing your project and you are feeling headaches and having cold or flur symptom sleep 2 hours and drink warmth water or eat some fruit!!! Blunt is not for for cutting stuff, it is for cutting hand only. LOL!!!
Alamak...must go with plan...PING PONG!!! I MUST SAY SORRY TO THE WHOLE CLASS FOR SENDING WRONG INFORMATION!!! Jingyi just save my god damn day......
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:14 PM on Sunday, September 09, 2007
Honestly speaking,me no aint good class warp dude. I swear that I just couldnt done a nice job but then jingyi done a good job for sending a better brief for the rest of the classroom.Quite surprising too but it show she care for everyone. =)
Maybe I get way too out of myself to attract this few weeks and I know I make a mess of myself because I also dunno what am I doing. Trust me everyone,I need time to adapt.
I got a situation that all odd is against me and I really cant resist myself from thinking of someone again and over again. Everyone should know whether it could be a crush,admire or real stuff,even we know it could be impossible for us and we want to give up. It not easy when feeling alrealy spread around the heart like a virus. Unlike computer which can be reformat or scan with anti virus, There no cd or whatever nice stuff to do that.
I never regret and I`m sorry that maybe I scare you or what. Like someone is not a mistake it is a freedom but if you scare that person you like. Now that really your facult.Roar!!!! Alamak, not I dont want to take intiative but then I need courage to do that. Everyone know that loving someone is pain while the one being loved is bliss. The longer you like someone the more you suffer. Yayaya....being a girl better cause even a girl is shy definitely the guy will still approach....damn when will there be opposite...haha...
5work to pass up next week and the rate now is quite smooth except for the song book. I guess I weekday night must visit Ah lin shu shu for help le. Awww....
I lost the rythm of the poem I wrote during the previous post. I write such stuff when I feeling tense all over thinking of someone. It not easy to get into a relationship and the way to handle is diffcult too when you need time,effort and money to mantain one. Relationship dont seen to be as reliable as before when I was chatting with xiao mei. I dont mind just have one relationship that last forever for my heart cannot withstand any destruction. Frankly speaking, I alway cry and cry that all till I feel better. Crying is good cause it relieve your tension and clean your eye....and blah blah....hahahaha...... Crybaby is good....is just that I`m a big baby now..Wahahahaha...I dun like people to misunderstand or waging any kind of mental war with me cause I believe we can sort out and discuss the problem between everyone of us. Both parties suffer in a cold war no matter what.
hmmm, got idea le!!
(Part2)
Finally one day you descend upon me,
you take away my heart in left hand,
sealing my soul into your right hand,
and you just fly away without a word,
Turned into a living dead on the spot,
all my life force had dimished,
tears just flow down rapidly,
no word or sound from my mouth,
Tears to a pond then to a river,
for decades and centuries it run dry,
yet I still stand alone in the desert,
waiting for you to return....
Hoping you will come back to me,
giving what a mortal each wanted,
when hope become the disguise of doom,
One final tear shed and I fade into dust.........
T_T..........sorry man....This is what I feel.....I really dun have the courage.I`m just too sorry for myself.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 8:39 PM on Friday, September 07, 2007
The air had become cool in the evening,
I saw you by the stream from the hill,
the sight of you caught my heart,
I lost my way when finding you,
The moon rise up high to shine,
I saw you by the stream from the hill,
the sight of you capitvate me,
are you an angel from the heaven,
I run twice to saw you slipping,
I stand along the stream gazing,
seeing you flying away to the sky,
where the moon and stars call,
You left me behind nothing,
except memory of your angelic look,
in that short moment of wonder,
leaving my heart alone to mute,
The morning rise without you,
I stand by the stream waiting,
no sight of you through the plain,
leaving my heart sinking to the ground,
(to be continued)
Alamak....I haven finish my inkdesign.....hahaha...lesson time
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:40 PM on Thursday, September 06, 2007
I found this lyric by chances(in awebbie),it happen to be the lyrics for flame of recca ending.I like very much as the I got the feeling I`m also doing partly as what lyric wrote.So might as well share even very few passby my blog.Hahahah...... =p
Throughout and Close to You(english version)
Thanks to the sweetness of love, feelings of which I can't speak are born
Even if we always meet, I want to hear your voice at all times (1)
So sadness won't grow, love won't be destroyed
We run, we run, no matter how far we go
Shaking, shaking, shaking just like the heart
No matter how painful it is
If I'm with you I can endure it
Thanks to a dream I saw the persons' sadness, their strength
I want to stay by the side of a person like you, who reflects both
So I won't lose my tomorrow, I won't forget my present
The invisible dark, dark road
Will shine, shine, one day it will shine with light
There's nothing that scares me
By your side today too I can smile
We run, we run, no matter how far we go
Shaking, shaking, shaking just like the heart
No matter how painful it is
If I'm with you I can endure it
(The end)
Look like quite a number dream was being invaded by nightmare. Half of the class now look at zombie alrealy. Guess there really a resident evil 4 lor,this time in singapore with students all becoming zombies le lor..haha...
Everlasting is what one wish for,
everflow of love into the space,
One love that last for eternal,
One love that linger for life,
Drizzle of my tears down for you,
silent prayer through the night,
illusion of you rampaging violently,
where light and shadow clashes,
Heart hoping around yours happily,
singing with melochany and love,
Merging yours with mine as one,
One heart one love for you truly,
Even seperated for reasons,
we did touch the feather of love,
even scared by the fang of love,
our memories of love cannot be denied,
heal your wound from your heart,
usher you into a peaceful sleep,
protecting you days and night,
just to tell you I really care,
Hit by the storm or froze in cold,
you find wing for cover and warmth,
I am willingly to give you,
even you cant fly with it,
be your shield and your guardian,
even the life of one was forfeit,
forfeit mine and live for me,
live happily with someone,
as love you are happy,
unfair but not demanding,
the price of love that demand,
unconditional love for you,
The stake is high but replaceble,
costing our lives for our faith,
for our belief we scarifce,
to show we love from the bottom of our heart
Well, now is 7.33pm and I still can think of writing poem in computer lab when I am supposed to do my work. Good job....haha....edit and submit this lyric to any singer...hoho....
I really wonder why and how that guy take the rifle outside to orchard. As far as I know,many relationship turn sour when the guys went for army. Does staying loyal to one can be really so suffocating? Dont tell me if you want to tell me, tell yourself. You yourself know the best than anyone else do.
His action lead him to ulitmate downfall of his life.Is it just a moment of emotion or moment of folly? 3yrs is no joke........the seed you plant into someone heart has alrealy more than just a sapling. It is hard to root out.....let just pray for him. He is also a victim..... =(
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 6:29 PM on Wednesday, September 05, 2007
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 6:12 AM on
Ytd I got an nightmare of fighting alien or some kind of evil stuff and blah blah. It look so real due to the fact that I saw people using the HDB flat as an hideout and fire enemies from the window. Dream of you with a guy. I had no comment and never that person before yet I see both of you together with you kneeling down on him. Then I run out and dunno fight wat crap stuff and run and run. Piang......I hate running and then I get to run like mad in my nightmare fighting away all those monsters,evil soldiers and searching for survivors. Then saw one of the so called general or boss. Dunno why run away when seeing him and then many survivors fell from ambush and the rest all scattered and saw myself being blasted by C4 or switch bomb.......... -.-
One thing I know is that kneeling in front of a person mean attached for life. =/
Funny thing is that I can dream of you 2times within 1 week....... =/ Man......I also dunno what is going on. An apple that is hard do not mean cant be eaten where else a nice looking apple can have worms wriggling inside. There are many times we start with a poor hit in anything but the most important is the outcome or should we say the feeling after finishing an apple.
No more nightmare please...I`m pretty sure I really run very long sia.....this is worst than counting sheeps....grrr...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 5:40 AM on
Slacked too much that what I now then know. Watch blackhawk down not long ago. Now totally motivated for something that I never know. The will of an indivual is different but the strength in it is the key. Seen like my key is a small one really need one big big key.
Xiao mei, as we settle in different places or move to a new environment we can be at a loss or we cant adapt however we just be ourselves to show everyone our own nature. Your nick sometime inspire me......when I gonna fall, your that nick will alway stay one!! Hardly see you put same nick for so long.
Hmm,there are many ways we can walk even we are alone or not. When we thought we lost something, one of the road is closed. That doesnt mean we are at our own end. We can turn back and walk again even we dont like it for we cant choose. You dont have to treat the person the way you think as he/she is. I dont understand why would people treat another person cold shoulder if that person got being rejected. Yes, I know it the ending but there still a road left. You can be still friend with that person. You cant think on just one way, you had to look from various angle and get the best answer out of the worst situation. The next time you ask anyone about what you told, you have to think twice. =X
With everyone different personality we make some great friends and some false friend but however we do just be ourselves. When we are kind ,we get some praise and unpleasant word but just be kind anyway.
I rather be old fashion toward love and I rather choose the old road and adpat it accordingly to the society to provide more trust toward my happiness. The new fashion of love nowaday had too much flawed and people make mistake and they never realise it is their mistake. I make mistake but then the moment I realised my mistake I have to accept and amend it too. We may have different way in speaking and creating whether boring or funny. It show how our mind set are and this give you the chance to know more about someone. There are definitely pros and cons.
Like you got one small tank and one tank for a goldfish. Small tank is cheaper and may look cute but the goldfish sure curse you for getting him such a small home.Hhahaha.....big tank is more expensive but the goldifsh enjoy more freedom to swim around.Imagine you are the goldfish....what will you feel? =P
Covering up the cons is important but how to cover have to depend on yourself not on other cause you are the one changing your own fate and your destiny.
It been a great time this term though I faced bad days but I cannot forget that I had more good days!!! The class is getting more and more interesting. Hopefully everyone will understand my real intention. Blur doesnt mean know nothing. Blur mean my brain is lagging!!! Unless you know how to upgrade my brain speed then open my skull and install whatever technology you have so I dun have to speak broken english,wrong spelling,low knowledge in many stuff and stm.That definitely make me a very very better man liao.....ROAR!!! XD
More work to be done.....time to get help.....HELP!!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:50 AM on Sunday, September 02, 2007
I know the action and word of mine bring some inconvience to some of you but I really like to apologise any mistake I done. I gladly apperciate any critism or anything. As long I learn from my mistake,it is definitely worth it. Too bad, should have heed Allan adivce......but too bad he quit school.Tiaozzz.... -_-
I make it short since I have to sleep soon to do work early in the morning later.Kelvin, I dont understand why for the sake of yourself:you can even play until Huan yeong father business there? You call us brother yet you hardly do what a brother should do. Respecting each other and helping each other and instead you even trick Huan yeong father. You told him only 1glass small small size for a price of 1.2k but when he send his worker down. He then realise got alot more glass to do and you only say that you dunno. Come on la,how can you dunno when you stepped into your office so many times? That a poor lie.....You should know Huan yeong family finacial also not good and people have to support a family of 5 and 2 in poly now. Somemore people is not big boss and income alway up and down one but no matter ow high,cannot be high but if low can be really very low. You had been wacked twice and as a matter of fact that if the police never come you could be alrealy far far away from this world. We really care for you but you never care for yourself. You pray to guan yin but your motive to pray is it correct? You never learn and you think you are the one alway right!!! I alrealy out of idea how to help you because you never listen to anyone of us at all.
I really very disappointed and if not just now peng yu they come find me and eat dinner together I will never know what have you done. We help you the first time you are being wacked at your void deck and you never say thank you to us but we still happy cos it not a serious injury. You get wacked second time Huan yeong and spencer are there to help when they left. We dun ned reward......We really only want you to be mature and to realise where your mistake.There will be 3rd and no more 4th times.......cause if there really a 3rd time.You sure die......the 2nd time you being by 8pple with wooden rod only is because the 4malay people hiding around with parang never come out since the police arrived at the nick of time but tell me,if not for the passerby who spotted them and call the police.Do you think you really can still survived?
Your soft toys which you spend more than a thousand dollar in the arcade are left behind in huan yeong for 2yrs alrealy. This year by the end of oct if you not going to mention about it. We will help you to donate to the orphan. I rather pay for it if you want me than having those soft toys left to collect dust in Huan yeong house. People dont want to eat only then still got a plate of food can bring home you dont want. You dont want but you can give to other,there will definitely be someone around look hungry or anyone whom you think they are hungry. Or just return the food and tell the person to have it as your treat. Why throw away? Hello!!! You pray to guan yin but yet you dont have a sense of compassion. You say you really love this girl love that girl but then how can you love someone when you dont have compassion? You lied to us too many times and we forgive you too many times and this time round I will go along with my father and 3shu instruction by severing all my ties with you from today onward. Knowing you is really a great disappointment in my life.
Even I love anyone at this stage,even I get to be together at this stage. I cant gurantee that our love will definitely last because I haven finish my NS and I dont have a stable career. My (co de) is still very weak. I dont think I have the responsiblity to handle a relationship whether it can be in any factors. I am still happy to know you and I will start to strive hard for myself more not to let my true happiness share my burden with me.I make it short and simple. Even my heart burn crazily but love with mind will ensure a better future. Love is too complex but it is by how one mind concept set. However happen, break up or divorce is definitely the worst option. That is for people who dont really have strong sense of responsibility but then only apply in somes situation for everyone is a victim of love after all. Overall, if there a break. It is both parties wrong doing. Dont understand this logic then go think why. =P
The cloud finally seen to clear alrealy with the stars signal to me of their presence. XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:10 PM on Thursday, August 30, 2007
I can understand and gladly accept your intention but then isnt it time to be the normal way it supposed to be? It isnt easy for me and I also refer to everyone tool. Sometime I really wonder who the person you like but I know this is a stupid question too but I just want to know.Lolx....
Started to get moody easily just like the heavy cloud that dominate the sky recently. I stand and stop along the way back home just to think of you but yet trying to forget you because I know that the communciation,level of trust and your attitude toward cannot make it. Even as friend,the line is very weak. I do not despair and do not regret but only can sign at myself for what I am. If I am a better person with more outstanding personalities and background.That should be able to the change my destiny with you but of course if only. Being a friend is good isnt it? Compared to relationship in our ages,friendship definitely last longer and better. I do not ask anything from you but only wish for you to live happily with whoever you have in your mind.So please dun cry,I do not know what happen between you and the person in your heart but yet I believe you are strong enough to turn the tide. It is my wishing that you can be cheerful everyday and simile happily without any worry.
You done quite well in your work,continue the way as it is. =)
Well,not enough time to update since 3pm later ned to show the book jacket.Arrrgghhh....tired!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:10 PM on
I went to Joe birthday on thursday night. Honestly speaking due to the workload,I actually intend to stay back at school to do my work however I alrealy promise Joe that I will attend so in the I ton at his chalet. Hahaha......Another reason is because the chalet is actually at bukit gombak there and I first time hear the area there got chalet. O_o?!?!?......then went there and walk and walk......Xiao mei even give me wrong direction and in the I walk one big big round then reach the place. Imao!!! XD
Reach there saw xiao mei and Jian long!!! Starting I see Jian long,I didnt recognise him but when he call me then I was greatly surprise. He grow so big size!!! Waaa......bigger than me sia....piang.....lolx...oop....I went to the room and rest. Feeling very sleepy and quite tired from one whole day of school. Switch on channel U and the TV is so quite blur. Waa liew....what kind of chalet is this ? =X
Jian long then also come the living room and I sleep at his leg. Asieh, shoick sia.......one of the nicest pillow I ever enjoy. Hahahaha......Xiao mei also then join in. We chat chat abit......I really enjoy the conversation we had together. It like it been so long ever since we meet and sit down together chatting together but yet the feeling of sister and brother like xiao mei and Jian long is still so close. I decided to that to unite my class, I want to be the same old myself to treat every single person in my class as my sister and brother too nothing less and nothing more.Hopefully, everyone will really enjoy to be in the same class by the end of yr2 if not when everyone graduted and the class is like spilt. I really have no idea what to say or do. Two and a half yrs together as a class but the yet like different tribes in one jungle......To me is like wasted. Everyone really can be more happy if the class is unite breaking each person barrier toward one another allowing everyone to talk the way they like even sometime speaking the wrong sentence at least someone will make a joke out of it and entertain the rest creating a better and comfortable feeling for everyone.
Unlike in other normal poly and Jc, they have CCA and also the lesson time together is longer. That is why their class get united easier and of course closer compared to private school which had short hours lesson. Everyone will leave the class and went to do their own activity alrealy. Of course must also depend on the person personality too so if the most of the people are quite socialable then it will be much easier too. Well, need a few more factors too but then can skip that.
Back Joe birthday, Wacth channel U until 8.15pm but still never see patrick face and then got a few friend of Joe come up and Jian long switch the channel cos the rest say got any other better channel to watch? Lolx......Must go with the majority. Everyone is quite easy going and that night even though got different group of people but then we can get to know each other easily and the moment we chat and help Joe when he drunk together is like we know each other for quite sometime alrealy. Man, really enjoy this night.......I try to do Miss lye work but then alway draw wrongly and in the end around 3am plus or 4am like that I went to bed without really drawing anything. Awwww.....
Joe birthday cake was really big and delicious!!! I ate 4 piece of the chocolate cake if not wrong. XD So happy and then Joe friend really crazy also.Hahaha.....I saw one voka, one martell and one heneyss!!! With egg,coke and green tea.I really dunno how much he drink but only he drink alot and he went drunk around 12.15am. The birthday boy turn to a drunken boy. Joe still can walk despite he was drunk but then the way he speak is different. He will go like this, who are you who are you. Hahahaha......Well, I am more surprise when he is drunk. He say alot of things and he even cry when it come to the red cross which he volunteer for 6yrs alrealy.
At first I really cant believe such a cheerful guy who had a nice gf for 2yrs and having good personality with a lot of good friends around too can actually hide so much burden deep down his heart. I really have nothing to say but yet when I compared my problem with his. My problem was only a nail scratch while his is really a big nail stuck at his heart. He commit and spend too much time at his red cross alrealy that what I feel. Yes, I know he is really helpful and he want to help the people. However we had to understand that when our age and our status had become the top prioty, we had to let go of some important thing. The current job that Joe had only around $1200 each month and with his eductation level it will harder to get a better pay job. He want to get more pay to support his gf and save it for future. His gf also want him to change job too. However we have to know that our lives cannot be whatever the way we want to live in and live as. Each of us have to lead a different livestyle. To me is that Red cross have become a blocking stone, he really must let go and allow the next generation to try it. It time to move on and get to do what we should really do. We have to protect ourselves before protecting other that what my father explain to me. Well, everyone had their won hidden burden which sometime even the closest kind cant be told. His word give me inspiration and taught me something very useful. The night at his chalet is definitely worth it. So....once again happy birthday Joe. One sentence to say is, step a step back and you see the whole picture,what seen to be the most important is actually not important. You done your part for mankind but it time to do your part for yourself and for your girlfriend who alway support you for yrs. Great wishing!!! =D
One example.We can donate money money but we have to see whether we afford to donate anot just like I am a student and donating sometime on my parent money and not my own money. This is something I realise I have to do something about it. The beggar outside I see almost all can work but yet they are lazy and due to their personality that why they are left outside. If they are kind,helpful and generous and humble then they wont have to face such a hard life. They can work but they dont want and only want the people who are kind to donate money thus this is the way they earn money. What for?
I finally finish the drama series recommended by Patrick. Even though he is a lecturer yet he is really one ggreat guy, kind,understanding,caring and so much more. I really dunno how to thank him for the advice and the drama he recommended me. I really want to treat him a meal as a token of grattitude of mine. I spend one day of saturnday to finish watching the drama. I really lost count how many I cry in front of the lcd. From morning to 3am plus.......my eye like blur blur alrealy........For me, it definitely a 5stars drama.This week on thursday I went to pray for the god to guide me on something that been troubling me because of that morning incident. I really feel that god answer my prayer.
This is an answer for someone who say that I dont believe in guy. Everyone do lie and everyone is not perfect. We cannot say honest thing just to make you happy. Sometime too honest will hurt each other too. There are many times guy have to fake up or lie to make someone happy. Of course choosing the wrong guy is your facult alrealy no one else. Hehex....... Whenever you trust someone regardless of who is it, you are giving that person a chance to be trusted. The rest is on himself or herself whether she apperciate the trust you have given her.
I do understand that relationship is not easy and I believe as you all know that there many stead and break kinda of stuff . It like drawing too, you want a nice and good piece of drawing you cannot just draw once then you can get the quality you want, you have to keep on trying. It is the same for searching for a love you want, you have to taste bitter taste first and maybe again and again all over again and only then will you able to know what is call true love. Everything is not easy, we have to lose something to gain something for the success is the mother of failure.
Compared to the centuries of love, I definitely choose china. Old fashion but I really like it. The concept of living is alrealy way too different and that why everyone change. Everyone enjoy too much to understand what is truly call problem and burden.
This is an extraction from the newspaper by Ratna Tiwary.
(Could it be that the younger generation is accustomed to dating before marriage and the freedom to choose who they want to see *and drop*, so the idea of staying loyal to someone is just too suffocating?)
Indeed that compare to centuries ago, not everyone got a choice to choose anyone they want marry in asian* It go by matchmaking and in the past people treasurethe meaning of love which is not easy to come by due to the practice that female cannot anyhow mix around with the male. However even the world change as long there are mpeople who grasp the essence of love then it shouldnt be any problem for them as long they didnt choose the wrong person. Wrong person is refered to those who had shallow concept toward love and are materlistic and do not have deep understanding in way of live. Thus their personality is able to show some flaw directly to the surrounding.
Part of the extraction- In many countries, divorce is not a big deal. Briteney spears got divorced in 48 hours and didnt hesitate before marrying again, only to sink into depression and shave her head, among other exploits. Bollywood and chinese pop celebrities usually travel the same circular path of partying -love-marriage-divorce-partying.I may be old fashioned in my thinking but I see divorce as a failure.It is not an option,because I believe that there is alway a way to resolve problems.We all have two sides and I believe no person is inherently mean. In understanding our partner as necessary it is to be impressed by their qualities.It is even more important to know how they are in negative situations.What would they do in a crisis?Or when they have make a diffcult decisions? Sometimes just talking about it will help you uncover a person`s values and make you see them in a different light.
The question is; Can you live with that? Or will you take a gamble and hope they will be a different person when something tough really happen?As I embark on a new phase of my life, exchanging rings and promises to love,honour and cherish,I wonder-what are the factors that will hold us together in tough times?
Quite interesting and motivating too in another way...... =)
I just wonder why my brother can put videos* in folder which is name musicfolder......Maybe I can ask him when I see him again. That day really scare me even near midnight causing me to call up in order to avoide any misunderstanding.
This week is great and I decide that sometime giving up is better option. Being sister and brother is definitely better after it seen that there are many ways to resolve the problem. =)
Love is all around but it is definitely different in many ways. It like the angles of how we see thing and do things.It dont really have to be just bgr, it can be buddy,bro and sis and friends and classmate and so much more. Live is really beautiful....hold it tight and fly with it to enjoy the days ahead everyone. I wish everyone to have a happy deys ahead..... XD
Waa liao....3hours of typing....well done....work incoming!!!! RUN!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:26 PM on Sunday, August 26, 2007
the road is ending with nowhere to run,
A tough journey that end one motivation,
As I recall my passion on you.....
if the sun get bright enough it wont be warmth,
only your presence will change,
Sweating all over myself
yet cold in my heart,
shivering with fear ,
sorrow fill my heart,
Where you gone?
Gone far far away,
far far away to leave me alone,
just because we arent to be...
arent to be together....ooooO
Baby I need you,
you the only one who can seal my soul,
you are only one reach the depth of my heart,
The road is long indeed is tough,
but with you along,
no matter how harsh or cruel fate await,
I will hold you tight and never let go,
To face future of our lives,
Shoes are getting covered by the sand and sticky with the mud,the never ending journey went on till sometime there are ways to choose giving us a hard choice to choose just because we are not sure of ourselves.One day and each day after and after,we lose something and get to gain something. There are thing we should hold for as long we really believe in it and have faith in it yet it is just the angel of deception which doom wait ahead swiping all our hope and shut our light out. The world is cold yet not cold enough when it come to comparison. No matter how cold everyone felt before it is something that none would want to feel it again. I believe and I alway believe in something about destiny. Though I do not see what future lie ahead but I will still walk on even I run of breath or even to crawl. Everyone is tired but then lives is something that we want to give up or to take on as and when we want.
We have to admit that the world is not fair. Why the person you like so much turn out to be the one to hurt you the most because they alrealy had someone in their mind. So unfair yet nothing can be done to stop or change it. Even a forceful tactical mean dont have a strong stand. When the light of ours just dim or fade, we will be angry or helpless easily and tend to do something that people thought we are mad or have mental problem.
Only fool like me deserve to be a loner for life just because I am shy and in another I have low self esteem. Fool are the one who like to be straight forward and they dont know how to make a good lie and they alway forget to self benefit themselves. They are fool because they do not know how to express themselves clearly and in the end they alway keep quiet because silent is the solution to all problem. All problem hiding within one person, they are really fool because the moment when the capacity of their brain reach to the max. They will just break down like a computer which suddenly hang.........Fool live happily because everyday is sunday and thought everyone is nice even they are selfish or unpleasant people. Fool alway get cheated and do not have confidence in their everday life. Fool again for being such a weakling and something fool will ask heaven to relieve their burden by granting access to heaven which most never did. Fool forever to those who like to think of themselves as something and not as themselves. For they are trap in their own world never to seek freedom toward the truth....fool are the clown who cry...they laugh and simile outside and cry in one corner.....stupid and useless.....fool of me and fool of those who think you are also one....
No matter what kind of fool we are, be yourself and be kind anyway for the sake of being a fool.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:13 PM on Wednesday, August 22, 2007
A question being asked just now by a friend of mine that if a girl told you to have sex with her but then never to see or to contact her again or to choose to be friend only yet able to see her and talk to her everyday. What is your answer? =P
A question that is what I want know.If everyone can claim that there is love then does love accept each other short coming or just for display and then throw it away when both party got into quarrel or trouble?
A question I had for myself is that. If I like someone for months probbly half a year,I got abit of diffculties to link a good communciation with her.Sometime I try to chat with her and then she just give reason that she have to do other stuffs. Does it sound like there wasnt any good start at all and might as well dun waste my time and just give up?
Question to those shy people out there.Do you think that we are the persons who get to be in love with someone together the most diffcult?What can we do to help ourselves?
I have nothing to say since I know what is fate is fate. Although I am very happy to know everyone including which make part of my current life a heaven, knowing is not enough. A person who know alot of thing but never do anything is the same as a dog who bark fiercely but never bite.
I`m glad with you around even it just within 3hours per day
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:00 AM on
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Top left=By right is only me and guo xiong in the photo one but then jeffrey want to poke in and in the end I click wrongly and never realise that our eye are closing.Tiaozzz lor
2nd-pic: Ladies and gentlmen,This is the first and only guy to be owned by our shivas the liquor. First blood!!!
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3rd pic- Well,this is the shivas we bought and instead of 1. We bought 2?!?!!?.jpg)
4th pic- Take shot of ourselves. Look at Jeffrey at the right.....piang...look cool right.LOL!!
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5th pic- I was on my way to isetan katong to work when I notice several people was staring at this normal car.So I also kapo and join in the fun and saw that the driver seat the door was badly whamed. Power sia.....(below) This pic was taken last year christmas day.Hehehe....
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(7th) pic- I took down this shot but then the hp pixel and range is so low that the real picture I was too blur.EEEEK.....actually the sunlight and the cloud the toning is very nice =(
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8th pic- This is my O lvl art work. I`m doing pottery and that time I accompany Huan yeong back to school few months ago and while taking a look at the school display.I found my art piece!!! O_o!!....weee..lolx
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9th pic-Let me introduce you one of my good friend ping siong. Well, funny guy and quite talented in art. His photoshop skill is enough to make a good living le. =P
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10th pic- Taken during the yr1 second semseter. Doing work in school until 10pm plus and then while going to Mrt station.I realise that the water fountain was quite beautiful so I take shot only to realise that need a beter camera to look nicer.Lol....
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The rest of the picture is taken at Tian zhong condo bbq pit there. Hmmm.....quite alot of people go and the food is quite nice. Still can have the kid playing with the cooking.........
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This is how we cook ok...haha...
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Nice right? =P
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One of our cook also...meng yik.... =)
Ytd night we went to VE at clark quay there, it the pub that aik sin have suggested us to go. Well 8pple going and javin and shaun never turn up...so tu duu tuuu......
The place is quite nice and I dunn how to explain le...haha........everyone just sing and sing.....lolx....can see everyone singing alway run oout of tune one....same to me also sia...eeek...so many high pitch songs.....
We left around 2am plus and everyone went to eat and then we walk to MOS see see.....now I know where MOS le...hehex....then go home sleep sleep le lor.....haha...think my brain still abit shaggy....cant think of anything to type.....but I really enjoy myself....yea...... =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:36 PM on Sunday, August 19, 2007
Although it is very creative and alot of interesting scenes however it need improvment in the touching part* Somemore still not touching enough but yet can see quite a number of audience sniffing alrealy. =X The ending is also abit too fast and abrupt but yet I can understand why does it have to be like that and I strongly feel that the ending is really good enough. Sweet and simple and fast......
Ayioooo,I thought how touching it will. Dunno who so easy can shed tears one, people cry you cry...lolx....
Nice........................... 4.5stars
I feel the lonely road you have cover for me,
Leaving no trace of step to follow,
Lost in the sight and lost in the way,
When silence grip the whole atomsphere.....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:41 AM on Saturday, August 18, 2007
4th week is over........
Very irritated by a few of my classmates who like to tease about me eating veggie.Today flared up over a small joke about being a vegetarian. I dont think it is a joke for is like please respect my decision for abstain from meat. There are reason why I really wish to stop eating any meat. Meat is tasty and I know I know however I have to outweight between my belief and my greed of taste. I`m quite sorry for the temper however is like someone is trying step on my pride. I have my own pride and my honour to treasure lives around us. Apperciation of each living things even they are in different form may it be a bird or an animal or even insect. The first step to love oneself and to love everyone is to abstain from killing. To be compassion only then to love other.
Why is there veggie meat? Like vegetarian meat or fish? Compared to the past centuries, the past people only eat vegetable and the mark of mankind which wasnt civilised at that time was that human eat fruit and leaves only. There are many reason why people invent such kind of foods. Although it is only make by flour however they do not take the lives of any animal and do not contain any animal product. Spreading own belief and also to make money. Yes you can say rubbish however if that is call rubbish then you are also a rubbish too. If you are the chicken and you born to be eaten, what you will say? Just because for the god damn fucking sake that you are not the chicken that will explain that you dont believe such kind of nonsense? Nonsense mean cant be explain logically too, then explain about black magic the karma,incarnation,spirit and deity, miracle? So these are rubbish also? Dont be too ignorant, the weight of your pride is enough to sink you down right into the depth of hell. Learn and listen, you may not believe however respect every religon be it be chirstian,indian,muslim,taoist,buddist. Be humble.......Really I never buff, I alrealy suffer enough from my past le.
Mr wang told me that last time while he in NS, some of his platoon mates like to ka qiao him. One day he just flared and scared those who teased him. Although I didnt really want to be like that however I guess it will be better in order not get teased again and again. Dont keep ask me why I can eat onion or garlic. You dunno that your problem, not I dont want to explain but I am not good in explaining and my main reason was just to love every living thing around me. You think I really want to give up eating meat? Hey, hello......not easy ok?
I go for mediation is because I want to learn what I have been searching in my whole life. Something is beyond the angle of perpective. The orgin of all cause......I want to upgrade myself,I want to be a better man, I want to be more loving person,I want to be more humble and I want to be more discipline person. I want to learn how to be a better person....that what I wanted to be....all the time in my life....never stopping.
Mediation alone for years dont mean can give you special power or what. Everyone do have the power however the chance of using it will be 0.0007% That what I remember reading dunno from where. Mediation cleanse your mind and help to increase the rate of regeneration of our body hell and help to de-toxic also. The most important is to be enlighten........the highest level that can be attain. What so good about having special abilities? Make your life easier? Fool, if that happen and if you misuse it. Your will never enjoy the fruit of the abilities you gain.
Last sunday eat that fruities.....eat until halfway only to remember got beef galantine....wat the hell.....done for liao......
I am really no idea what to say to you. I cant help myself but only to admire from a distance away may it be anywhere but as long I get to see you. You will never fail to catch my attention. I so poor in love stuff physically because I never experience one before. Theory and physcial is very different.....talking to me is useless but I dunno how to action and dun even really have the link of the feeling to make comfortable to chat you. The days just keep passing making me sometime contented but yet fustrated just because I really want hold your hand. I am glad for ytd night because I finally get to type one word of my expression. Truly I just want to hug you even a short moment. Perhap my imagination run wild and overboard however no effort is done and so I only enjoy to keep admiring you until I really regret or get to muster what I have before regreting again.
I want to hide you in my heart from everyone, I rather face harsh words from the whole world than having my heart broken by you. I walk for miles for you but never reach the border of love that destiny have lay for of us. Screaming away with rage and cursing upon the sky that shine upon me with false hope. Blood flow freely from my eye painting the whole ground with the seed of my love for you. Seeping away from my heart down to the heart pleading for the heaven to be moved by my selfish and crazy love for you. The finishing line seen to be so near but yet it skretch again whenever part of my body can reach it. Miles and miles away from your heart, sweat and all my panting just keep going and going till I went dead. Unconditional love for you, yet a love that I dare not to touch and love that I really dunno how to touch it. I do not know how to approach it...Thinking box burnt out itself and ashesf lew away with the light breeze. So much words I really want to confess to you but yet none of the words in my heart dare to send to your ear. So scare to lose you not even as the one I love but also to lose you as a friend. I`m so scared that there nothing I can do. Afraid of making mistakes which I often make unknowingly, I only can keep quiet. I rather have you as my friend rather than being awkward toward each other. I rather have you as my friend to chat to laugh and to rely on than to face cold shoulder and attitude problem from you.
The same old concept I still have is to wish you to be happy.May it be me or other person,as long you are happy. My heart will dance on the same rythm of your emotion. Even I suffer I will not mind because I truly love you from the bottom of my heart. XD
-=Loving eternally=-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:27 PM on Friday, August 17, 2007
My computer crash once again when I went to play games and I just finish typing the first paragraph out.So the next day which is not then I resume but then I forget alot of things I want to write down.I guess I really must quit playing game!!!! Within 2days, I gonna delete that wc3!!!
I`m just a fool of my own. Honestly speaking reading the book I have took from the free distribution of the sutra shop. I missed out part of the sentences in the book. It state that every man is different. No one is perfect. Each of them has a mixture of positive and negative personlity traits. I know first 2 sentence is common sense but the 3 rd sentence is quite new to me. I`m really putting down my own negative barrier against those that I dislike. Like or dislike toward something or toward a person is still the nothing but a illusion created by ourselves. I`m hope I can explore the world more to learn more.
English is quite simple but yet complicated. It is very important nowaday in this society and you may face trouble communciating with other if your language fall behind the rest. My english is really like a frog in the well. Worst is that hardly can prounce the long word correctly. Doing the presentation with sharon they all, I got the chapped word diffcult to prounce. lucky Jinyee got help or else I`m the laughing stock of the day =) Should consider to go for english course.....
Wanted to learn driving but never go apply,I going to apply this week liao. Time is really catching.Now got the time to learn better learn now or else the future wont provide me so much free time. Photoshop had alot of different function and if you can fully use the full function of photoshop , you can just straight away get a diploma liao...lolx.....so many things I do not know also....the flash 8 is also confusing. Trying out my skretches only to realise that confirm the time will be overshot and I got problem changing the colour....aarrgghhhh..... tiaozzzz
Start from national day, went to ck tang to rot. Customers are quite few when the time is 8pm. It like the ratio of promoter to customer is 10-1. Work until afternoon, Jason visit me and we have a nice chat together. I approach him about tackling girl, the rest of the story better dont say out. Hahaha,his stories motivate my heart. Although somehow there a lot of stuff he spoke I do not agree with however I will keep it in mind. Everyone can have our fun, you can play around if you have the resources to. However not everyone may accept your way of thinking toward treating girl. A guy who do not have a degree doesnt mean he cant marry a person who have degree ok? That one part I know from his mouth about his previous relationship. Degree or any other cert is a paper of status, it make your life but not everything. =/
Jinwee also come and he is still cold to me.Awww,his face look cold that why he is cold toward me bai...haha.....both of them visit zul after that.....sian....left me alone.....I`m the only male promoter in bedlinen sia.....the rest is all aunties!!! >.<.......waaa liewww....but ok la...we still chat alot. A person who speak and look give nice impression doesnt mean he is really one great guy. Hehe... Friday- The day are dull and the icon lesson is driving everyone crazy on what should we do. Miss lye is really a nice teacher to me. She is strict but she mantain the work pace for everyone.She is really helping everyone of us, I really misunderstood her last time. No wonder why uncle say she really a great teacher..haha.....Went back home alone cause peng yu have to take something. While on this bus got this big big guy standing beside me, power sia I tell u all. Whenever the bus turn left or right, his big body will rest on my body. His gf rest on his tummy, I bet she must say that this is the best cushion she ever rest on. Lolx.... XD The night had come and everyone have our small gathering. This time round only me,gx,huat,jj,boon,jeff,aik sin go only. Everyone buy spring chicken sia, I cant buy lor. Waa liew.....vegeterian liao....grrrrr... >.< I must really admit that that night is really one of the best night for the gathering. Everyone really talk alot,is like old friends who never met for months alrealy. Well,I alrealy like 2weeks never see them alrealy lor. Aik sin propose to have an exp in night lives. He told us he got a friend partnership with his friend in a club. We dont have to pay room fee except the shivas that all. Sound like a great idea, somemore it like some of us like dunno such stuff will feel abit shuay gu...... =/ Chat and chat until 11pm plus and everyone have to go.......haizzz...time pass so fast when we are enjoying it. The stars are covered well by the scattered clouds....lolx.....jeff complain why no stars!!!! XD I also want to see stars!!!! =D
Sat stay at home and go back grandma house during the evening. Sometimes traveling back and forth to a great distance is quite boring. I wont mind because I want to see my parent as much as possible. I miss them cos I only get to see them only 2days per week. Although I did not really enjoy my family history however family is family. This is something that cant be deny.
Sunday went to work in isetan katong. Get to chat with a customer in the afternoon, do not see her appearance as some kind of auntie who go morning groccery man. Her way of telling you about investment, money managment is really amazing. I know I think too much le however I am worry for my future. Hahaha....but thx to your words that dig a great heap of burden away from my back. XD
Went back home taking bus 12 or 14, cant remember. I never take umbrella home because eveytime I take,there wont be any rain at all. Then that night is really damn sway sia .......I buy a tube of potato chip eating and strolling home halfway. Suddenly it rain quite heavy and I cant be bother to run or walk faster. I just continue to walk and I even stuck at the gate for more than 5minutes.....grrr........the key dunno why cant fit into it one...haha...I was totally drenched......feel like waddle around like a duck in the rain...hahaha......wonder why that night rain.....if I know should have bring an umbrella along..gaga....
Anyway, to someone* You have someone you like but the distance to you is abit of far.However singapore is quite small compared to other countries. We enjoy the best transport in the world. When you really like someone in your heart, you will understand that distance do not really pose a problem to you. =)
Rythm of my heart....
The stage was there right before your eye,
a stage that was imagine by my words,
look at all the stars around,
love the moon that shine upon the stage,
it my dream to sing and dance for you,
setting this night to the music,
the lights of all wonder sparkle,
with love in the air,
You are the only audience I sing for,
the only one I want to express,
pouring my love on you,
singing the rythm of my heart,
chrous*
This is only the night I have the chance,
dont leave me ....
stay with me till it end...
I never know when will I sing again...
Night is the music I have for you...
bringing you closer to me all the while,
dont leave me....
cause I truly love you from my heart....
The stage was there right before your eye,
a stage that was imagine by my words,
look at all the stars around,
love the moon that shine upon the stage,
it my dream to sing and dance for you,
setting this night to the music,
the lights of all wonder sparkle,
with love in the air,
You are the only audience I sing for,
the only one I want to express,
pouring my love on you,
singing the rythm of my heart, X2(total)
ending part.
I scatter my heart into pieces through the sky,
showering you with those bits of love I hold,
loving you all the time even wind brew,
listen to the rythm of my heart.
I know it a badly lyrics done...but then My brain is tired and I lack out some of the important words which I cant remember..haha....just for fun!!! XD SQUEAK!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:34 AM on Wednesday, August 15, 2007
The lack of a muscial rythm from your voice silent my heart,
The absence of your presence just twist my mind round and round,
I stand and fall the moment I get to stand again to get a look of you,
The pain I felt was nothing compare to what you did to my heart,
A little and but total sensation of my body just turn mono,
So shallow of me blaming you for not hinting to my question,
Question that will be sufficient to let my flame of passion subside,
so deep of you that even my voice cannot reach your heart,
soft yet with the strenght of my will embedded with it,
along the smooth wind that my voice linger slowly,
I am just too sorry for myself not able to approach you as what I wanted to do. This is what I could think of. Forgive my poor personality. =D
Hahaha.....tomorrow got to work,better go east coast park to find peng yu and Huan yeong for a while to relax. Tomorrow I will sing with you even we are not together. Hehehe.....tml just sing while working lor..gaga.....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:15 AM on Thursday, August 09, 2007
Finally convert myself to full time vegetarian le.Yeah!!! Well,I need to train for a long period of time before I can attend the course.However eating garlic onion and smoking is resricted.....I dont mind never smoke at all however garlic and onion if cannot eat that mean alot of snack I cant eat sia....how how how???Grandma cook meat and fish every night but I only get to eat veggie and vegetarian meat.Look torturing to me however I just have to outweight myself between my belief and my greed in taste.To be compassion,one have to abstain from killing.I just wonder what happen if a mosquito is sucking my blood? =/ Maybe I can treat it as a blood donation,so my weight will lose by 0.01gram. =/
Busy all day long with some must do and some shouldnt do.Tell myself to go jogging when school start but now 3rd weeks alrealy and I still at home rotting away.Feel so lonely whenever I at grandma house.I want to meet someone and talk to someone I really can trust and rely on but yet all live at cck area there.I am so cold around here and so is the school. I do not know what should I say.I do not know why I cannot be myself in school and with my own friends or brother around. Is like I act totally different from myself lor. I alway laugh out loud and like to chit chat away what I think of however in school I just remain quiet.I feel so bored and I dont have the feeling to be what I want to be it.Why why why???
Honestly speaking, I think I have endure to the end of school and just leave this place and find what my passion is leading me to. No feeling and passion that being soaked in water.English is damn important but too bad I alway got problem in speaking long words and I am just blur myself even I dont want to.It is my personality and I cant change it at all.......Everyone set it own barrier toward me.....if only gus is still around maybe I still have a person to chat with openly. Zzzzz........
I look at you from the back and sometime I really just to hug you from behind gently.I want to close my eye to get the feel of holding you in my arm. The time is alway so short and in an instant you just went off and no words from you during the night to calm me down.I paint my heart of you during the cold night. Why am I attracted to you is a great mystery and I cant find the answer myself. 24hours per day and only a few hours we meet. The rest of the time seeing you is only through my mind and my dream. Taking away all my life force and now laid a person who is gasping his air to see you every minutes every second. Even your wings take you great distance away, my undying will lead me to where you will be. Chance are alway slim and almost impossible however if only there a chance. I really want to make you happy and make you comfortable. How can I get to make you love me? How can I get myself to be myself first? How can we get to talk as the way each of us speak normally? How? =(
Sat bought new bag thank to peng yu who offer me a ride to bugis.With Huan yeong,peng yu both small brother. Walk and stroll inside for around, just realise bag are quite expensive too. Look like I really have to go window shopping around to update myself liao sia.....gaga... =)
Then went to OG abert to visit Hui ping again. 2weeks never see her,when we meet she like surprise. Chat quite alot of stuff,similing and laughing away even though she is working. =X
Get to see her husband*(not real one) One of her admirer who like her since last yr sept. When I greet all OG staffs working there including him, his face change. Treat me cold and never reply me. Hey!!! Hello friend, I am just her friend ok? If you keep on getting angry and jealous just because any guy ask her out for dinner or accompanying her home. You are not worth to love anyone for your love is only for yourself. Your selifshness will never bring her happiness and security with you. Pulling long face when she going home, so what I also walk with her? What with that face, people is saying good bye to you. Where your basic courtesy? Just because you thought I like her mean I am your enemy? If every guy like her then everyone your enemy? Please la.......you are only self torturing yourself.
Stop using your previous relationship problem to affect your current and your future relationship. Use the problem to be the guide line for you not to repeat your mistake and not using it as your burden. Keep on telling other that your previous bgr fail that will change to blah blah. Nonsense la everyone, you are a master of your own mind. Just because you think is like that then sure will like that then your life is meaningless and boring to live. I do complain about what I am facing but that doesnt mean I am giving up. You had your weakness so is everyone. I even persuade Hui ping to talk to you but you yourself keep running away by giving excuses and didnt follow your duty well by helping promoter who need help. Run and run,how long do you think you run? Forever? Everyone must understand that whatever problem we face,face it immedtiately not ot waste time. Time is precious to everyone of us.
Conversation with Hui ping about sginapore expense and her ideal being a housewife.Not a bad idea, she scarifice herself to earn money and she doesnt really know what the outside world is like. Discuss about how one should earn enough money. True la, guy must really earn a mimmunim amount of money to feed a family. You wont really want your wife(if she want to be housewife) to work right? =/
I think really think of my future wife to stay at home looking after kid. After it is very important to educate a child in the right direction to preent them go astray. That remind me of the perfect potion promoter, her daughter only pri3 but like to tell lies and alway skip lessons. How shocking when she get to heard that her daughter is mixing with pri 5 students smoking at the void deck. I have nothing to say but did suggest that she should stop working and look after the kid. She just sigh saying that her husband work at slim lim selling camera does not earn much and children education fee is a very serious matter. Barely enough to feed themselves, I really have no word of console to say but only to keep it my heart. Only now then I recall....... =/
Now I guess the most worst case ever get to hear is from a Malay female promoter. She is very nice and she use to call everyone sis and bro, really can feel that she treat me like her little brother too. Very nice person and she maybe abit skinny but she look pretty and her inner beauty is much more beautiful. Her past in relationship was with a chinese guy for 8yrs, for that such a long period of time. One day her bf just want to have sex with her, due to the level of trust. She agree and I just dunno how come that idiot never wear any safely tool when doing it. He cause her to be pregant and when she approach him the problem. The guy just breakup with her. O_o!!!.....ladies and gentleman, what is your reaction when you heard of brkup if you are that girl who love your boyfriend so much and 8yr of relationship that alrealy make him half of you? Can you feel the sharp pain? Even 3yrs of sercet admiration for my story the pain is just a peanut compare to her story. I feel so sorry for her, she didnt tell me about her but Hui ping did. Such story inspired Hui ping to give up totally on her ex bf and inspired her to move forward in her life.
Sometime I just dont understand why nice people alway get to suffer so much. Why people who are talented die young like Gen angus the artist? Get to hear alot of times that good people die young.....however the life span of one is not really important, the important thing is how you spend your time? A short but meaningful life is enough for me too. Death cannot be escaped,it just come sooner or later. =)
Chat with 3 shu when buying lunch at bedok interchange there. Get to listen that people who lie are clever so just shoot him back that so people who dont lie is stupid? =/
My love toward you just splattered in my mind,it will be a long and tiring task to remove you off from my mind. Even we never get to be together, I will still watch you from your back. When the time come , I will be there for you even in the darkest hour. Nice? =)
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:18 PM on Tuesday, August 07, 2007
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:22 PM on Saturday, August 04, 2007
However when our youth is spent,it cannot be recover back even in the future.That the problem.When I see how guz and constance the face like that,can feel they very stress and tired all the times.I just wonder how do they keep up with the rest.Last time Aaron also work so is ting ting and a few other,can see that they are lifeless in lesson and even miss lesson as they are too tired to wake up.One lesson cost quite alot even though it is only 3hours.Somehow many didnt realise,we just think that miss one lesson only never mind one.However we forget how much we spend for the sake of the diploma.Maybe alot think that getting a cert is easy but then when it come to real world.It is our characters and our personality with our knowledge to make us a better life.Even those clever who dont study will become a numbskull and even those who are slow can achieve something.I do not know,I am not a god anyway.Hahaha...
Somehow I really just cant manage my time well,hopefully can start to control my time well.Sometime I dun have the feeling to back home,dunno why. =X
There will be thing that will sneak into your brain whirling around and no matter how hard you try.You do succed but it sneak in again like playing catching.Hmm,put my hand up and face the wall.... =/
-Lost in my mind-
Lost in the world of mine,
I stagger around with my wound,
unable to see and total silent,
my heart is throbbing madly,
how long will I get to escape?
From this lost world of mine?
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:05 AM on
Lucky got another stall just beside it,how convincent. =/ I got a feeling that I got my spelling wrong.Throat wasnt feeling well at all and there I am eating.Went to the national library and choose a novel which infact lecturer reject it saying that no novel as there is not enough pic to edit and put in.Awww....Anyway went to library and slack there until time up.Then Zu look at me dozing off....waa liew...lolx...no wonder why I close my eyes got strange feeling got someone is staring at me.Hahaha....
Morning lesson pat give was really power sia.....do the flash....I cant find the stupid toolbar....scroll and click everything cannot find!!!Then after the test ask Yan.....click and click...there you go... O_o......Alamak...I forget to click window...no wonder....haizzz...power lor... -_-
Very tight is what I can say in both pat and chou lesson....both are rushing the info into our brain.Next time I just create a port then put the thumb drive and transfer everything into.Guess that will be better...haha....
Chou lesson got one flawed....Definitely there will be someone or afew dozing off....she just remind me of mdm jaya............nope.....I still like kaya toast....yummy!! =X
Got a warm hearty chat with constance,dont really know her well except that when she anger.It like a tigeress just make it appearance......Everyone do angry and look scary....if you look scary it ok...but dont go around scaring other....lolx.Yes,it kinda of boring to be alone here in siglap where I really almost cannot get anyone go cycling or stroll with me to east coast park.The night is very beautiful....so alone in my heart there sometime I feel there is just a black hole.Making me black and cold all over... =(
Maybe I should keep a hamster however if I keep a pet that have no freedom except in that limited space of the cage just to accompany me I rather not to buy one.Pet look cute....they make my live up and up...lolx....
I got alot of things to write but then somehow no feeling when in blog..... =/ what to do?
Beatles-If I fell
If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
cause Ive been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands
If I give my heart to you
I must be sure
From the very start
That you would love me more than her
If I trust in you oh please
Dont run and hide
If I love you too oh please
Dont hurt my pride like her
cause I couldnt stand the pain
And I would be sad if our new love was in vain
So I hope you see that i
Would love to love you
And that she will cry
When she learns we are two
If I fell in love with you
I like this lyric during the search for one suitable one.Although I wont choose this but this is what I feel.Same for everyone,who is willing to have their new love to be in vain? =/
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 9:50 PM on Thursday, August 02, 2007
Hamster is a shy and it is a very quiet and peaceful animal.BEside eating,chewing and storing the food in it mouth making it more chubby,it do execrise and tend to bite anything hard to sharpen their teeth.
It take quite a period of time to get to know another hamster* So when it get attracted you can see both of them running around or the male hamster will start to do something funny to pester the female one.Hard to explain but I believe those who kept hamster before understand what I`m trying to say.However if I am the hamster and if you put a female hamster.For week,you will see no movement at all.At most,I will just keep staring at the female hamster all day long.Meaning I am a hamster that is more and more shy.So I guess there wont be any reward for just admiring you know but there are guys who rather keep humming around until the person they like left. =( .THat is how I will react to the one I like and this apply to all those same type as me.(great wishing to you all!!!)It like remind me of someone very special I guess. =)
Talking of being a hamster,actually I wont mind suddenly I turn into a hamster.I wont mind being turned into one just to save myself from the stress living as a human. =X
Actually I got think of some nice stuff.However I forget everything after playing games,games are seductive.However not as seductive as a female. =X
We guys just dont want to lose something we want and it is actually the same for everyone.The moment we speak something or do something wrong we have not have the chance to do again for first impression is very important.
-I do not know whether the water is too warmth or too cold but filling and pouring several times.That the best result I can give to you.-
The flash sketches is getting interesting and abit crazy.I dont understand why the sketch have to be colour.Being a class rep is not easy too....I still haven give notes finish to all and I dont have sufficient time to sort out. X_X
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:01 PM on Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Half sleepy and half uneasy in the car,we saw kelvin running down with 2 people.Firstly I thought is the pizzahut delievery however when kevlin fall and when I saw that person wack him with something I everyone immediately come out of the car and confront both of them.One cover his face another didnt,so you can actually say that the one revealing his face must be one great wannabe smartie.One take hammer another take spina. O_o.....We didnt make any move thx to those 2 who got weapons....I`m not trained to take out an armed person at all.What more is that first I still can talk to the person and say *please have a good talk first* I must be one great idiot to do that. They alrealy wack kelvin on his head,he bleed so much man.Man,it going to be like a small river and then u can start singing peace by the rive liao sia..... -_-
The 2 mystery man ran off after dunno saying what and speed off in their own motorbike.Huan yeong never see the plate number also,aiseh what a miss.... =/
Call ambulance and then rush off to NUH.Wati from 2am plus to morning 7am plus.Lodge police report and call kelvin parent.Saw his colleage also and everyone doze off somehow.SO tired.....morning reach home sleep like a pig and wake up at 2pm plus.Went to huan yeong around 5pm plus then went to tian zhong bbq.
Wait.....I sleepy...I guess I nxt time then update. =D
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:19 PM on Monday, July 30, 2007
Spend a good times eating and slacking too......then after eating went to arcade see chinghow and jasper playing the knight of valour2.Chat abit with bing lun also when I spotted him at the game machine around.NS to him is like nothing at all 2day work 1 day off....lmao!!!
Want to watch die hard 4 but lot1 dun have.....go westmall some not interested to go....everyone then go home le...that is life without money.LOLX...
Went to library to find about photoshop and Flash information.Hoping to understand more about the software.Dun have enough time to read everything,even I do cant remember everything. XD
Meet my childhood friend also(He Sheng) when small used to live with them in primary school. So happy to see him again ever since we last met at golden village at jurong point 2yrs ago.We chat abit also cos everyone got thing to rush.Good luck for your A lvl dude =)
Anyway,today morning type too fast never reconsider the words should written in a more friendly way.Ayiaaa...never mind....
Now at airpork house,feel sleepy....yawnz.....
-I am the mountainn I am myself,I am not the mountain,I am not myself,who am I,what am I-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:17 PM on Saturday, July 28, 2007
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Finally get to upload at home.Look at my grandma house the computer need to upgrade le. =X
Blogger have a new system that help u to recover your username and password as long you provide your e-mail.So the good thing is I recover all my blog!!!Lolx...but got 2or3 blog only have 1 post cos I forget the username and pw after 1 posting.These are my sercet blog cos they consist of the past I never intend to show to other pple. =P
So,I delete it all away with just one click and tata....hahaha....got a blog that consist of 9posts.Didnt delete it but it wont be open to any. =)
Now morning,good old sun that was block by those misty cloud.I had a conversation with my father about the doubt I have.Dear father,you are the one I love most. Through my life,you teach me things that I dun understand and cant see through but you show me the way and educate me about the art of living.Your words bring me hope and life.Although I hardly chat with my father but the fact is that everytime I ask him about something.I get to learn alot of thing of what you should do and what you shouldnt do.What you need to be careful and what are the thing you cannot give anyhow so easily.The art of self protection in living.
It true that you want to help pple.So he give me an example,a person won 2k of money in a lottery.His friend approach him for some money to handle his financial problem.So he say that lend about $200 will be enough or the amount of money you think you can spare.If he never return then it is ok but if he return that mean you earn it.However if you spare 2k to him,if u got problem.You find who for help?Cos we are toking in chinese and I roughly translate to english.Sound like common sense everyone know but through the conversation I know the hidden meaning.It quite hard to explain also.
Everyone have different of their livestyle.So the way of how pple react is different from the lifestlye they live in, from this angle you can get to have a better look on this person.The world is different but it doesnt mean that you cant put yourself in other world.It is not easy nor hard but it is by how sincere your heart is.If you really want a person to be your friend,you should spend some time and effort more to understand and finally judge it yourself.Judge as in the way that whether this person will get along with you anot.Not quite sure where I read it but I do remember that some people you get to know just cant get along well.It is a test and experience to learn to adapt.
Through this point,father did point out that you are all by yourself. A tree dun ned to lend on anything to grow,as time pass by it just grow up tall and fine isn`t it? I must really say his word are really inspiring to me.I dunno how much meaningful word he told me I can really put it into action but I really hope I can be like him also.TO respect everything.......
You need to analyse,then consider and finally action.When doing thing, must focus and do it wholeheartly not distracted and lose determination.Hard for me -.-
Ytd went to eat with peng yu and his family except ming yi.Peng yu father wait for us,then peng yu drive.Dunno which road peng yu drive and then they have a bet on what time reach teckwhye.Peng yu bet 5.10pm and peng yu father bet 6.20pm....the time when we reach teckwhye is 6.25pm thx to the traffic slowdown....awww...lolx.....went to fajar Tian zhong father newly open vegetarian stall.Saw not only Tian zhong and his father but also his mother too.Wow!!One whole family working happily sia....oop...I left out his sister...haha....never see his sister.Thank to peng yu father for the lift and for the meal too.Thank you very much. =)
Chat with peng yu about the problem I facing in class and we realise that both of us are facing the same problem too.Plus some of the thing I dun wish to list it down too.......workload is one of the problem.....then told peng yu that wont meet him tonight.I want to clear my mind and go canal to mediation.Bid farewell to peng yu and went home to wash up and tidy the prayer hall then left for canal.Very cooling due the suside of the rain not long ago.The wooden plank are still wet but got bring newspaper!!! See...the hamsterlord is getting clever daily..hhaha
While mediating,can really say very terrible cos I cant focus at all. In the proccess of mediating,I suddenly visualise myself around guan yin temple there.I was the the indian man that sit down for hours and it was going to rain but I do not have any money for my dinner. I suddenly feel a pain and a strong sad feeling from it and I can suddenly imagine myself that why just because I am an indian that why no one donate me any money for for a sake of a meal.I not quite sure why I get that mindset and where it from.I only remember him cos while after praying at guan yin temple after school.I saw him sitting there staring at the ground and I got a feeling that he dun have any money at all.The evening clouds hint of a big storm ahead and everyone is preparing to close alrealy.Surrounding suddenly like turn translucent and the sound and noise was being put to the min and he become a focus in my eye.I donate abit and left,hope that he leave and get ready for home before it start to rain.
Another is about the auntie I mention,it is not easy not endure scolding from the one you love.Imagine you love someone that actually is your husband or your spouse but living in a house daily, you face harsh treatment from the one you love.U get neglected and you face unpleasant word almost daily.The heart of one sink down deep and grave knowing that they only hope the one they love can turn back as the starting romance they once enjoy.It get worst after a few when suddenly you are being beaten,even it just be a just light beat or scratch.No reason will be sufficient to cover the mistake you done by hurting the one u did* once love and the one who give their heart wholeheartly for you.It ok to break with such kind of people but there is something that is different as other case because your case is because both of you are married for years*
Just because your wife turn fat alot when she become pregant and your own sex desire is getting tired of it?So you think as long u got the mouth to sweet tok and the charm to attract other better looking gal will let you have what you expect.Then you are a person with no virtue and a person without knowledge and a beast who dunno what is the basic art of living at all. Even the 2daughter under your care,using your daughter phone to make oversea call and had the bill to send to the your divorced wife.Tell me one thing dude,aren`t you a sickening person?You got the money to flirt with any gal you have but you dun have money for yourself and money for your daughter education fee.Then what kind of man are you,just because this is just a blog and not a newspaper and no name is mention you think no one know?Heaven and hades know exactly how you ill treat your wife and how unfaithful u are and what kind of person are you.The best treatment for u in hell is awaiting.Donate as much amount of money you had during your deathbed wont help you much when it come to the weighting of your good and sin weight will be the same.
It is not my life and not related to me,but mind you everyone have a heart.Even a stranger can sigh when learning of such tale.If there is anyone can say "kapo la,why care so much other?"
So you mean you wont share the same road with her when such true happening tale are happening commonly nowaday. So when you got the same fate as them then no one come to your aids,no one to console you not even your friends. Now you should know if you are the type that mean you are selfish and you only want to self benefit yourself only. Your good is nothing but a fake and is half hearted.You are a person who do good deed for the sake of reward or good happening. Then shame on you to have such stupid thought. Disgrace to your family not teaching your well morally. Even your life is good,you will destroy your future with your own hand. I guess I abit too hot headed.....haha...type so much like scolding someone....hahaha....green tea green tea....
I suddenly just like visualise myself as both of them,it really very pain and the indian man is much worst.I cant imagine without any food or water for one whole day.Both story each show mental and physcial problem.So sad that tears weep for them and for those who same the fate as them.It took a long time that when I resume back to my mediation suddenly I realise I am really lucky enough.I am blessed and all those trouble I had was nothing at all.I am just so stupid to stuck there.Haizz......it a good experience......when it reaching 12am,the environment was getting colder and colder not cooling le. My leg get numb easily and I happily feed all the mosquitos to their fullest for that night.I feel very refresh and happy after some careful thought. During one time of my rest time to recover my cramp leg, I spotted 2 thailand passing by me.I not sure but I believe should be. I look at them and then one of them bow to me politely and left.
=_=.....??? It is a basic courtesy of course I bow as a gesture.Not quite sure I was imagining or what,I really feel someone is walking around the bridge by the wooden plank vibration and the voices.Guess teenager tend to think alot unnecessary.
Then left during near 1am cos I really cant focus anymore plus I remove the worries that whirl inside me.The temperature drop alot also,even the towel I brought to cover myself never protect my leg cos wearing a short pant.Leg get numb easily too.....so went back home and sleep.An unforgettable lesson,I enjoy alot by watching the night scenery at canal.So relaxing so peaceful...I guess this is wat I really want to live in unlike the stressful live of studying or working or blah blah....
Whatever we learn, the fact is what we know is just nothing compare to the universe.That the reason why self upgrading is important.Arrogant will deter your from learning,that why be humble is very important in our daily life.With a little bit of knowledge and you went to show.That will stop you from more learning more and willingly as from the start you had. I get to learn from ping siong something after his attachment.Although ping siong really got the proffessional skill alrealy but he told me something that really surprise me that those working there full timer are really much much professional than him.This sentence is enough to send me flying. So I guess everyone should know what I am trying to say.
if unconviced I might let u all his work when he is in sec3-4.
pls take a look at http://excelsium.deviantart.com/
A lifetime of thing to learn......you can slow down but never stop.
So,I delete it all away with just one click and tata....hahaha....got a blog that consist of 9posts.Didnt delete it but it wont be open to any. =)
Now morning,good old sun that was block by those misty cloud.I had a conversation with my father about the doubt I have.Dear father,you are the one I love most. Through my life,you teach me things that I dun understand and cant see through but you show me the way and educate me about the art of living.Your words bring me hope and life.Although I hardly chat with my father but the fact is that everytime I ask him about something.I get to learn alot of thing of what you should do and what you shouldnt do.What you need to be careful and what are the thing you cannot give anyhow so easily.The art of self protection in living.
It true that you want to help pple.So he give me an example,a person won 2k of money in a lottery.His friend approach him for some money to handle his financial problem.So he say that lend about $200 will be enough or the amount of money you think you can spare.If he never return then it is ok but if he return that mean you earn it.However if you spare 2k to him,if u got problem.You find who for help?Cos we are toking in chinese and I roughly translate to english.Sound like common sense everyone know but through the conversation I know the hidden meaning.It quite hard to explain also.
Everyone have different of their livestyle.So the way of how pple react is different from the lifestlye they live in, from this angle you can get to have a better look on this person.The world is different but it doesnt mean that you cant put yourself in other world.It is not easy nor hard but it is by how sincere your heart is.If you really want a person to be your friend,you should spend some time and effort more to understand and finally judge it yourself.Judge as in the way that whether this person will get along with you anot.Not quite sure where I read it but I do remember that some people you get to know just cant get along well.It is a test and experience to learn to adapt.
Through this point,father did point out that you are all by yourself. A tree dun ned to lend on anything to grow,as time pass by it just grow up tall and fine isn`t it? I must really say his word are really inspiring to me.I dunno how much meaningful word he told me I can really put it into action but I really hope I can be like him also.TO respect everything.......
You need to analyse,then consider and finally action.When doing thing, must focus and do it wholeheartly not distracted and lose determination.Hard for me -.-
Ytd went to eat with peng yu and his family except ming yi.Peng yu father wait for us,then peng yu drive.Dunno which road peng yu drive and then they have a bet on what time reach teckwhye.Peng yu bet 5.10pm and peng yu father bet 6.20pm....the time when we reach teckwhye is 6.25pm thx to the traffic slowdown....awww...lolx.....went to fajar Tian zhong father newly open vegetarian stall.Saw not only Tian zhong and his father but also his mother too.Wow!!One whole family working happily sia....oop...I left out his sister...haha....never see his sister.Thank to peng yu father for the lift and for the meal too.Thank you very much. =)
Chat with peng yu about the problem I facing in class and we realise that both of us are facing the same problem too.Plus some of the thing I dun wish to list it down too.......workload is one of the problem.....then told peng yu that wont meet him tonight.I want to clear my mind and go canal to mediation.Bid farewell to peng yu and went home to wash up and tidy the prayer hall then left for canal.Very cooling due the suside of the rain not long ago.The wooden plank are still wet but got bring newspaper!!! See...the hamsterlord is getting clever daily..hhaha
While mediating,can really say very terrible cos I cant focus at all. In the proccess of mediating,I suddenly visualise myself around guan yin temple there.I was the the indian man that sit down for hours and it was going to rain but I do not have any money for my dinner. I suddenly feel a pain and a strong sad feeling from it and I can suddenly imagine myself that why just because I am an indian that why no one donate me any money for for a sake of a meal.I not quite sure why I get that mindset and where it from.I only remember him cos while after praying at guan yin temple after school.I saw him sitting there staring at the ground and I got a feeling that he dun have any money at all.The evening clouds hint of a big storm ahead and everyone is preparing to close alrealy.Surrounding suddenly like turn translucent and the sound and noise was being put to the min and he become a focus in my eye.I donate abit and left,hope that he leave and get ready for home before it start to rain.
Another is about the auntie I mention,it is not easy not endure scolding from the one you love.Imagine you love someone that actually is your husband or your spouse but living in a house daily, you face harsh treatment from the one you love.U get neglected and you face unpleasant word almost daily.The heart of one sink down deep and grave knowing that they only hope the one they love can turn back as the starting romance they once enjoy.It get worst after a few when suddenly you are being beaten,even it just be a just light beat or scratch.No reason will be sufficient to cover the mistake you done by hurting the one u did* once love and the one who give their heart wholeheartly for you.It ok to break with such kind of people but there is something that is different as other case because your case is because both of you are married for years*
Just because your wife turn fat alot when she become pregant and your own sex desire is getting tired of it?So you think as long u got the mouth to sweet tok and the charm to attract other better looking gal will let you have what you expect.Then you are a person with no virtue and a person without knowledge and a beast who dunno what is the basic art of living at all. Even the 2daughter under your care,using your daughter phone to make oversea call and had the bill to send to the your divorced wife.Tell me one thing dude,aren`t you a sickening person?You got the money to flirt with any gal you have but you dun have money for yourself and money for your daughter education fee.Then what kind of man are you,just because this is just a blog and not a newspaper and no name is mention you think no one know?Heaven and hades know exactly how you ill treat your wife and how unfaithful u are and what kind of person are you.The best treatment for u in hell is awaiting.Donate as much amount of money you had during your deathbed wont help you much when it come to the weighting of your good and sin weight will be the same.
It is not my life and not related to me,but mind you everyone have a heart.Even a stranger can sigh when learning of such tale.If there is anyone can say "kapo la,why care so much other?"
So you mean you wont share the same road with her when such true happening tale are happening commonly nowaday. So when you got the same fate as them then no one come to your aids,no one to console you not even your friends. Now you should know if you are the type that mean you are selfish and you only want to self benefit yourself only. Your good is nothing but a fake and is half hearted.You are a person who do good deed for the sake of reward or good happening. Then shame on you to have such stupid thought. Disgrace to your family not teaching your well morally. Even your life is good,you will destroy your future with your own hand. I guess I abit too hot headed.....haha...type so much like scolding someone....hahaha....green tea green tea....
I suddenly just like visualise myself as both of them,it really very pain and the indian man is much worst.I cant imagine without any food or water for one whole day.Both story each show mental and physcial problem.So sad that tears weep for them and for those who same the fate as them.It took a long time that when I resume back to my mediation suddenly I realise I am really lucky enough.I am blessed and all those trouble I had was nothing at all.I am just so stupid to stuck there.Haizz......it a good experience......when it reaching 12am,the environment was getting colder and colder not cooling le. My leg get numb easily and I happily feed all the mosquitos to their fullest for that night.I feel very refresh and happy after some careful thought. During one time of my rest time to recover my cramp leg, I spotted 2 thailand passing by me.I not sure but I believe should be. I look at them and then one of them bow to me politely and left.
=_=.....??? It is a basic courtesy of course I bow as a gesture.Not quite sure I was imagining or what,I really feel someone is walking around the bridge by the wooden plank vibration and the voices.Guess teenager tend to think alot unnecessary.
Then left during near 1am cos I really cant focus anymore plus I remove the worries that whirl inside me.The temperature drop alot also,even the towel I brought to cover myself never protect my leg cos wearing a short pant.Leg get numb easily too.....so went back home and sleep.An unforgettable lesson,I enjoy alot by watching the night scenery at canal.So relaxing so peaceful...I guess this is wat I really want to live in unlike the stressful live of studying or working or blah blah....
Whatever we learn, the fact is what we know is just nothing compare to the universe.That the reason why self upgrading is important.Arrogant will deter your from learning,that why be humble is very important in our daily life.With a little bit of knowledge and you went to show.That will stop you from more learning more and willingly as from the start you had. I get to learn from ping siong something after his attachment.Although ping siong really got the proffessional skill alrealy but he told me something that really surprise me that those working there full timer are really much much professional than him.This sentence is enough to send me flying. So I guess everyone should know what I am trying to say.
if unconviced I might let u all his work when he is in sec3-4.
pls take a look at http://excelsium.deviantart.com/
A lifetime of thing to learn......you can slow down but never stop.
Time to go lot1 for sushi!!!
There are times when life just fly up and then down like a balloon up with air and down without air.Ggagaga....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:45 AM on
Get to know about the digital lecturer,abit different from what peng yu told me.First lesson alrealy mark me late....eeek...cant believe that she so strict.That a good move to freak those latecomer out....haha...got freak out alrealy... XD
Went to meet Tian zhong and his friend and went to the shaw tower the only vegetarian stall to have lunch.First time went there,power sia....more like a cafe instead.The place look nice,went to the counter and look at the recipe.Food name sound very nice too and everything look nice except the price dont nice at all. XD Order mushroom spaghetti with mushroom soup.How should I say?The mushroom soup really taste alot better than any else where I drink sia.Somehow my favorite also....aiseh....chat abit also then not long later realise my mp3 not with me only to find out I left in the classroom.Oopx....after eating accompany Tian zhong they all to bugis junction and quickly rush to the computer lab to be told that my classmate help to take it alrealy.Phewwww.......Since I dunno who is it and plus I got 2more hours of free time before 3pm.I stroll to the DBS bank behind Og abert and update my bank book and finally know who is the mystery man who transfer money to my account.The previous company I been working for still got pay haven send me for quite sometime.That so nice of them to send the money without telling me.Hahaha.....Went to visit auntie again and chat for a very short while and went to a shop to remove my mole at the neck and plus other places..........just say it another bomb....I think I suffer 2 bombs......quite big and devastating sia....see......2 big black hole at both of my pocket le..... -_-
Went back to school and bought a file and 2 drawing block since Nafa shop got a closing down sale.....Gagaga.......then went to another lesson....I wonder is I just eat just nice or walking a long distance with weight with my ankle there making me very tired or the fact is that her voice is like a lullbaby to me......so horrible sia....my head keep on sinking down times to times......I really want to sleep right on the spot......lucky she give break or else I sure break myself into my afternoon dream....lolx....
Lecturer ask somebody to be a class warp....no one reply and I got sabo.....but lucky never count.....However not long later lecturer ask again.......someone tell me just do it....I just raise my hand and tata....here come my nightmare... >.<....cold sweat* Got my first mission and that is to ask classmate who want the notes for the subject and have to photocopy for those who want....shag liao....now this is what I call nightmare....cos not long later p.c chou tell next week there will be more. 0_O....good gracious!!! Never been a classwarp before and I think it is very different from being head of media club.Class and club are different..........Hopefully I can do my best and learn more from having this responsibility.I choose Adi to be my assistant,saw a shock facial expression from her*Why me?!?!* Lolx!!! Lucky she didnt mind,anyway have to choose someone who can be depended on and and also cannot choose who have alrealy being a class warp be4 also.....tough huh....I wonder what will happen if I choose louis....Omg....I smell trouble brewing.....lolx..... XD
After lesson go to slim lim with Aaron and louis.Help check the price for hard disk for Gab,see Aaron buying CS and then went to burgerking makan....buy onion ring.Aftert that went home......almost doze off in bus....I think the voice of p.c chou side effect is working....making me very sleepy sia..haha...
My neck feel pain sia.....the stuff that the staff use is like a needles that can burn....ouch!!! Funny lor....when she is putting th needles at my neck and ask me is it ok......I feel like telling her why not we swap place and u try to talk to me.Rofl,then worst never give me plaster and I went back to class with that wound like that open to all......free looking...u know..lolx...crap sia...grrr.....black chili pepper crab anyhow? I feel like I am one great tasty crab...just make sure u know how to cook a 80kg crab can le...yuck...jk..haha
One thing that I have to highlight to everyone is that.Whatever I write out about anything most of the time is one sided story but I write stuff I believe down here is because when you get to hear the stories,you can hear from their tone and sensitive people can also know the sudden change of atomsphere...haha....aiseh...must buy a thermometer liao......anyone who crack a lame joke the surrounding will turn cold...can test test liao... =X ok I know that not funny.
There are many tales not told and unheard of,the best thing to do is not hear about it.Just be what you believe,you have to endure to taste the fruit.Secondly is that everyone mind concept change accordingly to their life time experience,it actually accmulate to change and seldom happen in an instant.While in conversation Aaron ask me that when you got money,what is the thing you cant buy?Reply with love only.....he giggle away...lolx.....True la,I know gal like pple who are rich but that for the sake of covenient only that all.True I realise true love is really very hard nowaday but I believe in fate although fate never let to me be with any gal yet but I still believe in fate.LOL!!
Even I remain single until my last breath....I still believe as what I believe now.....hehe...maybe can try online dating...lolx....a dating alrealy cost how much.....haha...what will those without money? =X
-Money are just like water that flow endlessly however our heart is like the riverbed that remain unchange-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:12 PM on Thursday, July 26, 2007
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This is my last younger sister I have.Tsing something.....Omg...I forget how to spell her full name!!!Not too long and not too short being brother to her, don`t know and don`t understand her well.However we will still chat together,provided I am not in the middles of any games which often I never reply to her.Previously she like Jereld very much and both of them did get together.There were times that they enjoy together but yet the relationship ended after sometime.Ooopx.... =X
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This should be the first time I put the last brother(Jason) I had in my circle,the person that stand right beside me.I still remember that after having Jereld as brother, not long later Jason approach me.During that time we are friends and only chat abit at times so don`t really know him well also. =X Hahaha.....I don`t remember exactly where and when however I did remember that he ask whether we can be brother anot.Although I am surprise at that time due to the fact I really dunno him well but I still accept him.Why not anyway since he look like one who can be trusted and a person with great potential.We did get better along now since we get to chat abit more together compare to last 2yr that we hardly talk and meet.Whenever we meet, he is the only brother left who still call me kor even outside. =)
(below)One thing I don`t like is that why my hair look so nerd!!!! If I got enough hair,I bet I will get the same hairstyle as them.Grrrr.... =X Until now only kai yuan,Roy and chen ming have the same sort of like old fashion hairstyle.Hehehe.....look nerdy also not bad arhx.... XD
(below)We went to K box around 11pm plus.Jereld suggest K box to kill the remaining time we have to enjoy ourselves.Jereld really like regular customer,he know everything and even the remote control I don`t even know what button is what buton.He is the only one who can set correctly so left me and jason like a green horn.....I had to stand up while singing cause sitting down on the sofa give me diffculty to sing properly.The stomach like cramp cramp abit abit....woot!! Jereld and Jason can sit down and sing without any problem.....eeeek....not fair!!!
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Well, it common sense people.This guy is me and so blah blah =)
I enjoy alot that night although the expenses suddenly shoot up like mad but I still believe that is definitely worth it.This year I can say that this is our first outing together,sound like we only meet once in a blue moon.Hehe,both of them are np and nyp plus I not living in teckwhye reducing the chance of meeting together.Jereld got canoe practice also almost daily and the free times he will push forward his study.So everytime when the moon turn blue,I will meet them. =P
Another 2 pic is the Fang zhen and Pow.One is my good friend and one is actually my so call brother.Hahaha....However we also rarely contact.Didnt get to take photo with xiao mei and elaine kee.I forget to ask elaine to take picture with me and I saw violet rushing to no way and never ask her also.Hahaha...Violet and Elaine are born on the same day and both have the same personality.
Elaine and I was bro and sisters for 6yrs alrealy.Cool huh...I did remember how come we are siblings but it a ugly starting.LOLX.....Well,everyone make mistake when small.I make alot of awful mistake that send me signing that whatever mistake I did was really a pity. =(
Now the only person left me wondering is Roy,the school he enrol in and the way he do daily is worrying me.However I guess,his own laziness will get his own reward. The growing stage is very important of what kind of friends you mixed with.One wrong step and you will fall along with it.Fall in love with the wrong person is much more worst.Lol!!! =X
Well,all the best to him......
I deleted my friendster around 2months ago due to some reasons.I remember after deleted the account,I was asked by people I just get to know that do I have friendster account. Sound so funny as in my view and it quite hard to explain everything why I deleted it.Then today get to know our form teacher who tell us to use friendster acc to add to see her announcement. O_o....sweat sweat alrealy sia......then create a new account with my new hotmail.Not long after finishing creating it,the Lecturer then say it is ok not to add if you don`t have a friendster account....tuuu duu tuuu.....I just create one then now you say.Sennn liao....
Need to have a yahoo acc to add the lecturer group to see all the important stuff also.....so I create yahoo account again after several times that the yahoo delete my account just because I almost never log in. =(
Never get to see the 2new students at all, I wonder is it my mistake or is it that they never come for lesson.Went to lunch and have mee siam and got a bowl of mee siam that will left u hungry.Went up and down in the school and finally back to Joseph classroom,slack there and being asked about my mediation exp.Alot of funny memories recalled and enjoy by everyone and not long later lesson time reaching and left for classes.Attend a talk by the history teacher,his story is somehow full of unsatisfied,disappointed and inspiration.I just wonder if I got a choice to choose 3k or 8k of salary par month,will I really choose the 3k?I will say NO way!!!! XD That the advantage of being materialistic....Lolx!!! Jk....we never know the true story of his anyway.
Went to computer lab to do the I-learning stuff......Omg....notes have to be read inside the webbie....eeeek...I`m done for I guess......no wonder why lesson only 1 hour.Cos reading the history notes will be more than 2hours I presume.....eeeek....Question to be answer also.....sound like it gonna be one challenge.....
After lesson went to paradize center play cs and dota.Get to see nigel,one of louis best friend and we play dota together.One thing I realise is that,their way of talking is almost the same.Is like watever both tok indirectly,they will understand the meaning.Lolx.....lose to Ai but then was asked to play with other 3pple and won the match....gagaga....
I found this note on my com,reading it just refresh me something.Although it been months alrealy but I guess the person still never change after all this time that drain away.This is given by jasper during that time,he told me what happen. (Oopx....cannot be copy and paste)(lazy to type also!!) =3
Well,they are quarreling over a match of dota.Friends quarrel over trival matter but then it flared up and worst to worst is that they lose friends just because of it.Sound like it goona be one sad thing too but hope those who still have your friends please cherish them well.Friend is better than game who cant share your burden and your joy.They cant help you at all in a good way.Dota is a nice game but it is also a devil in disguise.People who play games for hours like hardcore gamers will tend to find themselves getting angry or irritated easily.Sound like you must be joking but please refer to the newspaper and internet for more reliable information.Game do waste time and I really hope I can just stop playing game and start to learn more about my camera and my photoshop and other software to get good grade.This also apply to those people not only addict to internet but also to those who are addicted to pornography webbie.Sound like so great but it is hard to quit.......so...good luck to all those victims...haha....
Yesterday evening after a long time facing the Lcd screen,went to east coast park to take nice picture and of course to test the camera the function.So many different function that left me full of question mark in the air, it was windy with clouds covering the whole skies and not a trace of evening sun was left before 7pm.Cycle to bedok jetty there taking a few shot and then to the further path there and take and take until I realise that my len are dirty!!!!Waaaa....gone case.....no wonder why all the pictures taken that day was blur and misty........sob sobx...well done..clean your len sometime and check it....lolx...now then learn a lesson.....cycle back and get to play with a cat around the fishing station there.Got bitten twice lightly,guess it is playing with me....fondle for sometime then I realise it alrealy going to 10pm soon and went back.So that end for that day.....
-Could you be my day to shower with me your warmth and your seed of love and for return I am willing to be the night that will ensure the flow of blessing of the stars and the moon to reach upon your sleepless night.Even with our spilt personnalities/character or life we are spending,let us put down our barrier and achieve what both of us have wish for.-
Today I walk back home from MRT,I was listening to beauty and the beast.The special part is I repeat it over and over again until I reach home.One of my favorite song ever since I was just a child,I still can remember I watch it again and again.........awww.....too bad the vcr gone le...haha.....Although alot of people are too materialistic but yet there are times people lose it easily too.Being shy and calculative over some matter that will involve relationship,I will most of the time think of what and how to enhance romance.Watching drama can teach u alot of tips and ways but too bad I dun watch tv.... -_-..be myself and use my own idea will enough....hopefull it will be enough throughout my life....lolx....
While walking,I realise that what I really really want to do with my gf is to be at a perfect spot,most likely to be near lim chu kang or kranji reservoir there or kent ridge.A perfect evening with the sun and the sky matching as one that leave the one I love to be an unforgettable day.A beautiful view that one that does not apperciate nature to stop and watch with admiration.Man,so much for the talking.It will be very hard since you never know when will that day arrive,even if you bring the one you like.The weather and the view everything will not really happen for that day unless you got the luck......not like my first valentine day,so cloudy and windy blowing all my hope away.....sobx sobx.....
Guess tonight really write alot compare to previous posts,spend more than 2hours typing.....off to bed.....tata
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:02 AM on
A guide line that seen no purpose and so ineffective almost daily was only to be understood by those who taste their lesson.What can one do make what their expectation to be reached?
Truly a gift from the heaven, the fate of the present will remain in our hand and our effort. If there cannot be any scarifice then it will be hard to win the passion of the one you long like.Rose are nice yet the thorns will be there.Instead of cutting the thorns away just took it by hand before it fall in the hand of other, hand do bleed and there is pain but the pain is something that worth the cut you get.
Sometime it true that things are never meant to for you, a wiser step will be better to leave it alone and find what is more suitable for you.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 5:05 PM on Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Went for lunch and have a costly lunch and get to hear some fresh stuff from the guys.Play CS and that wat make me bored...I feel like it is a waste of time to me or maybe I dun like the game anymore or dun have the form.Who know.....Play until 3pm plus and went to meet peng yu awhile and get to know Tian zhong friend and left on my way to pray at guan yin temple.A stroll into the OG albert and slack slack with the auntie there and a chat with See Nam my colleage.
It is good to see which career got a bright future but do not forget the current situation first.Got to see Huiping counter change to another side and so are the cooking personnal also....alamak next time hard to get something nice to munch.....eeeek...
Went to visit Auntie at the chinese medicine shop chit chat a while and left bidding farewell Steven they all....Walk back home to realise I almost being knock down by a car.2 Car speeding against each other and there I am at the zebra crossing going to make my first step and zoom.....Cool......one go and one stop....the uncle gesture sound like that another uncle is one great fraggot in the world who doesnt know what is call safely...Well, if I am being knocked down I presume it will be good to dead and earn a big sum of money and send to my parent..haha....
What is the question that lies inside my mind?I do not and I have nothing to say to answer any question that will contrast my thought.....do what I have to do should be enough.
A step forward doesnt mean the right path but yet it give a wider angle of looking isnt it???
I`m tired...for no reason..................I think it time to go bed....weeee
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:10 AM on
Never ever I believe that there will be one day I will fly high.
even I fly high the angle from watching a view is the only I can see.
However as time passed I believe I will understand....
getting ready for the teckwhye school concert.I didnt really want to go but since jereld tell me to go I couldnt refuse after he is my bro and I wanted to meet him for a long time alrealy.Of course,I guess I will be also geting to meet other who still know me.
Sometime I dunno whether I am a sensitive person but if that the case I guess I have to eat more oily food to have sufficient oil to cover my face.Hehex.....true as it can be.Fake as it can see.
mind agap and thought far apart...that a good question for those whose character dun fit each other
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 5:04 PM on Friday, July 20, 2007
Went back to teckwhye to watch Harry potter with peng yu and stay the rest of my day at home rotting peacfully.Hop upon Kalvin,giving my a great surprise.I remember I taller than him but now he taller than me alot sia.Zzzzz......good to see old schoolmates and play mates again.
Saw the class list and the time table.The only thing I can say is go with it since I am not the one settling the time table.
I am thinking whether should I work on ssunday anot....maybe it will do some goodies instead of rotting at home.
I do miss my brothers and sister.It not like we all have a choice but yet what I can say is to cherish watever thing that remain.We may not meet and in fact rarely meet.However if there a trust,the feeling wont fade.Reflect the past time we have that is what I can say. The future step is tough and unpredictable.
Yawnz...now really dunno wat am I toking....so cold that wat I remember
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:31 PM on Thursday, July 19, 2007
If only the time refold again,I will do my best as what I can now unlike the past.I dun have regret knowing you but only an unforgettable memory from you.
School starting soon and today is my last of working.It been a great exp this than workingin jean perry.Special thank to those promoters I get to know.Yes,sale line is kinda of hard when you do not have any education cert to get you a better job.The only thing we can do is to upgrade ourselves.
To those who have divorce, it is a pain why falling in love for years and why married for years and why in the end a divorce had to happen. We cannot blame anyone but blame ourselves for causing part of the reason for the divorce.However when the moment your husband have an extra affair with other gal outside even when you have children, cut it out straight and fast with your husband or spouse to prevent any further damage to the innocent child.I also cant simply write out what I feel but the only thing is remember to respect,trust,care and love. (if married)The time did pass but if your love fade along with the tickling clock then you must be a asshole.What is the meaning of love.....treating a person with love and as if your love object.....true love is undying even to the last breath of one...it dun mean an ending but a new starting...
Poor as we see....I see so many people are self centered....as the saying goes *the more u suffer the brighter the light u get to see*
Tonight chatting with a cavali promoter,he ask me why he suffer so much and he ask who is he.Dun ask yourself why u suffer so much and dun lament that u suffer alot.When there are many people dying from starvation,cold and disease. There are many inncoent people in china dying from pollution.There are people dying everywhere everyday in different part of the world.They just want to eat and live healthy and happily unfortunately many die without having the chance to get a feel of how it is to be like living in warmth.
Even in sg,everone got their own problem.Ranging from family,background,status,education,career,record,friendship and love and so blah blah......each one have their own problem to solve.You may thought you suffer alot more and u think you are special than other but you are still a human and you are still a normal people not like the rest in mental hospital or in handicapped school.Why trouble yourself so much about the future when the present is just in front of you.A step by step is the most practical way but also you ned a goal to have a path to walk. No one is special or irreplaceable in this world. Walk on and forward even u are on the verdge of breaking down. If you dun help yourself no one else will help you. Believe yourself and not how other talk about you.
Alot of people is having hard time even the economy is getting well.Gst is up and the pay of many private sector remain the same.A small carrot of $200 and plus can let u survive how long?The pace have increase posing a greater pressure to all singaporean.Why the government complain birth rates is falling sharply? By giving away a small sum of money use a part of the fund to pay the hospital bill and the expense of raising a child is like a black hole never stop sucking away the parent hard earned money. Getting marry have to worry about house loan liao.......getting baby need sufficient time to spend with and money on the child education.The rising expense cost the lives of the next generation wich will no longer to leap over the barrier set by the government.True that there are many rich people, but the majority are medium and low income.......why talented people are leaving sg?Too much workload and stress....
A modern country that is facing a time bomb crsiss.I cannnot say anything but only hope government can help everyone out there.......both parent have to work to support themselves leaving the children to face high chance of mixing wrong company.The tales of parent working so hard to support their children in school face heartbreaking problem with their problematic children they love so much.A growing baby need a right tree to lean upon,a right direction to teach and follow............that why mother play the most important part of our lives.
Parent and couple are facing alot of different problem.Do something,the citizen of sg is having diffculties to chase their breath.Do not only take action when part of our country mates fell.Proccess is needed but depend on the direction also.
whatever trouble you face,stand for it and live with it. Remain strong and believe in yourself.
So much toking but wonder only how many get to read it.So long my days
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:13 PM on Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I writing now is because of peng yu they all having supper with me.I get to see some of my religon friends,it just like meeting old friends again.The feeling is really wonderful when you are feeling down.I never tell them my problem however because of them we laugh and talk wild instead of damping the atomsphere.Hahaha.....I feel very happy now dunno why.Sometime I just feel it is good to get contented easily but that does not goes to my ambition.Strike hard now as fast as possible and even the proccess take half of your life away as long my goal is fuilfill.I wont regret.
I am now serious in changing my name due to those good will people advise.True is what I can say about their word and admiration is what I had for them.They had unaccountable knowledge that totally enlighten u in even just a simple thing.Book are human best friend,they teach alot of things.I will use the free time to take a browse at the library,I most likely may get to find something interesting.
Now I only can worry is about my father.I dunno how will my father react?However I guess it is good to discuss with him,my father is very understanding.Hopefully.....LOL
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:08 AM on Sunday, July 01, 2007
Well,apple also got come.I get to see his gf also.Hmm......No comment actually but then of cos as his brother I feel happy for him.I believe that he himself really start to use his brain to think le.Hahaha......This time round I finally get to see Aik sin again.Damn...iut been very long to contact or should I say get to see him again.He really turn much fatter sia and I can feel he is more stressed than before.To work and to study at the same just to support himself and his family.I cannot help him in anything but only pray that he will have a smooth yr ahead.
Anyway, today I guess I really get to know a very ------ person.He a promoter and is only 17.He is quite young and I sense fierce aura around him.Phew.....not a guy to miss with I guess.Hahaha...We get to know each other abit more and he reveal to me about his love life.Only 17 but alrealy had 18 stead before and out of 18 dunno many he toy around and had sex with.I think I was too shocked to remember how many girls did he really fuck.I mean it ok to have sex with your gf or bf but then question lie in his heart cos he just toy several of his ex stead.Guess everyone should understand the feeling of putting commitment to realise that the one you love doesnt really love you at all.This is one of the common case nowaday in sg.From the way he told me,I know that he is also involved in underage sex.However the good thing is that,u dun say I dun say nobody know.As a reader,you should know that how many of your friends how many had alrealy tata~ liao la...haha..oopx....it the fact.I dun go by just newspaper but also by the news which is reliable.Newspaper dun alway tell u everything that u wan to know. =X
The most shocking part is that he can use more than 1k to go prosititue at geylang street 12.He not rich le......all those hard earn money can like that easily gone in just one night. -_-..watever he tell me...I think I get more and more -_-...Guess there are plenty of weird and funny people in this world.....haizzz...sianz.....better dun tok about him....
Well.......time to go sleep!!!Weee...it rainning!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:49 PM on Monday, June 25, 2007
I realise that Ping siong is a freelance designer, withi his skill it is not hard for him to e professional after so much of his art work is really impressing and make u admire when you realise that his age is just only 1 yr smaller than me.He usually get to pay from $50 just name card and to even more than $400 for just a picture for either internet website design purpose or other like book cover or something.
I guess when the school I must learn it all myself.Even it is though I have to take since ping siong can do it why cant I do it too?Hahaha....
Now been working in tempur for almost one month le.....quite nice the job although it seen to be boring due to the fact that not much customer actually buy the product due to it exp price.One hour $6 is quite a normal pay and due to the increasing GST.Even $6 per hour may count as one of the low paid job.In ten yrs time, at this rate I believe the poor will become poorer while the rich become richer and those medium income people will join the depth of those who are stuggling with the stressful life in singapore where flat wll go higher and rental of shop also shoot up as well as the price of all daily basisc. A society that make those newly couple to taste the fear of bankrupty and divorce just over the sake of money. Why couple so easy divorce? What happen when both kept on quarreling over the spending of the money blaming each other.That only part of the reason....when both love each other....when both have to survive by working and working through their live....the fruit of love may turn sour just becos the stressful pace processed in our country.......We shouldnt think too much...when we face a criss....the only thing u ask yourself...what can u do for your country?What can u do for the other as well as for yourself?
The future seen to be full of obstacle while the time seen to be shorter than we expected.Each day as more people become despair ,there will also be more people touching the light.The concept is simple,it is us ourselves who create darkness and light.It is by our thinking that cause us to be wat we are.......
Well,there nothing I can say but uhm.....I realise love dun ned a reason too....damn.....lol
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:07 AM on Friday, June 22, 2007
I get to know her more although honestly speaking I support that u should not know too much about the person u like.She straightforward but not too straight forward perhap to some only she will be willing to talk to. I was like wondering what make me go hay wire....She is quite a nice person.Well, I have nothing much more to comment since me myself is actually going to doze off soon.
Maybe the time is still not right.Maybe there is still thing awaiting for me to exp...I do not know.Omg...I guess I just update fully next time....sleep!!!
If I can see the one I love,it will only be in my dream..........
One question: why guy can anyhow like gal they want?Why gal can anyhow like guy they want?
Answer: They are just like a sitting duck without an definite pond to wade =D
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:19 AM on Monday, June 18, 2007
I somehow sense I am abit out of the objective I had for hui ping.My main goal is to keep her happy and forget her previous relationship failure even it cant be be rub off let me at least recover some of it.
However the way as it is now,I fear that I really start to like her.I left a nice impression in her,honestly speaking I hardly get such a positive comment from a gal. Jialat......I ask her out thursday,she reply she mostly like will make it.I hope she will turn up....however right now,I confess that I am fond of her.
Sometime it quite funny to get to like someone easily.I have no answer to myself.........
let just hope everything go smoothly.....
better sort out everything
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:10 AM on Sunday, June 17, 2007
From my view,those who had scarifice alot of thing for the sake of their concept toward love deserve a clap.So if u think u are one,clap for yourself.Because we never feel that why we will never understand those who was being sent to eternal hell before.We know and we cherish because we know there things that heaven still leave for us.A chance to love again....however how many people had repeatly abused such system just based on their luck.
I cant believe a gal of my age to have such simple mindset.She have my total admiration,her concept is good but as what I say it dun apply to all.
The time remaining is shortening,I will do my best as what I can do for her.Somehow maybe the time is right.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:08 AM on Friday, June 15, 2007
Knowing her sometime sometime just make me wonder how on earth she can survive her own her by having such a go by book concept.It is true that if gal treat her bf better,her bf will treat her better.Actually it do apply but you have to use your own heart to feel whether he is the one to apply anot.How naive she can be...I mean same age with me should more or less realise more thing and should start to be materialtisc.She hardly had which is really srprising,maybe it is her environment that she thought remain quiet will be the best solution to deter any attack from backstabber.An ITE grad to higher tech.....her story is somehow abit lame to me while formally in another word it mean it sound weird.
I get to know her relationship problem as we went home together.I guess she still cant brk away herself from the memories left by the past of their story.How sad, if her bf is a nice person then the story would be different. I cant imagine that she live in pasir pir and her bf live in bouna vista and she still buy him breakfast often while she still get scolding just becos she bought him wrong breakfast.Holy shit dude.....what kind of guy did she pick in the first place? Honestly if a gal done that to me....aiseh....die without regret liao...Wahahahahah......good thing no one know where I live.....my grandma house is just like a maze....hehe.....
for 3yrs.....for 2yr,that guy never send her home more than 20 times....say 1yr 365days and u can double it......ite got alot of work or project mehx?I dun think so...unless exam la...however arhx....I mean sg is alrealy very small liao......I dun think it far....it is a sign of commitment....as far as I know....cherish what you had...not taking thing for granted.....poor gal.....she was being abused too...how many time I am not sure....that relationship did almost took her life...I feel very sorry for her.....I am not able to feel her feeling completely however I have.Being slap for no reason in school or in front of classmate is the most insulting thing...if I am a guy...I do not care whether I reach the level of tranqulity or wat....the best thing I will react is holding one good chair tight and slam it hard right into the face of the one and make sure both of us go office and get to drink a cup of tea with the principle....hehehe....
I feel happy to be her friend.However it will be good introduce some gal to her as friend too.Maybe she will get or found some when she work....we never know...all we can really do is pray and hope the best for her.
One day sooner or later I will find a gal like her........and I make sure she wont go alone ever.
Guy, do your part as what we can.Living under different environment is not an excuse.Read more book....get to have yourself in other people shoes.Having a bad temper is kickable.....this habit can be change......I done my part by changing it.....guy should not have any temper.....
alot of concept that will contrast each other....do what is the best logically for both part not only for your benefit.
Time to work soon.......GG...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:25 AM on Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Day 0,wake up in the morning watching gundam series.Then get to see MS 08th team.Very nice show sia,grr. Too bad only watch first espoide because haven pack my stuff yet.Sweat...Actually I want to buy insect repellent but my leg quite lazy so in the I still stay at home.Lol.....
Around 1pm,I get ready and went to yee tew Mrt station.By that time while on mrt,I suddenly feel abit anxious and nervous.This is the first time I wnt for a very long camp course and alone with no friend.However I tell myself that I will learn about the art of living more in this mediation course.
When I reach the specified place.I saw a lot of uncles and aunties with luggage. =.=....suddenly feel maybe I am the the youngest attending the course...haha.We wait for a bus more than 45min. -_-...dot.However during that time we get to have some self intro.Some people just get 10days off from their managers. I just wonder takingsuch a long leave just for the sake of attending the mediation course.IS IT REALLY WORTH THE SCARIFICE? 0_o?
The bus went straight to christine.Deep into lim chukang and the journey take 30 minutes.The bus drive into a very rocky unmanned road.Quite interesting to travel such a rocky road when almost all road in sg are maintain often.
After 5min on the rocky road,we reach camp christinie.Camp christinie itself is actually just beside or opposite the scout assiocation camp.It was rainning at that time and we were shown to our room.I chat with an uncle who sleep below me.Blah blah....I forget what we chat le.Went for an afternoon nap.Still can remeber quite colling sia... XD
Our alarm for each different session is a gong(make from metal) The most interesting part is that it sound pleasant.We had a night briefing and finally went to bed.The course now start!!! O_0!!!
Sometime I really wonder will I survive without chatting with another person for 10days.Of course,handphone was safekeep by the staff.No eye contact or body gesture are allow too.Each day,a mininum of 12hours mediation had to be done.All meal are simple vetegrian food and there is no dinner!!!Waaaa....almost every night I went hungry sia...lolx...
10pm light out but I will alway toss left and right until 12am or 1am plus before falling asleep. >.<....diaozz.
DAY3 is the worst day,the scorching sun heat up the rooftop and the mediation hall was just like an oven.Omg....I felt like I going to be a toasted hamster....My leg go numb easily and I alway felt some itch randomly throughout my body.....however wheven I take a peek at the the rest...all like buddha never move...so in the end I also try not to move and practice the method that the teacher told us to....
Day4 isnt better....whenever I try to concentrate.There will be evil thought invading my mind.ALway distracting me and had me stuck inside for a very long...I felt very torturing...grrr....I will not attain another lvl if this keep continue....
Day 5 afternoon it rain....yes YES!!! Squeak!!!.....of course I try my best again......
Well now straight to day8....day 8 is what I call beautiful.During the evening after the drizzle the sun set down and that is the most beautiful sunset I can swear.The sun is big and red in a romantic way plus the whole skie is clear with the colour like toning....setting over the hill and and the shining upon the sea.A short moment of wonder but I really admit that it is really breathtaking....
So we skip to day10....Everyone went home and honestly speaking I only get to know a few person and everyone is like nice people people and to some is like we known each other long time ago....so carefree...so had to describe the feeling but I only can say this course is really quite worth it.
This post was edit over and over again for week due to tight sechule ahead and may update again if found lack of anything...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:12 PM on Monday, June 11, 2007
-?-
My heart had been travelling to many places
different terrain that change the duration of travelling,
different weather that allow me to continue or to stay,
however the question of meeting one is still whirling,
The past of me may lament all the time,
yet the born of a new me is going on,
there is more to see and more to learn,
I wont go down by any obstacle,
I wont have my will nor my determination to fade,
even if it is in the deepest level of eternal darkness,
I will glow brightly to illumiate my own path,
my own way of love anyone I come across,
to love those who need love more than me,
-?-
In a miracle that we wait,
in asense of desire we name,
will our expectation be fulfill?
the time seen long and stoppping,
in time and sometime irregular,
a chance to think and recall,
will that do good?
will it make a difference?
-Song??-
There a warmth from our heart,
when hand start to raise,
whenever you are down,
we will cheer for you,
you will know friend are alway beside you,
to be there for you my friend,
where we push you forward,
to your goal and dream,
when burden are shared,
where happiness are born,
we will be together laughing around,
what on your mind my friend?,
when life is up and down,
you wont feel lonely alway,
cause you still have friends around you,
there will be time,
you find strength,
you find hope,
so shall we celebrate ?
in any gathering we hold,
when all are busy in life.
toast to everyone and
enjoy that very day of our reunion.
-?-
When people realise they make a grave mistake.
WHat will they do?
Some will blame themselves but there are also idiot blaming other.
Some get over it but some take time and few never.
Some learnt and the rest never until the time come or never come.
I crawl out from my world and had my eye fixed toward the higher path.
Be humble at all time to learn faster.
-This is the plan for my birthday-
-East coast park
-watch movie
-take photograph
-go home
-steamboat
-sushi
-Go pray
-swimming
-cycling
-K box
-Update blog fully
-shopping!!
-dating!!!
Everyone sure know the last one is just for fun...hahaha....
-The next chalet gathering reunion-
*The following people are invited or to attend
yuan man,javin,sheng huat,chen boon, jasper, junjie,wei quan guo xiong, kee wee, chen ming, guo wei, ping siong, guo wei, ping siong yu hang aik sin jeffrey, bernard, jonathan,helmi,stamford,dong yi,qiu wen and plus all those requested by any of the member above.
-?-
Everyone have different mindset and way of thinking in almost everything.
Most of us will know what is right and wrong.
Hoever what about those who dont?
Actuall there is no right or wrong.
Everyone was born and live in different environment.
As we adapt to our surrounding,
we become part of the surrounding that influence us,
which will explain that when we done something wrong,
we may not know it is wrong....
it the same if the parent teach their own child to steal or to kill in south africa.It is the environment....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:34 AM on
Secondly I sincerely thank to all those who still remember my birthday and I wish everyone to live happily....yea!!Hehe
Lastly,I forget to make a wish....Omg..... XD well done....hahahah
On the night,Special thank to Indran and Mr louis who acommpany me to marine south for the dinner.One whole day with just both of them,it is a pity that I do not have sufficient fund to hold my birthday to invite my class as well as all my friends and my beloved family members.
At this moment,I am also very surprise getting greeting from friends that I do not contact with long ago.Actually I am more delight when I receive Hiutung and Germain sms.Hahaha...not say I wat la...I mean from the past stories of mine and plus that we never contact the fact really brighten me.Hahaha......Happy happy...
The first person was Violet.....that xiao mei although stm but when it come to birthday she will remember one......funny right?Speaking of the devil,I also start to miss her alot....haha..xiao mei..haven go watch movie together le...
Thx to all brothers who greet or never greet me at all.Someday when fate permit we may share the joy of celebrating together under the luminous moon that will brighten the silent night.
With a new lease of life that is born under the strength of my hope and my dream,I will make a step further to reach for it.No matter what the road,the destination will be the same.I will die without regret as long as I done what I can accomplish at least half of my ideal.A new wisdom that is born under the peaceful nature through that 10 days of mediation.Will maybe weak but does not mean it is fading.I will continue to build up and rise...jajaja!!!Hahaha
I got sick not long later after the marine south,somehow I must have eat something wrong.Guess I got eat the prawn half cook only bai.......yuck.....I dunno le...waaa...sick from monday night to sat.......so torturing....everyday have diahorea.......at night want to sleep have to keep go toilet....headache...fever....and mild vommiting....omg.....shoulder pain.....waaa...really a torture...hahahah.....waaa...I still can laugh.....want to cry also cannot sia...hahaha....
Today sunday.....Willie sms me whether I can work at og albert.Man,I was quite happy.Since I am well in the morning,it is an offer to get extra money.Went to work....got late...well done again to myself...haha...the revonation was nicely done.The tempur is much much bigger I say...haha...
Get to know afew person also.....well.....
Anyway....I regret for not able to go out with jereld,jason and sarah.Due to my illness,it is actually almost impossible for me.I cant imagine having diahorea halfway in mrt.... -_-....that is scary.....We will meet again....
if you do not believe me,believe yourself and the rest........ =)
Finally I like to say that, you do not know who you will go with in the future,No matter how high your standard you put.You may face disappointment just becos that very own mindset of your.Abandon it and you may get to enjoy or to taste the fruit of a relationship.You may not have to find one but you can wait.....when fate doesnt arrive,there is nothing to do....just wait
=D
It is true that gal who treat guy good,the guy will treat the gal better.However it only apply to several and not all....everyone have different mindset and character...there is no assurance of such mindset.Be careful of harbouring naive idea...it bear diaseter
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:10 PM on Sunday, June 10, 2007
Anyway,I also started writing a draft for my whole chapter of the mediation course memories and plus plus plus....hehe....writing diary during working is good but turn bad when you are caught by your supervisor!!! XD
I recall one of the sentence I heard from the uncle in the mediation course.IF fate arrive,accept it but if there no fate,dun expect or do anything just to make it happen.While the teacher also told us to accept what we have,there is no point thinking creating your own illusion.......I dare not to say anything.However after watching a mature drama series,it reflect alot of moral and meaningful content.You may think is love but yet again you yourself cannot ensure that it is true love.I guess I just too young too understand......awww.....the ending is so nice.......haizzz....dun think too much...hahaha
Anyway I just write abit of lyrics.....all non complete cos when trying to finish it...I alway forget the rythm and the ending....ayiaaaa......wat to do....stm is like that....
Written in OG abert
-=Sweet dream forever=-
Sweet dream forever
living in a place
a place of transqulity
enchanting and smoothly quiet
a place that I wanted to
bringing you together with me
living by my side
now and forever
you find happiness
chrous*
Sweet dream forever
holding your hand
running through the meadow
splashing under the waterfall
laughing out loud in the valley
similing forever
and forever
Sweet dream forever
I wish we can be tied forever
under this very wonderful day
or under the moonlight bay
sweet dream forever
there a place I desire
hoping to have you along
with me for this special moment
chrous*
chrous*
Sweet dream forever
holding your hand
running through the meadow
splashing under the waterfall
laughing out loud in the valley
similing forever
and forever
Even if we wake
let us not forget
please do not forget
the sake of my heart
that love you
constantly
miles apart.......
-end-
-=??=-
lone night in the light
an angelic ray shine,
in a forbidden place,
where the lives dwell,
pass upon the hidden spot,
catching a glimpse of you,
a short moment of wonder,
a special moment started,
where time seen to stop,
a breath of passion kindle,
raging thoughout my heart,
rushing through my brain,
an never experience sensation,
I make my prayer,
a prayer answer my call,
is that love?
chrous*
dazzling light that spark,
shooting in all direction,
and you had me shot,
right true my heart,
thousand of miracle,
thousand of mysteries,
crazed for you,
everything just stop
where time seen to stop,
a breath of passion kindle,
raging thoughout my heart,
rushing through my brain,
an never experience sensation,
I make my prayer,
a prayer answer my call,
is that love?
-end-
Oopp.....now 1am le...play game too long le...have to go...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:00 PM on Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Now working in tempur,it is 4day per week job and dun earn much.However I promise myself to start execrising soon,I hope my will can overrun that laziness of mine.Hahaha...
Anyway,I write abit now cos somehow I really miss someone.Hahaha...I dunno how to say but then I still dunno why I still miss her.Really hope to see her once school reopen,she just move to yee tew le but then I most of time will stay in siglap there. -_-....I have no comment but to me distance is not the matter.Singapore is quite small and I am willing to make effort to meet her.
No matter how ordinary you may look like,
you will be extra ordinary whenever my eye set upon you,
if I remain the old way as I am bearing no courage,
I know sooner or later another of my hope went dash,
The holiday may seen long to me,
but yet it seen to be longer just because I hardly chat with you
the question of dating you seen to be more diffcult,
I laugh at my own weakness,
A bottle of wine to be drank,
a song to sing in the night,
where the sober turn crazy
running around scaring everyone he met,
I miss you throughout the whole holiday,
even I indulge myself in new games,
your face still pop out in my brain,
the best anti pop up cant block you,
I simile whenever I think of you,
wondering how you live,
wondering how your new house,
so many wonder that make me another idiot,
Missing you like nut.....
even the brain turn into coconut juice...
even my skull turn hollow....
my tear that shed for you is the proof of my heart...
the direction of my heart toward you,
a weak little heart that desperately pumping,
pumping pumping under the hot sun,
burning with passion that seen unfading,
I hope you are living fine,
living happily,
living with a simile as alway,
one thing that leave me similing is your sleepy facial expression
tata......
updating more again about the mediation course and the new job,including lao shu like hui qing(jean perry),kelvin,the movie of sex is zero.(May update extra)
-(dun take anyone that look pretty enough in your eye to satisfield your need,fate dun come easy and not as the way you want or expect)-
That is really want to tell lao shu but too bad la...I also not so call his friend. Just keep quiet and see show bai...
Haizzz...need to wait for a off day to update le....
If only one day you get to know how I love you,even if ever that day you learn of it.Will I be accepted or we just be the way as we are classmate and far distance friend?That one doubt which is enough to create lot of rubbish.I really hope that I can and I am willing to cherish any moment with you.No one is perfect......that make me a better man for you...hoho... =D
2nd-Hamsterlord just chew part of tempur bed and steal it to his mushroom cottage and sleep happily ever after.... XD
2nd-Hamsterlord hold on to a pencil and get to draw something special in his eye,a crooked short line.... XD
2nd-hamsterlord sit outside his mushroom cottage which is just along a small stream of river watching the moon and the stars missing someone that he had in mind... =D
Gaga.....1am le...tml work at OG abert.Another good day....everyday is a good day.... cheese!!!!
No...is NUT!!!! XD
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:22 AM on Sunday, May 27, 2007
Taking photo of a newly wed couple in east coast park.Didnt really want to kan jiao the photographer they employ but then I also want to take abit for myself to learn also..yea =D
Not bad right their posture .I didnt get the right spot and I dont have time to set and take due to the photographer.His camera just click and done liao....crap...that damn fast
I think I like this one...haha..but the background miss it la..haha...I actually waiting to take the pinkish evening again.However I realise it is not easy and you seldom get to see pinkish sky one....Aww...must be patient!!!
Taking shot of 2 indian people.I know they come abroad.The way they talk to each other and staring toward the vast sea somehow seen to make them miss their home very much.What to do,to support family and to earn enough money is to come here and work for a few years.
This picture...I like the angle of shot...hehex..
This one the light shinning through seen to be nice. =P
This one is at the changi beach.See alot of people casting their fishing rod sia.Wonder what happen if someone kanna hook by the rod.haha...me and the rest swimming just beside the casting area. =X
Our fun shot.....chen ming took the camera...yea...not bad huh.
Our dear hardy boy who take their beer and cheer to all those viewer...there can only be one beer my beer caslberg!!!LOLX!!
Some of the pictures is at aloha chalet.Yea....Our reunion gathering but then we miss out alot of people also...alamak...that the bad thing.Although I must say it quite exp but then next time if book such a big chalet.It should be enough for 1class of 40 pple le.....3bedroom(each room able to support 15pple without problem)Air conditioned and got one living room(non air con) with a Tv....not bad la...2toilet also...hehe...ANyway this dinner if u look clearly...The food is anyhow cook one.That why eat so many like no taste one...wahahaha.....I pay $50 for one day oonly....eeeek....no comment...anyway we went to changi beach also....hmmm...I guess I just upload everything first.Yes...Finally I have finish updating my template.I did try adding a border but it doesnt`t seen and in the end I had it removed.Adding some of my favorite as you can see on your left,most are quite old but then I like can le...whahahah...listen to some if u are a fan of anime. =)
Linking to other people blog from those I know.Somehow I missed out the size of the word and the front...oop....looking at the picture...there are 2 type of photo setting.One is at changi another at east coast park.I rush to the end of ecp to take some nice shot but not much la...Anyway got abit of shooting and hope everyone will enjoy.
A week of holiday can seen to be so boring I guess I am not the type to stay at home.Everyday looking at computer isnt good to health too...argghh.....just a few more day to mediation course....10day without using handphone without toking to other pple except your own teacher who is in charge of you....strict discipline too..hope I can really learn something from the course.....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 7:16 PM on Sunday, May 06, 2007
I went to east coast park again in the evening.I expect to go during low tide to catch more nice photo cause there use to be more marine lives on the seabed like crab or blah blah.......I also want to take photo of pinkish sky if I can.However when I reach the destination,It was high tide alrealy.LOLX....sian.....then never mind....I also hardly think of anything nice to take.I wait and take a picture of a dead crab.It is a horseshoe crab....cool man...cos it dun even look like one sia...haha....I get to see 2 pple fishing also....2pple but 5fishing rod...big big one lor....wonder can they get any catch...hmmmm....
While waiting for the sun to set down,there is a married couple having shot there.I saw the photographer that was hired by them was telling them the position.I decided to go and take some nice shot.I was quite lucky to have the permission to take some but then after some shot I was told to leave.I can understand as he want to focus his job..haha...However I dun think I got any nice shot of the couple!!!AWWWWW.....sianz.......
I will continue from the top,(the top is saved ytd as draft).Today sleep quite late la....weee...I sleep until so shoick!!!! Play abit of game then I went back to teckwhye le.Oh my back,Jason call me and ask me to accompany them to east coast park.I laugh out loud when he tell me cos I was actually going to teckwhye.Waaa liao...see la...last minute thing is alway like that one...haha..I want to accompany them but then what to do....My bag have at least 15comic book with my camera.....U know how heavy mahx...omg...haha...
The journey took at least one and 15min to reach.Nothing to say since I was enjoying the music found in the internet.Special thx to my sister violet for her help.The song I finding for so long can be so easily found in just a web....LOLX!!! Violet....ai xi ni le...haha...Macross(Do u remember love) ROCK!!!yea.....too bad I dunno japanese language....awww....I like the video...touching... =D
Then had praying session...pray pray....I dont pray for myself.I pray for the heaven to give love to those who need it more than me,I pray for everyone blessing....what do u pray for?After praying went to meet up with guo xiong and went to lot1 to meet the rest of the guys.Ym,huat,jj and boon playing pool...only me and gx nvr play....watch them play until they want to eat then go mac le....jas then join us.He went to east coast park and had a chat with his gf.Appearently it seen both of them realise they lack of something in their relationship and so ended their story. =( Haiz.....sometime even a guy can be so faithful and loving,he can be unapperciate by the one he love....it can be more hurting when both are actually in a relationship.Everyone will have to taste it,if u never taste it better get some to have an idea of that feeling......if u dun,u may not fully know how the opposite party feel.Piang eh...he from cck chiong to ecp just to sort out their problem and he have to come back again....waaaaa...Jasper!!!! Dun give up!!! I SUPPORT YOU!!! Success is the mother of failure.....hoho....fail one time ok liao la since the mind for this age is mature enough......dun kanna another failure again.... =X Just saying only la...hehex...
Jasper do really commit himself for her sia.Although I am not there nor do I know everything but as far as I know.Jasper do say that he wont get pester by her but it is opposite cos she hardly chat with him and unable to go out with him due to her strict parent.As time pass,it seen that the problem rise and require immediate attention.Lucky his case is better off than any of my friend I ever know.....it is quite short actually.Although there is bound to have some fustration left but there isnt any choice for the both of them.
What is love?Did my commitment toward you isnt enough to have you stay beside me?When I miss you and think of you,do u have the same thought and view with me?
We guy dun really know and understand about gal mind.
we are not god and we cant please you all the time although we did wanted to.
we do and try our best as what we can from our limit.
We tried conceal our unhappiness even if thing goes wrong.
We are what we are so dun keep expecting thing from us.
we maybe be busy at work but we are glad whenever a short sms sent from you.
our face maybe lifeless but not our heart so dun be mistaken.
or....what do we really face in the end?I do not know the full answer as you can find contrast in your logic......
Now 2.15am liao....having tea with apple...YES LA...finally go tea with my brother le....miss him alot also..haha
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 8:41 AM on Monday, April 30, 2007
Remember this picture?Dear teckwhyean....this is the back of the school.My favorite spot with yuan man they all....The first one to come out with idea to come here is Me and Aik sin.I remember during sec4 we used to come here and tok together together and where we share our stories to console each other.He got his family problem and so am I.I really miss him and help me tell him if u got a chance.He is too busy with his work le...We miss him out even our last gathering....I feel so bad...haizz...I really miss my life in secondary school where I share my joy and sadness with everyone there I had known or befriend....weee......Why do we have to part? =3Working at sengkang ever since this week tuesday....lucky now take Mrt to tampiness station then bus 27 which only take 30minutes!!!! LOLX!!! Sweet la.....No ned to wake up so early le....can sleep longer!!! Weeee!!!!
This fair I get to work with Steven sia....waaa I so happy sia...hahahaha.........he tok alot of stories to stop me from dozing off...hehex...I get to know 2promoter from tempur also and I get to have an interview when I was discussing with one of the promoter who really damn quick and help me secure an appointment which is tml and I tml have to work...hahaha....power sia..
Today nothing much since I almost spend time chatting along with jasmine and Steven.Not I want to eat snake but then the customer is really too few to approach.They will like go off when u ask them if they ned any assistance, kao....think we promoter want to eat u all up mehx...lame...haha... =X
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Up in the sky the rainbow shine...
get a life where we once live upon...
Throught the petal that wither..
Leaves that fall now arose....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:53 PM on Wednesday, April 25, 2007
This week no off at all sia...very tiring le but only good thing is that I managed to work near grandma house.15min to reach the working place but the only problem is the bus.If u miss the bus u can wait for 20min....waa..siao la...bus 40...nice number I guess...haha....
Anyway just push out everything in one shot...I got the school result and I pass!!!yea...but the I got 4 d from last semseter till now and I was shocked to find out that all d HOLDER HAVER TO RESUBMIT AGAIN!!! I was like wat the hell,how could it be when lectuerer keep on telling us that if you resubmit and no matter how good u do,we only give u a D.So that the problem and I wonder why the letter state that....it is quite....confusing to all student of nafa. The school websit never even put the result for the student,I am very disappointed in the school network....so slow one....crap...Anyway I dun like the my assesment result,I am seriously being pissed off. For the god damn sake promise I have tell my father.If such promise I cant keep then what use am I living here for....I will work harder and work harder...For myself....For a better future...It`s seen that time is getting shorter for me le.....sometime I just wonder I can really live that long anot....sometime I just dream of my own death approaching.....What to do?I never uphold the oath I have done at fong sun in front of guan yin status.Only those chosen will reach the holy land...I still remember that.....
Working in parkway parade is finally over.Although it kinda boring but the pet shop really brighten my day.Get to see small rabbit!!!My favorite hamsters and even dog too!!!There are fishes too but then I am not interested in freshwater marinelife.Working at pet shop seen to be a great idea....who know...maybe I just open a petshop myself....haha...just kidding...
Working with christ,jasmine and kenny in this fair....I get to know some cashier too...They are very nice people...Woa...I scare of those very fierce one... gulp!! =X I alway take bus 40 to work and it is really a fortunate thing that the travel time only require 10minutes.Cool huh?Bleah**However if miss the bus I have to wait for another 20MINUTES SIA!!! WAA BANG LE....every good thing got it own bad thing I guess..haha...So have to take a 5min down to the siglap center there to take other bus to Parkway le....I dun like hot sun...but I guess the sun like me...no wonder why the sun feel so hot.... =X
It a 2week fair....everynight I reach home I just play abit of game to entertain myself.....However it is by time I realise that why not go east coast park and enjoy the wonder of nature since staying at home can be so time wasting and boring.One thing for sure is that playing game is not an option for me for playing games is wasting my time and I can do alot of thing beside playing games.I might as well go to east coast park and enjoy the stars right now which is more meaningful. During the fair I realise Kenny is really good at toking,I cant even out talk him sia. He is also very clever sia...haha...I am totally impressed by working with him.I hope he can get in the air steward job.Cheer for him!! Dun play too much or flirt too much wor, there coubld hidden danger lurking around wor =P
Lao shu also come to work at pp for 2days.The first day I saw him...waa change alot sia...really?no la...I think he still the same..never change one bit -_-....hope he can be mature more...Maybe some people who come out from NS never really learn anything.....Crap....Hope I can learn more thing when I go to NS.I still need to learn.......I just want to broaden my mind.When lao shu come, he suggested changing wagon formation and had the plaform remove. It look better as there are more customers.That day the sale wasnt quite bad then..haha..On wednesday I was being sent to suntec carrefour....Omg.....no customer one..I must really want to doze off standing....haha...jk la...I haven learn the skill to sleep while standing....I was very surprise to see the main director of carrefour who is actually a french(if I am not wrong) I get to shake hand with him and he bought 2 cotton pillow from me.Hehex....I feel so honoured sia...haha....Anyway I must also thank to one person also.Mr Wong who is working in the towel section there which is just beside the jean perry wagon. Do not see him like a arrogant guy, for he is really a person who think and care. I do not know him well but he tell me his story and I really admire his view.When you reach the peak you must be prepare for a fall too.Everything is fated.I guess so,it is really a blessing to know him...heex...becos of his words,I try my best to do what he had warn.He treat me a desert,my favorite honey dew ice sango wor..heex...he also bring me around and show me some of the stuff....Waaa...he really a nice guy sia...wee!!! It is really a boring day but a meaningful day too.I guess it good to move around sg and get to mix around with people and learn from them.What we as teenager do not know....what we teenager lack....room for improvement I guess..haha....
Now I am being send to sengkang to work.Inside compass point, A very boring place I should say,there no cinema and not entertaiment faclity.I cant believe it sia, the designer must be very stupid to design such a boring shopping center.Cinema is one of the main entertainment and you can left it out......kao...bukit batok is smaller but the crowd is much much more and better than compass point....even lot1 also can win liao...hahaha....Today work not bad la...feel like sleeping in the afternoon lucky aunt joanne and steven keep make me laugh...haha...kao...they alway shoot me sia.....alamak...I dunno how to counter the way they tok sia...ayioooooo!!!
Then Pei ting come and we chat for a short while, She change abit I think. Last time she more like tomboy but then now she tok and her action are abit more feminie.....wonder she trying to seduce who le.... =X hehex.....Funny le.Her class so many guys and she never like one,np so big and she still can say she never really got anyone that can have her eye fixed upon 0.o....sure anot....haha.... I wonder did I grow taller or she started to shrink?I remember she used to be taller than me but now I am taller than her..... XD hahahahahah.........
I took less than an hour to reach kembagan by taking bus 27 and mrt from tampiness,the morning journey gonna kill me man. I spend more than an hour to reach sengkang sia,I really want to close my eye liao then reach le... -____-....tiaozzz... Overall....I learn more about steven past and I really admire him sia..haha.....we can change our weakness but we need time.It apply to those who suffer from a broken heart,dun waste your life just over a failure in relationship.I hope the gal who like jason can really understand what I am toking.I am sorry that my brother do not accept your fondness in him but sometime reality is just too cruel.I am a guy and I have my own taste toward gal and so is everyone.When even darryl the best guy I ever befriend can say out about you, the result is alrealy out. We are born with different physcial size and height and appearance.What I am trying to say is that,sometime beauty and the beast dun work out.Although now the story is opposite cos the gal is the beast while the guy is the beauty........Fate is cruel...I`m sorry to say.
I had my almost half of my teenager life tormented by the one I love also.I was being pierce and bleed to dead and have my whole face cover with blood when tears I shed do have anymore drop to shed.I had my heart dug out to reduce my suffering and my liveless soul roam across the silent night sreaming loud and helplessly for help......Whne the sun bring new hope for me,Greater disappointment and new fear was born and haunted me for constantly more than 3yrs.....I cry and wail like a baby...I laminated and I just bleed in my heart.....Although she the one I really love most till now but I am not able to be with her......However I am happy for her,as long she happy I will be happy for her.....I will be there for her if she ever one day willing to approach me.....I will pray for her happiness because I do love her....I know it love cos both my heart and my mind is telling me.....For that 3yrs I never cut myself and I never do anything stupid stuff.....I may not gain your love but I can still gain the love from other I love...I love my family I love my brothers I love my friends I love my buddy I love everyone I know and I love everyone I dunno....no matter good or hostile to me...I learn alot of things....the world is really beautiful...if u dun believe I am willing to take a day off and take u or anyone to the east coast park to see the sunset have a dinner and watch the stars and moon together......I am willing to show to anyone and everyone how beautiful that world is.....A story cannot be smooth all the way....there bound to be some problem arising to balance the story.....or else there is no starting,no climax and no ending.....do you understand what am I trying to say?
Use what you have to love....donate money to the pple on the street.Console those who really need it.....cheer for those who lack of confidence....guide those who are in the dark...aren`t we suppose to do that? Broaden your mind and u will understand what I mean....love is a great thing....convert the love you had for him to other factors.........Trust fate and trust everyone......FAte promised everyone a destiny cross together with somebody.......
This picture was taken during valentine day.I was at the rock there for more than 2hours to catch this shot.Of course I enjoy myself alone very much and I edited the picture abit darker and abit more purplish to smooth a more romantic effect.Hmm...to me is like this la...to u all I dunno la..whahaha....change my signature abit but then I want to change again...I will stick to the current one until I have the time to create better one....heex.
Anyway just push out everything in one shot...I got the school result and I pass!!!yea...but the I got 4 d from last semseter till now and I was shocked to find out that all d HOLDER HAVER TO RESUBMIT AGAIN!!! I was like wat the hell,how could it be when lectuerer keep on telling us that if you resubmit and no matter how good u do,we only give u a D.So that the problem and I wonder why the letter state that....it is quite....confusing to all student of nafa. The school websit never even put the result for the student,I am very disappointed in the school network....so slow one....crap...Anyway I dun like the my assesment result,I am seriously being pissed off. For the god damn sake promise I have tell my father.If such promise I cant keep then what use am I living here for....I will work harder and work harder...For myself....For a better future...It`s seen that time is getting shorter for me le.....sometime I just wonder I can really live that long anot....sometime I just dream of my own death approaching.....What to do?I never uphold the oath I have done at fong sun in front of guan yin status.Only those chosen will reach the holy land...I still remember that.....
Working in parkway parade is finally over.Although it kinda boring but the pet shop really brighten my day.Get to see small rabbit!!!My favorite hamsters and even dog too!!!There are fishes too but then I am not interested in freshwater marinelife.Working at pet shop seen to be a great idea....who know...maybe I just open a petshop myself....haha...just kidding...
Working with christ,jasmine and kenny in this fair....I get to know some cashier too...They are very nice people...Woa...I scare of those very fierce one... gulp!! =X I alway take bus 40 to work and it is really a fortunate thing that the travel time only require 10minutes.Cool huh?Bleah**However if miss the bus I have to wait for another 20MINUTES SIA!!! WAA BANG LE....every good thing got it own bad thing I guess..haha...So have to take a 5min down to the siglap center there to take other bus to Parkway le....I dun like hot sun...but I guess the sun like me...no wonder why the sun feel so hot.... =X
It a 2week fair....everynight I reach home I just play abit of game to entertain myself.....However it is by time I realise that why not go east coast park and enjoy the wonder of nature since staying at home can be so time wasting and boring.One thing for sure is that playing game is not an option for me for playing games is wasting my time and I can do alot of thing beside playing games.I might as well go to east coast park and enjoy the stars right now which is more meaningful. During the fair I realise Kenny is really good at toking,I cant even out talk him sia. He is also very clever sia...haha...I am totally impressed by working with him.I hope he can get in the air steward job.Cheer for him!! Dun play too much or flirt too much wor, there coubld hidden danger lurking around wor =P
Lao shu also come to work at pp for 2days.The first day I saw him...waa change alot sia...really?no la...I think he still the same..never change one bit -_-....hope he can be mature more...Maybe some people who come out from NS never really learn anything.....Crap....Hope I can learn more thing when I go to NS.I still need to learn.......I just want to broaden my mind.When lao shu come, he suggested changing wagon formation and had the plaform remove. It look better as there are more customers.That day the sale wasnt quite bad then..haha..On wednesday I was being sent to suntec carrefour....Omg.....no customer one..I must really want to doze off standing....haha...jk la...I haven learn the skill to sleep while standing....I was very surprise to see the main director of carrefour who is actually a french(if I am not wrong) I get to shake hand with him and he bought 2 cotton pillow from me.Hehex....I feel so honoured sia...haha....Anyway I must also thank to one person also.Mr Wong who is working in the towel section there which is just beside the jean perry wagon. Do not see him like a arrogant guy, for he is really a person who think and care. I do not know him well but he tell me his story and I really admire his view.When you reach the peak you must be prepare for a fall too.Everything is fated.I guess so,it is really a blessing to know him...heex...becos of his words,I try my best to do what he had warn.He treat me a desert,my favorite honey dew ice sango wor..heex...he also bring me around and show me some of the stuff....Waaa...he really a nice guy sia...wee!!! It is really a boring day but a meaningful day too.I guess it good to move around sg and get to mix around with people and learn from them.What we as teenager do not know....what we teenager lack....room for improvement I guess..haha....
Now I am being send to sengkang to work.Inside compass point, A very boring place I should say,there no cinema and not entertaiment faclity.I cant believe it sia, the designer must be very stupid to design such a boring shopping center.Cinema is one of the main entertainment and you can left it out......kao...bukit batok is smaller but the crowd is much much more and better than compass point....even lot1 also can win liao...hahaha....Today work not bad la...feel like sleeping in the afternoon lucky aunt joanne and steven keep make me laugh...haha...kao...they alway shoot me sia.....alamak...I dunno how to counter the way they tok sia...ayioooooo!!!
Then Pei ting come and we chat for a short while, She change abit I think. Last time she more like tomboy but then now she tok and her action are abit more feminie.....wonder she trying to seduce who le.... =X hehex.....Funny le.Her class so many guys and she never like one,np so big and she still can say she never really got anyone that can have her eye fixed upon 0.o....sure anot....haha.... I wonder did I grow taller or she started to shrink?I remember she used to be taller than me but now I am taller than her..... XD hahahahahah.........
I took less than an hour to reach kembagan by taking bus 27 and mrt from tampiness,the morning journey gonna kill me man. I spend more than an hour to reach sengkang sia,I really want to close my eye liao then reach le... -____-....tiaozzz... Overall....I learn more about steven past and I really admire him sia..haha.....we can change our weakness but we need time.It apply to those who suffer from a broken heart,dun waste your life just over a failure in relationship.I hope the gal who like jason can really understand what I am toking.I am sorry that my brother do not accept your fondness in him but sometime reality is just too cruel.I am a guy and I have my own taste toward gal and so is everyone.When even darryl the best guy I ever befriend can say out about you, the result is alrealy out. We are born with different physcial size and height and appearance.What I am trying to say is that,sometime beauty and the beast dun work out.Although now the story is opposite cos the gal is the beast while the guy is the beauty........Fate is cruel...I`m sorry to say.
I had my almost half of my teenager life tormented by the one I love also.I was being pierce and bleed to dead and have my whole face cover with blood when tears I shed do have anymore drop to shed.I had my heart dug out to reduce my suffering and my liveless soul roam across the silent night sreaming loud and helplessly for help......Whne the sun bring new hope for me,Greater disappointment and new fear was born and haunted me for constantly more than 3yrs.....I cry and wail like a baby...I laminated and I just bleed in my heart.....Although she the one I really love most till now but I am not able to be with her......However I am happy for her,as long she happy I will be happy for her.....I will be there for her if she ever one day willing to approach me.....I will pray for her happiness because I do love her....I know it love cos both my heart and my mind is telling me.....For that 3yrs I never cut myself and I never do anything stupid stuff.....I may not gain your love but I can still gain the love from other I love...I love my family I love my brothers I love my friends I love my buddy I love everyone I know and I love everyone I dunno....no matter good or hostile to me...I learn alot of things....the world is really beautiful...if u dun believe I am willing to take a day off and take u or anyone to the east coast park to see the sunset have a dinner and watch the stars and moon together......I am willing to show to anyone and everyone how beautiful that world is.....A story cannot be smooth all the way....there bound to be some problem arising to balance the story.....or else there is no starting,no climax and no ending.....do you understand what am I trying to say?
Use what you have to love....donate money to the pple on the street.Console those who really need it.....cheer for those who lack of confidence....guide those who are in the dark...aren`t we suppose to do that? Broaden your mind and u will understand what I mean....love is a great thing....convert the love you had for him to other factors.........Trust fate and trust everyone......FAte promised everyone a destiny cross together with somebody.......
This picture was taken during valentine day.I was at the rock there for more than 2hours to catch this shot.Of course I enjoy myself alone very much and I edited the picture abit darker and abit more purplish to smooth a more romantic effect.Hmm...to me is like this la...to u all I dunno la..whahaha....change my signature abit but then I want to change again...I will stick to the current one until I have the time to create better one....heex.
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:19 AM on Friday, April 20, 2007
TodAy got off from Brenda....Yesterday only worked 3 hours but then I realise it is so good.That is so shoick.....early morning go pack up then pack pack until around 1pm plus went home le.......Took bus 24 and I not sure which stop to alight and when I alight I realise that I should have alight at the next stop.Omg.....somemore weather hot sia.....feel like a roast pig le...Went to kopi tiam have lunch.It is really a blessing to have a vegterian stall in this area.Guess it is fate....haha...
One near week of expo sale with junhao,wei ming,wei long,gina,hui qing,ah joe,jasmine,christ,the twins,aunt cat and kenny is interesting.Kenny and junhao alway like to tok crap and lame stuff,sometime really want to laugh. Then can hear kenny saying that thailand gal really very chio and got one gal like him. Hahaha....I no comment sia..Perhap he have a sweet mouth that why he can capture the heart of girl easily.
Well...continuing now,from the top I didnt post and I decide to post together with today post if possible.Now working in parkway,+I can only say very tiring.I realise eating outside isnt quite nice and if U know how to calculate it isnt worth.Imagine u get $5 per work and u spend $5 just in a meal.How much do u get to gain for the day including the transport fee?? Crap....sg is getting smaller and smaller.I really feel government should do somethng about it.The the low and middle income family may not be able to handle and spend what they want when almost all families are pulled by the house loan and also car loan.Things do get worst when children are in tertiart education.....The government cannot keep expecting sales in sg do good when a small pack of m@m can cost u $1.55 or daily basis stuff prices to keep increase just becos of the incoming rising GST.
There are many love in sg,there are many couple who wish to get marry as early as possible.They had their own dream and their wish,a stable job and a happy family which is simple and short.However marrying require alot of money,buying flat is alrealy one of the headache.It ok for those who have alot of $$ in their CPF yet what about those without or have low fund in their CPF?Having a child require alot of money,time and effort........alot of job require to work many hours espcially those in industrial,retail,F@B and odd job labour.....there are also many which do not have much working hour per week but I am toking about the majority.Why are there many divorced cases? What is the root of it?There are many factors,both are busy working in their work and do not have the time to spend together.There is just not enough time for love and care......misunderstanding,miscommunciation this is very serious. Each person got their own working environment,even married you may realisethat u get to like another person who is better than your spouse.Guys who are very rich,good in sweetmouth are most likely to have a higher rate to involve in extra affair(This does not apply to all!!!Please dun feel offended)U can get a survey to proof whether what I writing is right or wrong.
The parliment had impose a 33% increase pay for themselves but they forget those normal pple in private sector.It is the time to rise the pay of everyone too,this is a good chance to balance everything in sales consume rate,Inspire more people to work and reduce those who are being heavy chained by the loan and taxes.Several years ago,the standard pay per hour is $5.Up till to now,it is still the same.It is the time to adjust accordingly GST and econmic.I been working in sale line and what I see is that there are many rich people and many who are poor....when rich,they are really rich but those who are poor are really poor.Do something,there singaporean who are alrealy discussing about this serious problem.
Increase the ERP for the sake of controlling traffic control.However in town area whether it is morning or evening,you still see alot of traffic jam.This show it is not effective at all,a car in sg is exp and the maintance is worst.If I got a wife who spend so much.I gonna jump man.....Anyone who read this blog pass it around to your friends.How long do you drive your car per day,how much is the petrol cost for a full tank or how long does a $10 petrol can last you.Is it worth to maintance when alot of carpark require $$ and when you live till a ripe old age,what the amount of money you spend in parking coupon.Dont laugh if u cant see it....cos if u can see you be surprise that how much thing you can buy or traveling.......The government had done a good part in public transport,BUS,MRT,LRT,NR....even u are rich.taking cab daily save the amount of money you spend in buying the ideal model and brand of car u wanted......dun forget the CEO and the season parking and blah blah........taxi is good enough....if taxi driver anyhow purposely drive a longer route just remember to ask the driver and if you realise you are cheated then ask him to stop no matter where you are and copy down his car plate and call the LTA or the cab company the driver from.
It been a month le.....sometime when I work.I just suddenly tink of Jinyi.I miss her....lolx...haizzz....I hope to learn and gain something working this kind of job.I just learnt from Jereld my brother that if you like someone you must have the courage.Make an effort,do something whether it is stupid or what...just do it....you never try you never know.....I dunno le...holiday hardly chat...sian....I dunno what to say for myself...crap......I wont mind think of her everyday till the school reopen and get the chance to see her again.After I am just another idiot who just like to hang on what I feel...cheer!!! yeaaa!!!!
One near week of expo sale with junhao,wei ming,wei long,gina,hui qing,ah joe,jasmine,christ,the twins,aunt cat and kenny is interesting.Kenny and junhao alway like to tok crap and lame stuff,sometime really want to laugh. Then can hear kenny saying that thailand gal really very chio and got one gal like him. Hahaha....I no comment sia..Perhap he have a sweet mouth that why he can capture the heart of girl easily.
Well...continuing now,from the top I didnt post and I decide to post together with today post if possible.Now working in parkway,+I can only say very tiring.I realise eating outside isnt quite nice and if U know how to calculate it isnt worth.Imagine u get $5 per work and u spend $5 just in a meal.How much do u get to gain for the day including the transport fee?? Crap....sg is getting smaller and smaller.I really feel government should do somethng about it.The the low and middle income family may not be able to handle and spend what they want when almost all families are pulled by the house loan and also car loan.Things do get worst when children are in tertiart education.....The government cannot keep expecting sales in sg do good when a small pack of m@m can cost u $1.55 or daily basis stuff prices to keep increase just becos of the incoming rising GST.
There are many love in sg,there are many couple who wish to get marry as early as possible.They had their own dream and their wish,a stable job and a happy family which is simple and short.However marrying require alot of money,buying flat is alrealy one of the headache.It ok for those who have alot of $$ in their CPF yet what about those without or have low fund in their CPF?Having a child require alot of money,time and effort........alot of job require to work many hours espcially those in industrial,retail,F@B and odd job labour.....there are also many which do not have much working hour per week but I am toking about the majority.Why are there many divorced cases? What is the root of it?There are many factors,both are busy working in their work and do not have the time to spend together.There is just not enough time for love and care......misunderstanding,miscommunciation this is very serious. Each person got their own working environment,even married you may realisethat u get to like another person who is better than your spouse.Guys who are very rich,good in sweetmouth are most likely to have a higher rate to involve in extra affair(This does not apply to all!!!Please dun feel offended)U can get a survey to proof whether what I writing is right or wrong.
The parliment had impose a 33% increase pay for themselves but they forget those normal pple in private sector.It is the time to rise the pay of everyone too,this is a good chance to balance everything in sales consume rate,Inspire more people to work and reduce those who are being heavy chained by the loan and taxes.Several years ago,the standard pay per hour is $5.Up till to now,it is still the same.It is the time to adjust accordingly GST and econmic.I been working in sale line and what I see is that there are many rich people and many who are poor....when rich,they are really rich but those who are poor are really poor.Do something,there singaporean who are alrealy discussing about this serious problem.
Increase the ERP for the sake of controlling traffic control.However in town area whether it is morning or evening,you still see alot of traffic jam.This show it is not effective at all,a car in sg is exp and the maintance is worst.If I got a wife who spend so much.I gonna jump man.....Anyone who read this blog pass it around to your friends.How long do you drive your car per day,how much is the petrol cost for a full tank or how long does a $10 petrol can last you.Is it worth to maintance when alot of carpark require $$ and when you live till a ripe old age,what the amount of money you spend in parking coupon.Dont laugh if u cant see it....cos if u can see you be surprise that how much thing you can buy or traveling.......The government had done a good part in public transport,BUS,MRT,LRT,NR....even u are rich.taking cab daily save the amount of money you spend in buying the ideal model and brand of car u wanted......dun forget the CEO and the season parking and blah blah........taxi is good enough....if taxi driver anyhow purposely drive a longer route just remember to ask the driver and if you realise you are cheated then ask him to stop no matter where you are and copy down his car plate and call the LTA or the cab company the driver from.
It been a month le.....sometime when I work.I just suddenly tink of Jinyi.I miss her....lolx...haizzz....I hope to learn and gain something working this kind of job.I just learnt from Jereld my brother that if you like someone you must have the courage.Make an effort,do something whether it is stupid or what...just do it....you never try you never know.....I dunno le...holiday hardly chat...sian....I dunno what to say for myself...crap......I wont mind think of her everyday till the school reopen and get the chance to see her again.After I am just another idiot who just like to hang on what I feel...cheer!!! yeaaa!!!!
My hair is growing le!!weeee....but my hair still dropping!!!OMG.....SOB SOBX....crap...I not going to cut botak anymore cos jinyi say me botak monk.......heex.....damn...I hope she wont have a bf when school reopen....nor do I want to see her in love with someone else.....my heart sure GG LIAO!!!! HORAAAY!!!! XD .....shit....that jk ok...I dun want such thing really happen.... >.<....pray hor...hahaha
I miss alot of people le.....I realise when you really work...you do not have time for friends.......you do not have the time for your love one too depending on the job you are in.Time to move on le....I alway remember everyone....when fate permit my destiny to cross with anyone of your path I will glady to touch upon..... T.T....dotx...
-=My ideal propose spot=-
The flower are blooming...
The wind is blowing across the plain....
Filling the whole sky with the pinkish purple petals......
The sheeps are gazing across the wheat plain where everyone is enjoying....
The special moment where one see how beautiful the world can be....
No word came from my mouth when you stand before me.....
I just thought an angel had descend from the sky......
While the plain is still filled with the petals encircling round us.....
The sheeps,dogs,cows and birds who flew gather around us.......
I take a rose from the Canary that prepare for such event.......
I kneel and offer you the fresh rose.......
A offer of my heart and love............
A little chance I may have....
A great disappointment may await me.....
I will not be deterred.....
For miracle happen.....
Heaven will never abandon those goodwill and people who are sincere.....
Let my sincerely touch your heart....
How long or how far....
It wont be any problem......
NOTE- I taken the picture at changi beach there.The little patch of wheat grass before the bridge there,I like it very much and managed to edit it abit more to make it more lovely.I will really like to bring the one I love to such place where all the grass look almost like the picture.Of course,make it abit pinkish purple will be better.Weather must be abit cloudy,abit windy and not hot.The best timing will be around evening when the sun is setting down casting it own fading light upon the cloud changing the colour of the clouds.Turn the white cloud into pinkish orange....yea.....then sit side by side.....Ai seh...die without regret le...hahaah...but then...impossible one..hahaah....so much for my creative fantasy... =PpP
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:45 PM on Wednesday, April 11, 2007
For the sake of short term money I just do it and I thought I can rush it within a week for one of the rules stated that you have to work 6time before you can get your pay.I get to know a guy name beezer who is studying in TP.He is working and saving it up for the debate competition in south korean.Not a bad guy I must confess.There are quite a number of people taking part in the job too and most area really young, students I guess. Anyway everyone wait for the boss for one hour plus, pay not is not counted ok? I feel like going home but then desperate for the $$. I took my water bottle and drink abit and put it back, the funny part is that my water bottle is dripping and I dun even know until I walk to a bit** of distance -_-....thx to Irene who tell me, whole bag wet le...omg @_@
The boss was driving a BM series5 and can see he is a very rich guy. Why on earth a rich guy like him can be so stingy 10block is $20 only..yuck yuck. We are to put 2 flyer instead of 1, I say I dun remember such low pay is for 2flyer. Damn him, think wat cheap labour arhx. Crap, I wont mind get cheated but he cheated alot of people. We have to work 6times only then we get pay and he is too cunning.He alrealy know that people who do on 1st day most of them will run off thus he benefit by not paying that mere sum of money. What the use of being rich and stingy? All your wealth and riches wont go down with you and dun ever think that u can get to heaven by giving half of your fortunte when you are dying.A person deed is accmulated and not by last minute....
Anyway I went to do the 5block...Taking lift to the top floor and then procced down to first floor. The first block was not quite fast because there are only 6units per floor. From the 2nd block onward,each floor have 12units!!! OMG!!! I was like wtf...but then no choice so I continue doing it and I got myself headshot!!! Bang!!! I was running door to door to slot the stupid 2 paper and then I never see a praying altar in front and I just knock on it. I really never see sia...I hope gods will forgive me >.< I was bleeding but I dunno cos I touch but no blood stain. When I meet beezer then I know, no wonder why people who I passby keep staring at me.What!! Never see a human being before arhx...zzzz -_-
I do till the 4th block and I give up.I went to meet Beezer who finish alrealy and Irene was even best. All her block is 6units per floor, crap the pay system is alrealy showing a flaw. Use our common sense and I`m sure everyone realise it. Too bad I dunno what the name of that house agent, or else I will sure blackmark and proganda him. Imagine 5block got around 200 units and u pay that person only $10 and you got a deal from the customer which u get to earn at least 15k per deal. Dun you tihnk that you are just too stingy alrealy? I dun bother and I call the supervisor who is really like a xiao mei mei.... -_-...cute but then...her job is just staying in the mrt waiting for calls nia...her pay sure better one....that agent damn bastard....I hate this kind of people....all his ancestor all sell fish one....no wonder groom him this kind of people.....when he old...see see him in market selling fish....
I didnt lose out much since I get execrise the whole afternoon but then when having dinner with Beezer....I had a 2 piece chicken meal...alamak....all my fat loss come back liao... >.<...NOOOOO!!!!
sIAN...Please remember,whether may it be you are the employee or the employer.Please be mroe generous to make our country a better haven. Give more chance and hope to those who need it........help each other...dun just keep it to yourself. No matter how long you can keep a thing, it cannot be forever.......help me, help you and help those around you....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:27 PM on Sunday, April 08, 2007
Sometime it quite funny,when u have something important in part of your life.When it gone,no matter how long the time pass, part of the memory will still flow back whenever you see things that make you remember. Maybe like a dog or pet or friend or anyone as long it gain a small portion in your heart.
Sometime still can remember how I had fantasied about how me and joan live together like that.Lolx...I only want out the past la...haha...wont die saying...it just that I feel funny whenever I think of it.How we look like in wedding picture,where we live,how big our family are 1son 1daughter and a dog.Live in a 5room flat,not rich and not poor.Then live until old together and have children to feed us...whahahahaa.....think overshot liao...haven even tok to each other sia...hahahaha.....everyone feeling cold? XD Still can remember that lame dream,really like a game escorting like that.Escort her to a place and halfway in the valley being ambush by enemies and greatly outnumber.I roughly remember how I fight with a long sword and how I was being slashed from the back and collapse into her arm and pass away...after that wake up le....kao...if got chance I wan to go back again...this time I make sure I take a machine gun and wack all those idiot who kill me....bastard sia...very long time never dream of her then give me this kind of stupid ending dream.....I wonder does my mind get too creative or what, even if it is I sure use in a wrong way. No road to success is easy......no matter how I think and fantasied, as long I never put effort or try. It is just an illusion......sad wor =(
I start to enjoy the music from the city harvest.It is really classical and it had a smoothing sensation if u close your eye and relax in a small....it help to calm you down provide u know how to....too bad I only have kenny G,strickland piano, SENS ,city harvest and the saxophone by XXX(forget le) =X to listen.....should try my uncle room for more...hahahaa..I prefer music that nobody sing.....hehex......I really dun like those singer sing so loud and sound so siao one....that one really is siao eh!!! =3
I was browsing my post and I realise that my blogger the headline, one of it was still 2005?!?!Crap, now alrealy 2007.I feel like changing blog but then this is the only blog I more familiar with.....somemore if really wish to remember the past still can scroll down all the way....hehe.
Sometime still can remember how I had fantasied about how me and joan live together like that.Lolx...I only want out the past la...haha...wont die saying...it just that I feel funny whenever I think of it.How we look like in wedding picture,where we live,how big our family are 1son 1daughter and a dog.Live in a 5room flat,not rich and not poor.Then live until old together and have children to feed us...whahahahaa.....think overshot liao...haven even tok to each other sia...hahahaha.....everyone feeling cold? XD Still can remember that lame dream,really like a game escorting like that.Escort her to a place and halfway in the valley being ambush by enemies and greatly outnumber.I roughly remember how I fight with a long sword and how I was being slashed from the back and collapse into her arm and pass away...after that wake up le....kao...if got chance I wan to go back again...this time I make sure I take a machine gun and wack all those idiot who kill me....bastard sia...very long time never dream of her then give me this kind of stupid ending dream.....I wonder does my mind get too creative or what, even if it is I sure use in a wrong way. No road to success is easy......no matter how I think and fantasied, as long I never put effort or try. It is just an illusion......sad wor =(
I start to enjoy the music from the city harvest.It is really classical and it had a smoothing sensation if u close your eye and relax in a small....it help to calm you down provide u know how to....too bad I only have kenny G,strickland piano, SENS ,city harvest and the saxophone by XXX(forget le) =X to listen.....should try my uncle room for more...hahahaa..I prefer music that nobody sing.....hehex......I really dun like those singer sing so loud and sound so siao one....that one really is siao eh!!! =3
I was browsing my post and I realise that my blogger the headline, one of it was still 2005?!?!Crap, now alrealy 2007.I feel like changing blog but then this is the only blog I more familiar with.....somemore if really wish to remember the past still can scroll down all the way....hehe.
I guess there are 3gal who will really place their flag on my heart liao....crap....just like man poke the flag on the moon.......pain sia.....dun anyhow poke le.....6yr then 3 yr then 2yr....wow....wonder if I really got a gf..can I able to be faithful and able to be committed to her anot.... =3
TT I like this picture very much.Honestly speaking until now I really hard to get such a pinky sky in the evening. It will be really very romantic to have a gf by my side...haha...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:34 AM on Monday, March 26, 2007
When one week ago. I supposed I can get work but it never happen.I trying to get those like flyer or short term work for at most one week due to the chalet that is approaching on april7 which will last 3days 2night.Although honestly speaking I dont feel like going yet how much time left to enjoy with my good friends,my basketball team and so is my buddy who will be there....
Ytd night while having a conversation with huan yeong,I really must say THANK YOU!!! It is his word that enlighten me so it is his word that inspire me to work harder.I really never expect such word from him all the time due to the fact he alway crack joke only.It is true that from karma a person wear how many clothes eat how many food and drink how many water has alrealy decided by heaven,there no way to change it.The most important is to be contend with it,although I do get these logic as one of my mind concept which was so called useless when jing yi they all previously at the dinner say there no ambition....so did huan yeong mention too.....somemore I am a male.....guy should have an ambition or else it is as good as useless....what do I really want to be?
A person who spend money know how to earn back the money that he spend is good,a person who earn but don't spend and a person who spend money but dont' know how to earn back the money he spendt is useless....and so the morale of the story is we have to balance ourselves no matter in what of matter although the story mainly talk about money.
I can get through almost everything that happen on me.....but the problem left is about emotion.I cant get over it,wonder why does my heart or that sicken mind of mine alway get into trouble.I speak upon fate yet I bring myself nothing but more hardship.When I think of chasing this gal,I should reflect myself first.What can I give you when I have no money,no car,low education.....Do I have the abilites to bring you out to happy or do I have the money to buy the thing you like?Even we managed to get together,do I have enough money to provide for you even you work will it be enough for a family?A good question that Huan yeong say......waa sie....love him sia...hhahaha....
Sometime I regret that I drop piano lesson when small....I feel like want to bang myself against the wall but then what done is alrealy done.Sometime I sing to comfort myself,sometime it will be a nice song that I created for myself but yet I forget it easy the next day.....so I will hum sometime to provide what my heart need....a llulbaby....haha....
I wish to express my own feeling,there are many way and I like to use music to express myself.I do not have a good voice and I dun like have talent in singing.Yet a meaningful lyrics will be enough move the listener of my feeling toward the one I like...haha...
So much....I realised that I really too immatured....hhahaha.....too much for a lamer and a joker....perhap the time to grow is beginning....let it grow and be the heaven shine upon me
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 9:49 AM on Friday, March 23, 2007
I have nothing to say for myself but only know that if thing still go the way it is then I will sure suffer forever myself...
Simple post......for this time...may my voice reach her heart one day when I have the courage to speak to her....
Sometime....I just wonder why did I like a person.....good question but no answer....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 5:11 PM on Tuesday, March 20, 2007
I recall the time when I first met you....
I sense a new sensation feeling....
was it my illusion or was it real?
let me figure out....
and I start to know it love....
From your back I saw admiration...
but yet from a distance..
at your side I find it hard to mantain...
what am I holding on you?
wat it my feeling?
so tell me....
is it reall I`m in love?
I wish for the stars...
where endless of stars..twinkle in the night
I will sing a song for you...for you to rest
on my shoulder....
and to watch the coming sunrise...
I will wait patiently...
so what you hesitating?
do I not earn your trust toward me?
do I not prove myself?
There will be a time
when the light surface to see how much I worth to u
so remember me....
remember how much I done for you....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 3:22 PM on Sunday, March 11, 2007
From sunday onward is like really rushing although I still can watch abit of youtube but seriously I really never work so hard before ever since in secondary school.I believe heaven is trying to tell me that this is the time that I must wake up and do what I must do.This week I realise I have more energy and I am able to wake up earlier even though I sleep late......wow....
There will be time that I realise I am just too immature at all.I feel I am really confused over alot of thing and I dun seen to understand alot of thing.I took up the mediation course which the friday lecturer recommended me...I really hope this course can able to clear my thought out...I also really stress.......I now dun even know what am I doing and what am I talking at times.....Is like the brain is thinking that way it turn out to be different.....ayiaaa.....really need help...haha...
Friday the inkdesign I really have to thank the lecturer to give me some idea.It is her idea that inspire me to do better and of course when I understand I can do finish the work within 5hour.....3pm plus went get mazgine...then start work then 8pm plus almost finish ....wow...power sia.....I guess that is also fate....I now really hope with the effort I put in...I really want to get as much A as I can...not only to show my parent but also to my heart who had been hoping for good grade ever since teenager life...haha....
In this assesment I although really last minute work but yet I did my best to work my idle brain out...turning the brain cell into coconut juice le...omg.....oop...I still believe that peng yu and airpork bring me out to selatar reservoir that night can totaly clear my stress away...I really thank them alot.....it just a miracle...what left is the ideal and my dream that give me strength......
Fate will come when it is destined to cross upon your destiny....a person who wait no matter how long will never find his fate until that one fateful day when the heaven shine upon him only then will he fall in love......
-sudden hope-
How you sing?
a song of joy....
a moment of pass and beauty that leaft in your mind
a wonderful time
that pass and left behind
I serach high and low that I befriend u
in the evening
I watch the sunset
to the never ending of my world though...
everlasting......
I speak to you.......
one sentence that make that my heart pump
a wish to dream
just to be with u for now and forever...
forever and forever can it be fuilfill?
precious moment I wait and cherish
to be with you........
you are the one.....
you are my love.....
I will never leave u....behind..
just trust in me....
I give u my heart....my soul...
everlasting......not word
I will prove to you........
how much can we share....
A night time of stars
a night time of luminous moon...
we share our dream together....
let not forget.....
I will remain with you.......
till that day....
till that day.....
-end-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:30 PM on
I ask piggy why he never like any gal at all...from my exp I dun believe a guy dun have any for any gal before but yet he did and he the first person that I know able not to have any feeling for gal.....he told me he just control and dun think about it.....How I wish I could have abit of his mindset to lessen my burden.....
I am really stupid and I am really sorry!!! However the stress upon me is killing me......I really wonder why I dun have the courage to confess to the one I like....I AM SO IDIOTIC THAT I ACTUALLY SCREWED UP MYSELF....my heart is tainted....it is by that moment I realise who did I really like after all.......I like Jinyi......Everytime in class...I couldnt stop to glance at her every short moment if situation allow.....I cant communciate well with her....everytime I try to tok....it end either early or abruptly....I know everyone will say just keep trying....However please.....the movie on monday remind me of my past.....I am just a good for nothing.....however can u expect a genuis to stick with an idiot?This is a common sense.....I feel so loss......gab and indran got mention about jinyi......apparently jinyi almost every night chat with indran....I cant even.....haizzz....du tu duuu......
My reason is fighting with my desire.....and I can only say I have no confidence at all.....like there a big gap to touch each other world.......I guess I have to make use of the long holiday and forget her bai.......I dun want be a coward anyhow give up....however I really in despair....If I really step in....I fear there wont be anymore light shinning upon me......
-missed by fate?-
I remember seeing you for the first time,
I remember the shine from your eye,
to my black weaking little eyes,
I just know it a start of my life...
I make a vow to give you happiness...
A vow that me and only heaven know....
looking at your back all the while,
it been wonder why fate bring me to you,
I been excited and shy to approach you,
I miss the chances whenever it come,
just to have a small chat with you,
A little chat that warm my heart,
It been true that this is reality,
where reality forbide fairy tales,
where fairy tales fade away,
through the dark time of eternal,
I pray for all to have a glimpse,
to have a look upon their true love,
I know it is impossible to be together,
yet my heart is reacting to my mind,
neverthless let me be with you for now,
till the day you leave me far behind,
I know someone else will replace my existance,
and hope he will give you happiness.
I am a fool of my own world,
too shy to approach and too poor to date,
I am nothing else but a useless person,
I will wait patiently or have u fade away from my heart......
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:03 AM on Wednesday, March 07, 2007
TOday monday get to watch a very meaningful and touching tale....that Plump dude really remind me of what I am in my past.....cant believe that we can be like really have the same faith toward the one we really like......if only Joan accepted me...I guess I will still strongly love her forever till she end my faith and love for her.....haizz....I pity him...not pity is more like really console him....lucky joan live at 11floor...or else I also end up standing at the middle of the road watching her.....sweat -_____-....I really respect him....he maybe fat,he maybe ugly,he maybe poor,he maybe low education level yet he possesed a high level of determination and faith......I believe he is really a very caring,gentle,kind and polite person......I`m really dunno wat to say....this is real life....It is hopeless to ask for fantasy...I hold on to faith while reality is breaking me apart.....Love is scary...Can feel abit......
The one who jump never die...the one who never jump die....sweat...remind me of the past attending a session and get to know about such thing too...the gal wan to die but the toddler scare to die......the one who wan to die never die..the one who is scare of death die...hur hur...
One of the main objective I can see about appreciation.....apperciate with what you still have....man...That one sure nothing to say alrealy....true love?What is the meaning of true love?IF it is true love will it break or will it fade?To which stand or by fate can we determind whether the love we loved is trued love?It is because we cannot determind whether is our love is true that why there is a need to try and to get to know...
There are many who seek for one they love...there are many who fell during their search but they stand again and again till fate engulf them into the sinking sand.....The day is so terrible while the night is filled with horror....no peace and no rest.....haunted by the past and the reason that setback those who still living in their own world of fairy tales.....who can we blame for such ending or who can we thank?Fate may end the dream of one yet it give a chance for another dream..when a dream die down the need for another step for another dream is opening....while fate play me upon as much as the rest who live now....I cannot grumble nor curse just because I cant get what I desire...there have to be a balance.....my tears did flow freely before from the age of 14 to 16 yet I realise there a limit to it....when tears are free and u still cry...the tears from your heart will seep into your eye and had blood flow down the cheek......I rather seek death..for the emotion of one is giving me enough suffering....If I am blame for my cowardly then I cannot say any excuse but me myself know I am a shy person who do not dare to hasty go forth to the one I like...
Everyone got their own problem and reason for everything....that plump guy like her yet he managed to overrun his reasoning and gather his courage to send to the one he love.......but too bad....that lame gal fly on top of him....tiaozzz....it is by heaven will that his passing has come which is better for most likely his proposal will end in failure....I hardly believe in singapore a very pretty and hot gal will choose a hairy,no money, low education and fat person...this is reality...no point saying me if anyone object.....this is common sense...most of sg gal dun apperciate........most dun like to suffer...who like to marry to a chicken stall owner?Everday wake up at 5am then work until evening or night...stand everyday......no time for holiday or rest...who is willing?It is just common sense....more and more people get too materialistic le....tu duu tuu....
The second part is about the lesbian....That one I have no comment....thing have to go naturely....if u love the same sex of your...when the time show u the truth...u may regret doing it....let nature go by it course.....well the assement is giving me headache...omg....lolx...
Hamsterlord is taking a stroll in the ecp and flying his kite in the night...peaceful and starry night...he start to give up hope on a gal that he know it wont make it.....his side of story is cant make it....he do not know wat is the gal think about him....the fate seen to have hint that the road wont last at all.....is it his thought only?Let fate be mercy upon him...
Haizzz...being better looking mean more chance...but those who dun have a chance?We suffer through our heart and that why I feel the one who suffer the most can understand and know the importance of cherish and apperciation...so much for toking...there no action...haizzz...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 8:43 PM on Monday, March 05, 2007
Went down to peng yu house to see not only him but also a girl beside him.So that the friend have to help...heex...not bad looking wor....somemore I also wonder why peng yu treat her so good sia.....but then never mind..halfway we went to fetch yao jun and then reach Ikea.....we went only to find out our dear friend hui min the girl forget to bring her reciept..... o.O!!!...U must be kidding!!!omg!!!
Luckily the counter got the reciept......but then have to shop for the item again for dunno wat reason...I forget le.....then both hui min and peng yu was like.... o.O!!! haha......then yao jun went to buy drink for me....me tag behind peng yu and hui min.....piang...my pant very loose cant move fast or else the pant will start to drop bit by bit......oopx.....then I carry and try catch up if I can......they walk really fast sia....all like rushing for buying 4D.... =X
I can only say after dunno how long they managed to get all the item....phewww....then it alrealy near 2pm...peng yu tell me we have to get it moved into the house before 2.30pm cos the feng shui shi told hui min mother.....me and yao jun look at each other -_-....impossible.....2k worth of bedroom funiture....I see got the bed,table,tv holder,cd rack,safe box and chair...big and heavy sia...omg.......lucky got the lorry or else....gg liao...whahahaha....me and yao jun carry the box....really waaaa heavy sia...eeeek!!!!
Then we went back.....then into the Warren...then help carry to her house.......then thought can go back le...cos 2pm plus le...I told father I will reach home around 2pm after finish moving the funiture....wat a mistake...in the end we help fix the funiture!!!WAAAAAA......GONE CASE...AHAHAHAHAH....I really want to go back help finish cleaning up...but I never tell peng yu...but it like doing half way so I also never grumble...since it fate guess there nothing I cant go against...haha.....so we start fixing all the way to 5pm plus sia....I know my parent not happy le.....and yao jun whole family is waiting for him to start dinner!!!LOLX!!!! WHAHAHAHA......yao jun say when he step into the living room...he can see everyone grabbing the chopstick aiming the steamboat watching at him....hahahahahaha.....I only can imagine my dear father sitting at the sofa in the living room holdng guan yu spear waiting for me...OMG!!! That very scary....eeeek....the real life scary movie..haha...
Anyway get to know Hui min mother....she know my mother and father...she say before they were both marry...they alrealy know each other... o.0!!!!...WAAA!! Then I heard from her that my father is quite well off....sure anot...if well off...how come last semster school fee dun have money to pay sia...omg...hahaha.....oop...that not funny.....she got marry in at the start of 1990 and give birth to hui min at the end of year...wow...that fast and efficient sia... =X Fong tang at that time only have 30plus......now alrealy thousands....then we chat more and then tell he that I haven start becoming vegetrian.....she persuade me to do so.........everyone is persuading me!!!omg.....stuck....totally stuck.....can feel the pressure is on me just because my father is a tang zu....I do not know what future lead me to...I only know I will do what has to be done....
And about that girl hui min...she quite good looking but yet I am very shocked that she dunno how to sweep the floor nor how to wash a cup......I really wonder why on earth can such thing happen in fong tang?Doesnt Tang zu should understand more buddist script and learn more about ways of life than us???I feel sorry for her...but I know this is no longer my place to speak thus I keep quiet....only the one who really suffer know that they are actually blessed...good luck to her......Her father is really lame....to marry your daughter...the person must have high education and must be rich...only this 2 requirement?Then what on earth have u been reading about way of life for all this years?WHERE YOUR CULTIVATION FOR ALL THESE YEARS U HAVE LIVE!!!! MONEY CAN BUY EVERYTHING BUT NOT TRUE LOVE AND LOVE BETWEEN FRIEND AND FAMILY....I HATE THIS KIND OF IDIOT....I CANT BELIEVE A TANG ZU CAN HAVE SUCH A FOOLISH MINDSET....waaa...I really cant believe such thing can happen right in front of me.......nowaday when guy have too much money...they can start adultry....I am a guy and I may submit to the corruption if time come.....but becos we are guy...that why most of us is like that....I also dun wan to be like that...a true love that all.....sometime I guess it impossible...u need to know the person character well...money make big impact in life...but sometime there are something more important...dun u all agree??
It will be hard for her to have a true love...true love exist everywhere......it is up to you to find it yourself....if u are fool by the illusion state of the partner...then most likely u will suffer by the illusion....let wish her all the best until then.... =/
Then went back home eat reunion dinner...I help out the unfinish task and finally everyone start eating...heex...I start to like reunion dinner....then start praying....praying about 11pm plus..then still have to watch the praying hall for the lamp....make sure the fire dun die off.....but becos I too tired...in the end I went to bed and never even go any fellow fong tang house.....eeek...I never li xin house also...haizz.....
waa...I write one thing so long one ....better make it short.....need to do homework...so on the first and second day Went to visit relative house.....everyone really change sia...suddenly I realise our relative are very nice people and I like them alot...haha....I feel so happy for having such nice relative...ah lin shu shu is VC or what course I still dunno...tiaozzz..but at least someone went to the same school as me...yea.....alamak it the other way round....4th grand aunt move house le and is at clementi...can see the bukit timah hill sia...nice scenery!!!I think I will go visit them and get some nice nice picture...
Then on the third day...went to yvetta house.....I thought is seragoon sia....that why I stay at night in grandma house cos I know purple line...kembangan is nearer....then the next day when shi han tell me is at sembawang...I totally shocked...lolx...omg...I dunno sembawang is at which line or nar which station so I start to presume red line quite near...I miss my bus...then walk to MRT...went to check where sembawang only realise to my horror is so near cck!!!!6stop away only....waaa liao....sian....really nothing to say...hahaha.....then meet her 10pm plus and get to know only me and shi han are able to make it...the rest like chantel,jingyi, jia yi,jasmine all cant make it...actually I didnt want to go too...lolx....like funny le....so many gals...so few guys. =X
Then get to know yvetta bf...not bad sia...still got a car....really not bad lor..haha....then eat alot...I think I getting fatter soon..omg.....then spend time slacking there and moving off around 3pm....then send yvetta and bao bao to cck cc then went back home and get ready for the dinner at 3rd great aunt house.....we went there first and then nice sia...everyone come and talk alot sia.....ahahaha.a......I miss that night...haha....omg...so cosy...then next day lesson le... T.T
Well....friday night volunteer for chingay...total crap..my group was in the exit...I dun have the chance to get any nice shot at all.......eeek...somemore stand behind all the way doing nothing...see nothing too.....haizz...no comment...but at least got the T shirt can le..haha....quite tiring sia.......then went for supper with dog,airpork and peng yu.....around that time I feeling very sick...my body totally hot all over...I touch airpork...he alrealy ask why u so hot...lolx...cos feeling horny mahx..whahahahahahha..jkjk...
that night I just went to sleep on the floor....the next day I feel abit better I chiong to cck swimming complex and went for a swim....yea.....heex.....touch the water...piang..cold sia...I sit there for a period of time..quite boring wor..but no choice cos I never ask anyone out since I know everyone sure late wake up....My brain cant think durng the time in pool....I swim for an hour plus I return home le.....then I get ready to go darrel house.....jereld call me and we are suppose to together but I so tired that I doze off again....tiaozzz..I no comment.....luckily I wake 10min later and went to meet jereld....we went to darrel house and tata....watch some movie..haha...nobit can be download alrealy...that fast -_- but I dun like the pop up..get to watch a sg movie.....dunno wat tittle...but then....very meaningful...I make sure I wont be like that guy...total disgrace to my ancestor and everyone who put hope in me....
1.2million left.....300k for daughter who is really doing her best in life for her family who earn very less and 1k only for the son who is good for nothing and only like to act even though he dun have the strength....some for the mistress and her son who need money to study and the rest for herself and irene the ex gf of that fraggot......
Nice movie..haha...then went to ym house and then to sarah house...play manjhong...heex.Then night time go javin house....finally home....oh boy have to cut short...tml got miss lesson....crap...I think I no mood to continue le....zhao arhx
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:24 AM on Sunday, February 25, 2007
Today she tell miss pei about me and what I told her before....she say about dunno wat monk stuff.....part time monk?I really dun like such name given for I am just a part time vegetarian that all...monk?It is an insult to be a monk when I haven even abstain from meat and honestly speaking I do not wan to be a monk.....my own religious grp I am alrealy far far behind from my fellow religon friend just because I still eat meat that why I cannot advance any further.....because of my age...such topic is really something serious to consider.....becos of this vegetarian issuse...sometime I just dun wan to care anything.....
Secondly as it seen...she say the whole thing out to the class about my view in some conversation....that one I had nothing to say but yet it is something that I really feel and wonder.....I am willing to share my thought with anyone....so even she say it out loud I wont mind....do we human not know that it is the money that make us move commonly?Isn`t it that allow u to buy alot of things that u want?Money also allow you to travel abroad and allow you to live in more luxury....with such time of society and era.....everyone want to live in luxury....if we had the money...we can live in a more comfortable lives....does my point of view not correct?Although money cant buy friendship as well as love...yet with my own eye..I saw the corruption of one that allow greed to take over a pricinple of a person.....not one...more...and everyone sure had encounter it before...dun u all withness it be4 right in front of your eye?
I saw how my friend change over the sake of money and how gal choose their partner just over the sake of money that allow them to watch movies...go shopping...eat more exp food.....etc etc....I saw it....and I wonder why does money affect us so much.....the impact is big...and I never forget how my friend friend whom I get to know was divorced over the sake of money......no money no honey.....gosh...wat to say?I told her wat I feel...that all....can she not understand the true intention hidden?
V day is actually a special day....it is just up to the rest on how they treat it...to some they just thought it just a normal day...to another some it is something they should apperciate for their love one.......something that help enhance the bond of a couple.....I am single....but there nothing to be sad or any negative thought...but doesnt it true that if u got money everday V day?Everyday go out and enjoy meal in resturant and went to those exp and exciting place.....doesnt it also count...when those who are poor..they just save the money and accompany their love one to watch movies or any special places....like mount faber which is really good choice for candle light dinner......or just window shopping then buy a gift for her/him....that all..so simple but doesnt it show us the effort?
I do remember about last year how I say about myself in friendster.Those who know me well will understand what I do and what I think better than those who dunno me well and assume on what they feel...because of such assumpation...this is the reason why human alway make mistake....
Perhap in the first place it is my facult and it is my mistake to anyhow trust pple whom I thought can be trusted.....too bad on myself I guess.....hmmm....it seen that not much people as I expected can be really trusted.....sad.....hoho...
I like to be lame but most of the time I prefer to crack a joke to make everyone laugh yet somehow the link not there making alot of lame joke in the end which I really nvr expect.... -__-....but in class or anywhere I go...even it mean I make a fool of myself....I just ask for something simple in exchange....to heard the laughter that all...I know it sound very stupid and naive I am.....but I really ask for that...it make me happy too...I just want to make everyone happy.....although It is impossible thus I do my best to make as many people as I can...why show us that dull face of your?Simile abit and it will brighten up your day...dun u feel good when u cheering someone else up?It as good as doing something for yourself....such simple mind concept can be countered by a person who dun seen to like what I am for.
Perhap after new year when the new concept fit in...I guess I just be quiet in class that all...haizzz...what to do....still got 2more yr to be same class....just try to please those who are unhappy with me.....after that I fly off le...Dun want to make any classmate awkward as well as making myself awkward in the class..that all....
Somehow I really think she need more exp in life to withness what I say to her.....everyone still young so there a chance to see it for ourselves....heex...I wont take it to heart what happen today...becos of such incident...it a warning too.....heex...
Anyway....about gay and lesbian stuff.....it is up to one themselves on how they love themselves....it is against the flow of nature that why I do sometime complain and somemore...it is more lame to see pretty gal stead with a butch...haha...oh boy...
Lastly...since today got time to write...I wish everyone happy new year...weeee!!!!hong bao!!!whahahahahaha........sharifa....I understand what you are trying to joke...however that not lame or funny...so be careful next time...haha...dun try on me again!!!lolx...I wont take to heart over such a trival matter.... =PpP
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 8:12 PM on Thursday, February 15, 2007
Ehh...I dun really have as much time as before to play computer and honestly I am really ashame of myself not to do my hw well even though I do not work...haizz...I saw some of my classmare working and studying at the same time..although I know it hard for them but yet they can produce nice homework..it is really a very admiring impression from them.I really wish I can be like them....Everyone change...hope I CAN change like them as soon as possible....
I finally dare to go out alone le...it seen I enjoy more reflection of my heart and view of my own quietly...so much different...sound like lonely can give u plenty of space to grow too provide u know the direction to go.
I went back to east coast park during the weekday not long ago....I sit and walk along the beach...although it is disappointing that I cant get much nice picture cos the evening that I expect the pinkish cloud to fill the sky was not there....the whole skies just turn to dark blue...tiaozzz... >.<...however I did make out some nice pic....hehe...writing on the sand and take the pic....I want to give the pic...but for the sake of myself..better not I guess
Along while I been waiting and making my way out of a misunderstanding....I found myself stuck again in another pit trap....how on earth did I make mistake again?Sometime liking someone is really very hard and confusing....cos it take time to realise that sometime the person doesnt suit u...not as in the way in appearance...most of time I prefer character...I am very worried about some character attitude that gal have....ooo....as long I wont get kick out of bed or hide under the bed from my wife I happy le...lolx.....turtle turtle
Ehh...I like to thank all those who help me last and recently...I like to thank all of them to guide me....without u all...I guess my mind couldnt solve the mystery....sometime some concept can be just replace with a new and better one...dun think of yourself...think for other and yourself...dun think for other only..cos u suffer in the end...so much logic....wat much can we apply?
I realise that I am really still navie and know nothing.....wat I know is just a thumb compare to the world...omg....I guess..more to learn...I worry about the future while the future is waiting...the promised time I been waiting seen to be very long...no matter how long it seen I will have to wait for the promised time...
V day is tml.....due to my confusion...I actually fall abit of depression....cos of my reason with my logic against my desire and my navie...I feel very fustrated.....when we believe true love.....in reality...how many really got it?Love have no boundaries...but the era of such society is alrealy builidng gap and border....MY HEART JUST HURTZ!!!
My reason is telling me....I can never achieve anything as long I dun have the money,the appearance as well as character...Although I only have my character to rely on...yet money make a great impact...when u go out...when u buy something...when u go shopping with her....when u watching movie...what much money do u have...and do u have enough to spare?do u have enough to save yourself first anot.....if no...wat the point?I am just stupid not to consider such important factor..
my logic show that it is possible if I really give it a try.Even a failure mean the path of success for future.....however gonna be same class for at least 2yr...Tell me what will happen if it fail....I dun want to cause any awkward or topic of the class....logic is showing that opposite may not wan me due to the fact I almost have nothing while she almost have everything..omg...lolx...I really sway liao...how come just regret why never study hard in the past...although I dun blame why am I poor...but then I come to realise that is really important too...awww..I hate money!!!GRRR
Desire-Sometime when u know about a gal or opposite party what do they have in term of their background,character,education level plus what they have within themselves.The impression may lead to admire,respect,blah blah...haha....ayia...however there are thing to consider fully despite a strong desire...
navie-I think I spell wrongly..but heck care la..whahaha...ehh...hmmm....this one nothing to say cos like too much fairy tale le...although there are modern fairytale....it quite hard but I will try my best to create one too....hopefully u know..haha..
so how much can we weight?I dunno.....just pray for the best and wish all happy valentine day....may heaven simile upon us all
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:18 PM on Tuesday, February 13, 2007
If it is just because of destiny that alrealy planned well then I want to change and control my own destiny to touch upon the destiny of one I like...
whatever lay ahead of me and whatever behind from me......it had to be accepted.....so long the journey and so tedious that one find despair during his trip....
so many words to be written down yet the amount of words just break off the will to write...
This week and last week okok la...nothing much to say too.....although something make me more and more attracted to.....valetnine is coming.....I guess I going to be alone again...haha..well..it ok since I still young...gaga.....O lvl also coming out this friday....I only wish all good luck that all....all the best everyone...extra blessing for those come see my blog...hehex....
Sometime it is quite interesting that feeling come and fade easily....what does that mean?Good question..this quite hard to explain......
Had a nice trip with aaron to east coast park....ehh...ok can say lame and funny that all....yawnx...wow...I`m tired....
time for nap first...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:16 PM on Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Louis and indran spent the night in my house.Indran laptop almost make me want sianzzz liao....so laggy and his receiver alway cant detect mine one...haha.In the morning,both left and I went to sleep until afternoon.
Afternoon not long later preparing to go jereld chalet which turn out to be downtown east -_-....then at night went together with roy and edmund and someone I do not know.We reach there after 9pm and then the only surprise is seeing hui qing again.Didnt somebody tok so loud that she not coming?lolx.....ooop!!
The food is nice woot woot!!! Too bad I cant get any satay...tok tok and tok until forget got satay...grrr...the guys are pretty funny...all so helpful....I like 4C that class....very helpful and rocking type...yea heeex.....
I like jereld cake...chocolate!!!woot...dunno wat brand..but nice la...eat 1/4 of it....ehh...oop!!! =X
During that time I get to chat with hui qing and understand more about her situation.Roy say me should think for the guy side,I was like tiaozzz.....luckily hui qing reveal abit more of her privacy and roy was like kanna stunned....haha...no la is surprise that why jonathon like that one....even working not together in a place still can earn money and go out together wat...I really feel lame lor......sometime too obesse in something will lead to the downfall of one which had no control.Parent last time also like that doesnt mean the next generation have to be the same also....last generation dun have the tech as now...there is a lot changes...last time house phone is very exp but now so cheap...last time not much fun and attractive place to go but now alot of shopping center and other lame and funny shops.......there are just too much differences to compare......a stranger see the most while the victim only think about her situation while the murderer see her situation also onli...if such happen how are we going to sort it out fair and square?Love had alot of unexplained stuff......something there are just things shouldnt be explain...it is to learn and feel it yourself....nowaday so many pple anyway stead.....in the future...the heart of one will lose faith and corruption from the effect of memory.
So I rest inside the chalet a while after some meal.....one room is totally like for the malays guy while another shared by all....one side for x box soccer...another other games....wonder why so many guys like soccer?A ball that drive everyone crazy one..hehex......not long later got play dai dee....play and play until dunno what time go down help cook the food.Peng also reach and then we start having out chat....I miss that night conversation....a short night that we really chat so happily......
Peng told us that yi ting stead with a brute.Waa sian.....so many lesbian nowaday....very funny le...singapore so many guys to choose...then go be lesbian such unnatural action seen abit annoying sia....the mind of mankind is facing new threat and danger that may wake the destruction of future....got friend like her so much......yet only get to know she stead with a gal....oh boys......dun tok about it their privacy...it is a serious matter that we should consider.....lamer somemore..the higher standard u state for something...the harder it will be....look for something that simple which is simple but yet beautiful.
Sometime complicated thing may not mean that it is pretty.
We then discuss about the end of world!!!lolx....Guz BBQ also got discuss.....when the world is facing the tide of extinction .Dun u want to have someone to hug and close your eye and say some prayer before leaving this world?Dun u want to say what you want to a person whom u trust and lie on his shoulder withness how earth face extinction together hand by hand?When fear control all heart of mankind,it is mankind who destruct themselves first by killing each other and defying the laws and intergity of his/her heat?It will be a big number of people gone crazy....I will take the one with me no matter where....as long our remain will be together may it be in the sea or fire or soil.....
My religon also speak of the last era....now is hong yang chi...the last part of the cycle....then everthing will restart again.well....who know...all small sign also appear in the Quran....
then 3am plus I go to the room and join the ghost tales...lolx....then tok alot about ghost...and blah blah....tok until 7am.....share with them the past how I get to encounter one that close and freaking scary type...haha....spook the whole pple there out...hahaha.
7am plus me and shunli went to pasir pir park there take photo....really want to curse the government why on earth the white sand they named turned to be more like the dark sand.....the filthy seawater is killing all the fishs and marine lives...I even get to see a dead fish that can long enough to my head..Alot of rubbish went unclear.....I really no comment.....I couldnt get any nice shot also......but thx to shunli I didnt get some nice one...cheer for you!!!Haha....when u change and restart again...sometime u get to know what do you really want.just remember that my friend....
Too bad nvr chat any personnal with violet my xiao mei....nvr mind..will still contact can le..haha....somehow she look abit like yan gf le....hmmm..funny...
After that week we got a gathering again at bugis on saturnday.I fail my basic theory again...lolx....funny thing is when I know I fail...I still giggled to myself sia...whahahaha...no idea but I nvr feel hurt...perhap I alrealy know the outcome bai...yet I do study for it.....this show that everyone hardwork effort alway get different way and kind of reward and it will alway be different from other.
After that which is last week......I start to have sore throat...arrghh.....last week went to chen boon father funeral......then ton for the manjhong and play whole night sia.Tok and laugh so loud that even police also come join us sia...whahahah..no la...kanna warning....my cousin was there too.....I now then know he working night shift one.....not bad le...got any problem can call him....then can see a police car coming. =3
Get to know a gal who is chen boon cousin.....hmmm...know she is an ah lian...cannot anyhow joke....I know quite a number of gals cant take joke one...haha...she also got play dota sia...then get to know chen boon sister bf is 10yr older than her sia!!!!Salute to them!!! I only sincerely hope both of them can get together and settle down happily.....may the blessing of my goodwill reach to them.....yea......
Actually my sore throat not pain one.......even in the morning still can tok.......Then it come to an unexpected turn.....I dunno how come I help to see chen boon brother to read his palm.Then I help chen boon sister bf.......actually can go home liao....but then chen boon brother tok so loud...say so jiu......then some auntie start to come around and see..... -_________-....omg!!!!!
I did clarify that I may read wrongly but yet the auntie want me to read for them.....I dunno how many I help read but I only know it is the first time I help so many read in just a day....I do have to claim I read some wrong yet I have no chance to tell them.....whatever I say I did my best to go accordingly by nature.I think I read really alot sia....dun have much time to see carefully for most also....only say out the surfacing problem......
It is by chance I get to read the palm of a person whose lifespan is ending soon.....although I get to know what is it like from palm but it is also by face too.....death is not an ending but merely a new life to the thousand of lives from the cycles.....dun be afraid for u have done good and heaven wont look down on you....live to your best and longest!!!I only can say this to myself to that auntie...I guess I dun have anymore chance to see her again.....hmmmm...Sometime even I get to see the future of one...I can only help avoid the incoming hidden danger but not from death.........
After finish reading for all of them....the one who got quenue up....I get my chance to say I go toilet and go home le...haha....as from this time...I also like to say I nvr take anything from them....I am only doing what I think I should do.....helping those who need a hand.....
Reach home before noon and drink the herb my dear father make for me and went to sleep...when wake up get to realise for the first time I cant tok sia!!!Worst than my primary school lor....still can say out words...this time cant even cry out any single word...lolx...peng yu call me...I try toking but in vain...then he hang off and get to know I sore throat and come visit me...hahaa..he visit I still cannot tok!!!whahahaha...then in the end......he went off to fletch kelvin.
My sore throat is sure killing me....stupid sia me...If I never ton and guai guai stay at home...perhap my throat alrealy recover...ahha.....strange again...I feel funny for not able to speak single word...hahaha......new exp I guess....but of course I want to tok la...I dun want to be mute...and so updating soon
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:11 AM on Sunday, January 28, 2007
Guess it been abit too quiet recently...who know?Everyone just went their own way,if everyone still in the same old school.How nice it would be sia...hahaha...childish thinking but I like it..gaga...wonder about some who are close to me how are they sia.....new exp for many I bet.Peng yu got new laptop sia.....and so is louis....now everyone getting their hand on a laptop le....oh boy..I remember last week going to javin house ton......playing his laptop the CS is so cool..haha.....
Fong tang celebration was quite a grand event.Suddenly is like each year can get to meet can change alot.Time is just dripping constanly that one may not realise how much water had wasted.Father finally cook sia!!!power!!!His noodles is so nice that almost everyone went for a second serving....however it come with a great effort.From the night start preparing and from morning started cooking and adding ingredient to afternoon.Man....I respect my father no matter what...gaga....
Not long after,we went to eat at bugis eat steamboat last saturnday.Kee Wee propose that just open shop but then ym not enough money and so in the end We went back to the same old place there eat.Eating the 2nd time seen to be abit bored.Bored in the food itself doesnt taste as delicious as before. =X Then ping siong join us late and of course we tok alot and alot crap stuff happen also..grrr... >.<..dun help anyone to take noodle le....oh ya....on that day morning...I went to take my basic theory test.The result is failed!!!OMG!!!However I dunno why I still can laugh to myself sia...alamak...think I gonna insane le.... >.<
Time so fast that this is the last week of holiday,perhap I should have think of reading more book that can self improve myself.Well who know? =P
New year approaching as in the lunar.I prefer lunar cal more accurate wor....yea...Well...
To all, everyday is a better day.No matter how hard and tough or pain could any event take place,there bound to be a reason and it is part of your destiny to overcome and handle it when similar problem rises again.life is like a road,it can be many split or junction,upslope or down slope and terrain itself is also very different to match the situation of your life.No matter what kind of setback which everyone must go through.We must still strive for what we want with the remaining life of our own.Life is short yet is so meaningful as in the way we get to enjoy and suffer within our limited life.Although many does come to agreement on why some born to be rich or poor and including appearance,it show how unique everyone are and different ability and talent that each can hold.
Before in love,u find heaven and u find fairytales.Yet after love,u claim it`s just kid play or just a fantasy.So what can we explain to ourselves for such ill events?It all just about your own thinking only.Having failure in life is normal,having it occassionally is also normal..success is the mother of failure.There this gal who say about that she is a magnet that attract misery and loneliness and repel away all happiness.Dun be too obessessed by the sadmemory,use what you still have and strive for better thing.In this world,there are so many guys and if u tell me that this guy is the best and no one can replace him.Think can ask u to knock your head le...cos no one in this world is implaceable.
As a guy,we should try to understand ourselves the limit.Dun do things overboard la...guy can be dominating at times but sometime there is a need to allow a space for the opposite to grow and have some freedom.In love,respect this word hold thousand of meaning and affect greatly the future of a couple varies from trvial to serious matter that need both party to discuss.Dun be stubborn and dun ever think of pride overboard.What pride do u mean when u yourself is not even a working person in the true society?Pride as in wat way?Does it gain and benefit you finacially?Hmm...when u like a person,u should understand and allow that person you have been with some freedom.When somebody just want to attend the class chalet,u strongly against her go just becos there will be guys at the chalet too.what does this show?The trust is not there also....if a relationship can go on without the word trust...where does the feeling come from?From appearance,background or wat?no sense of security and privacy and trust and respect and will u believe that u can get happiness and love from such person?Please consider such factors carefully.
Oh yea...cheers for jasper...he finally had a galfriend which is totally one good and great event for him.Imagine a loner that been seeking a love of his own through those never ending darkness that finally catch the glimpse of the light and shine it on the earth..There is no word I can say but....one word to say careful that all..haha...
words that fill u in with my feeling go all the way in the drain,the candle that burnt out is rekindling through the new life of passion.A shout across the blueish sea under the clear sky relay my emotion.A thought of mine that will be thinking again and again.....just to wait for my fate that may or maybe appear throughout my life...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:07 AM on Friday, January 12, 2007
Finally I get to see xiao shu camera le...piang ehh so big sia the camera...the most surprising part is the price....3k plus not including the accessory sia.....tiaozz liao...the quality...dun ask stupid question...it sure 100% power!!!lolx.....yea....
Just now I get to chat with jasper and I finally know why jeff suddenly go back home that day.Cos he was being informed one hour ago before the meeting time,I was OMG!!! Tiaozz liao la....organiser how can like that one...last minute call out is a very bad action sia.Worst still.....no help out when starting fire....I also had to cycle far to find one nice pavilion but in vain...tiaozz..Hmm....not bad la....quite a hasty planning....haizz....and no program for wet weather wor...lucky keep on tok tok non stop through out the night....and the first person to went for a nap....is the one writing now...lolx....Sleep until morning...alamak...miss the sunrise sia...sian la...no comment.....guo xiong they all play risk.....huat huat sleep too....jas dunno him....
Jasper is a nice guy but yet he had his weakness.Reading his card,it seen that he cant have a gal of his choice if he continue to expect the way he want.Due to his character of being too sensitive,it make fate much more diffcult to give him an ideal gal.However,I guess he sure can find a chio bu easily one...haiz.....why trouble yourself so much?Why ask for the future?To prepare ourself or wat?I have no idea...the best solution is dunno anything... =D
Our group is really too big le....likewise the managment is totally crap.From my view point,this is definitely going to last.Good friend can be only one and it also can be opposite sex too....good friend dun have to be many anyway.I ask for security,trustworthy,caring,considerate and fair from friends that all...how many of my current friend can have all the standard? =3
Sometime I just wonder,what if I had step-parent? Somehow I be more glad to have a step parent.The responsibility maybe greater when they reach certain age but I hope I can do what I can what a son should do...
Roy they all like too busy le....the time to contact also lessen.Haiz....my brothership with him had ended....sometime I just think I am too stupid to hold what brother circlehood....blahx....becos of my short vision on reality.I realise I wasted alot of things and effort on nothing.....but yet I hope he can remember the time we use to have....that goes to Jereld,qingzhou,herr song and akid.So sad....if I had enough time plus money sure no problem...but it is time to move on I guess...hahax....
Hui qing....hmmm....too bad for her le...guess her case is fate to end.After hearing the problem from her,I could see the ending is near for their relationship.Guess she finally learn another lesson,dun alway thought for your thought can make u suffer for life....when relationship reach to the end of no return.U have to let it go for sake of both parties not to suffer further.Sad to say,this happen alot of times in this era.They lose in understanding and respect.
I got present from kelvin which is a cup.Not exp quite cheap....however I like it.Can fill water le...dun play play..haha...he really make me dot sia....sometime I really wonder where on earth he can have so much money.That time I heard from huan yeong about the chalet incident.Waa kao ehh...everyone pay $10 except his 2 friend who dun have to pay.Waa...let me tell u reader,I am very fucked up.Put yourself in my shoes,imagine getting your characters being insulted in front of strangers when u and him had been for friends for few yrs le.Then no sorry just saying ayiaaa...say fun fun....no respect and never care for other pple feeling...sorry hor...u really make me piss...I have nothing but one big middle finger for u...But thank to him I learn alot of things.It show how guy can be very bastard...... =X
untittled lyric-
let the river flow~123
to parting of our world~1
let the people fly~123
eternal freedom~12
let share our meal~12
for the hungry for the poor~12
let us make our part~123
u see light of our lives~1234
so let do together~1
help each other and sing for everybody~1
so what u feeling!!!~1
doesnt that make u great?ohh~123
give your toys away~12
to the kid that need love~123
so give your clothes away~12
to the one that wear torn~123
reach out for the stars~1
reach out for their hearts~1
reach out for the aged~1
u find love everywhere!!~1
so let do together~1
help each other and sing for everybody~1
so what u feeling!!!~1
doesnt that make u great?ohh~123
Be a star for the dark~1
be the warmth in the snow~1
let play a part~123 ohh~12
love~~12345
-end-
It is simple but yet heart warming.A nice song need a meaningfull lyrics.The rest is depend on the singer.....gogo....happy new yr for all!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:42 AM on Sunday, December 31, 2006
I celebrate my christmas on east coast park.No one get a chance to see any single star on that night.The cloud that drizzle cover the whole skies leaving no light to break upon.Jeff never go in the end....he just left at city hall Mrt station without telling us...I was damn surprise but then haizz...wat to do....haha...hope he ok...
Hmm...wait...I think I nxt time then update...have to go ps le...tata
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 4:54 PM on Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Time pass and through the time I begin to lose the grip.Perhap that guy was really right.Sometime when u took thing seriously u suffer more.....Hope this holiday allow those whom I wish to be more mature abit...tok can but dun insult...action can but stop those disrespectful stuff.I have alot to say but I do not know whether I can remember everything anot.....
Jeff and chinghow birthday are over.No one is celebrating chinghow birthday yet I do wish him happy birthday while Jeff celebration was postpone and we have to plan out carefully on sunday which is tml and I am very concern about the rain.Ton in ecp is a good idea since so many pple are astrology people and all like to hanky wanky...oop!! =P haha.....jkjk....all nature lover too.
Honestly speaking I do like to voice out that mybe I am senstive...but most of my feeling are right......so JA!! XD
Manage to get to know more classmates...cheese!!Heard in 2nd yr will be still the same class wor....yea....I like this class cos everyone are actually quite talkative but dunno why the guy not talkitive with the gal one...ayiooo...heck care la as long I got tok can le...one day dun tok to anyone sure kill me....wweeee.....
ytd I sleep all the way from joseph lesson to even freehand lesson...waaa....I didnt know I can be so tired to such extend sia.....haizzz.....boi bian...who told the school to have air con...make me more comfortable sleeping... XD
After lesson me,indran,louis,aaron and zu went to play CS....Before went to tick attendance I tell shihan good bye...she nvr hear so I say I go off le.....also no reply...piang....I no comment sia...
After the CS,everyone went home....I went home and went to sleep.....awww....sleep and sleep..haha...
We speak of the time that hold our destiny.A destiny that one wish to be cross with another in the twlight.BY which one ask for fate in his heart.....a gleam of light across the plain through the night bring hope to him....wonder where would we go and do tml...ever wonder what if one never see tomorrow sunlight?SUch ill question we never ask ourselves only to ask those we desire...a fate of hill or a fate of mud?? I sing from the top of the hill to floating cloud passing by.....singing of those colourful live from white to black....changing my whole heart constantly into the unforeseen colour......
A winter of warmth where I build a snowman to accompany throughout the season.However tell me who will accompany when the winter season reach its` end?MErely just a thought that can make big different and change the live of one.....I am willing to make one snowman for the one I love...I am willing even to be the snowman that never melt for the one I love....so much words I spoken yet not a chance to show then what for should I be here muttering to myself?Let those word I spoke of to be lost through this season.....I make a dream for myself in this snowy plain where snowflake fill the skies ...let everything start from that moment of light......
There one thing I should also claim...true love have no boundary.....not looking of background,status ,appearance and even education level......if one look from such aspect...u are not deserve to taste the lovely wine of true love....
with that.....I wish all merry christmas.....bring meal to those starving people out there....bring clothes and blanket to those homeless people sleeping on the street...that is wat santa claus should do....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 11:37 AM on Saturday, December 23, 2006
This week I have really nothing to say for Aaron.....whatever one do..remind yourself why have u come and what do you want...coming to school without doing homework by giving yourself an excuse that you are working and too tired is nothing helping u to graduted and learn anything u had miss during the lesson.I am concern about him but yet I knew that none of my words will go through his ear.Today shihan just started her work although it is less than 3hours time but yet she manage to finish her work enough for a presentation while he didnt not even bother to try.....shihan got 70 which is better than most of the guy le......sometime things that are impossible is actually possible through hardwork and also miracle...the good begot the good while the bad begot the bad....do u understand?
I may have fail in something personnal example confessing myself to shihan.I wont mind since we still can be friend and classmate better than getting awkard whenever we see each other....I do also suffer from my parent incident this and last week......but yet tell me....does my suffering really enough to kill me while the real suffering is those people in their countries no money to buy anything to eat.....my suffering is only mentally...but they are physically....which one can kill??Kid in those african are eating sands and only grass to survive....while I eat and choose tasty food.....they sleep on the floor where insects run pass and around....while I have a soft and comfortable bed.....when they are hot..they can only forced themselves to sleep...but why am I able to have a fan or air con to cool down the room whenever I feel hot?All the pain I have been bearing is merely a trival matter to them.....try starve yourself for months.......try having water that been polluted.....
Although such thing console me greatly but yet the future hold danger for me too...I cannot suffer too much setback or else I really have no end to go any longer.......my heart is alrealy pierce by the icicles that never melt and soaked in the salt water where I scream endlessly in vain for help........the thought of my mind is haunting me even in the brightest day and pulling me deeper into the eternal pit of darkness where death await me.....
I am depress....I am disappointed...I felt very insecure...I feel so panic that I just break down into tears where heaven shed their tears with me too......I need someone to be with me....sometime I wish I can have my head lie upon and sleep like a baby on someone who accept me......If relationship is so hard in singapore just becos of sg gal are hard to pleased with....the time will let me fall off the cliff of survival......I rather be dead then staying alive enduring all the pricks on the flower........I rather be killed in an instant than being posioned slowly to death by the enchantment of any gal......
This week jeff birthday and christmas party must go well.....hope heaven wont rain on that day.....may that day be bless with my sincere heart.....forever in faith
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 3:21 AM on Thursday, December 21, 2006
We speak only a few word since I dun speak whenever I feel down......and all of the suddenly peng yu told me he saw a shooting star..... 0o!!!!...that suddenly change my heart...out of excitment I also stared into sky.....hmmm....nothing le...then suddenly peng yu told he saw another one....I was WAAA!!!so good sia u.....I told him to make a wish when he saw a shootng star....he wish....then...finally I STARE AND FIRST OF MY LIFE A SHOOTING STAR RIGHT FROM EYE!!!!
U cannot blink cos the shooting star will disappear within that eyeblink...totally beautiful and enchanting...a short white line that make u remember for life....I make a wish when I saw it....then we chat happy away chatting away how come got shooting star and the myth of making wish when seeing a shooting star and also out of thousand only several get to see it....
Hmmm...in the end I make 3 wish since I saw several shooting stars while peng yu saw more than 10sia.....he better than me and somemore his birthday is on sat...that ytd......man....this may let his wish higher chance of success....good for him... =)
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if u are the star in the night....
would u wonder where u shine....
I been searching through that night...
to see the light of you...
may it be true...or it be false...
I be there standing for you...
to my part to my death...
I be there for you...
there a star shinning upon...
endlesly through the night....
let it shine...let it fade...
I will remember that night....
you the one I been love...
you be the day I will hold...
let it be true be true....
our love came true......
I be the night singing for you....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:48 AM on Monday, December 18, 2006
I really feel like going to ask her that did she know I like her anot sia....to this stage it will be better to confess than banging myself against the wall.Finally got a chance to get close with her personnally by helping her taking her bag to her.Then sit down haven even 5min got a guy come...then like machiam so close...what could I say since I see with my own eye....another rival dude...waaa..sianx...dun think too much...let thing go naturally.....if I tell her I like her..will her attitude change toward me?giving me cold shoulder?Just becos I am very particular in her word that she still mis that guy....I dun even think trying to steady with her...what for am I here when u have a guy in your heart and one heart can only hold one person..if u treat me as a spare tyre..then it is meaningless for u never find out what do u really want.U act for your own benefit by using someone to melt the scar temporay for u...although I dun think she the type anyhow make use of people but then it can very frightening ever since I remember seeing jasper and shu fang case also similar sia.....yuckk.....I dun dare to imagine wat I do if this happen to me....heex...I dun think anybody want such thing to happen to them too...wahahhahaha...
So this week had me break down during last night......today after leaving the library I went to find peng yu and we go donate blood...after donating the blood we left to find kelvin at bukit batok to eat pizza...yea....exp lucky he pay for me...thx to him....now he drive a mazda3 black....waa liao...I also wan sia...but to be realistic I know it is impossible for now......family also poor....haizzz...if my family abit more well off...how good it could be.....dun u all think so?haha....let buy totto =P
I went to canal after reaching home and chat abit with her.....the sky is still drizzling.....I went to buy tea and some snack and went to pray....I reach the canal....man...the feeling is there....everything is there....can feel it....felt alot better alrealy.....then went to the altar inside the forest and I was preparing the joss stick I saw my missing blue crystal right on the side of the container....0o!! It been 10months missing alrealy....I feel so happy that suddenly all my problem is gone....I buy it for 229 sia....I hide it under the god statue just to ask for the blessing of the crystal......then 2week later come back....someone took it away....awwww.....
Although I got it back but the colour in the crystal is tainted black.....man...now I starting to know why he return alrealy...wat a bastard...this person who wear the crystal for 10months is actually low in luck and piang ehh....he got alot of negative qi....not a good person.....how can the crystal absorb your qi until so dark???eeee....just to think of cleansing the crystal sure take one whole day and night.....arrrghhh.....but never mind...it worthy....cant believe the crystal was being found again......to me this is miracle....such exp item u sure cant find it back...that all I can say sia....woot...
walking back home...I saw a man down at the canal.... -.=....strange dude but then know he go fishing during this kind of weather without any equipment....tiaozzz...he catching wat kind of fish....I help him up since he got injured due to the slippery slide....strange guy to me =/
Then peng yu drive me back to kembagan....waa liao...my group only me haven got license sia...eeeek...
Anyway...MISS PEI HOW CAN U LIKE THAT SIA!!!No warning to us then just makr me nvr come...I alrealy decided to scarifice my lesson just to accompany her in library.....sob sobx....this is so unexpected...arrrgghhh...I miss one great opportunity to stay with her....haizzz...damn....so fed up whenever think of today....arrrggghhh.....
Dun expect life to be the way u want...dun grumble even u find yourself worst than others...dun be happy when u gain something better than the rest....be contended with what ahead of u and cherish wat u have and what ahead of you.By right I should work also since my family also not well off...yet to compare my youth against money..youth is more importance..u can have memory of your youth day....when we left the stage of youth...we cannot get it back while money can be earn throughout our lives.......this is the big difference...everyone have their family problem...those who knew my family problem also know that how I suffer till the extend of trying commit sucide....it just something we have to face and adapt......haizzz....until now that mother of mine really going to kill me soon..not a single good word one.....arrrghhh....
-=do u know I want to go out with u to know u better?do u know I alrealy want to tell u how much I like u?do u know I alrealy fixed my eye upon u when u help me that time?do u know I am willing to spend time with u whenever u are free after school?do u know I not stingy but is just that I had economy problem also?I wont mind paying anything for u if I have the money but by heaven will I am born to be poor...I cant give u anything but only can make u laugh and simile...what do u expect me to do when u told me your heart is alrealy filled with another guy?Do u know I alrealy shed tears just for u?Do u know that I had been waiting just one very obivous clue from u?I dun like to make promise that I cant be sure of..but I only promise to do my best..........do u know that day when u attiude me....how sad I feel? =-
I express myself so much to no one but to the illusionary world of mine and to those reader...can u all understand the pain I been taking?If u all know then remember cherish this word and how contend can be very useful in life.....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 10:26 PM on Thursday, December 14, 2006
FUCK THE ONE WHO PASTE THE THING ON MY BACK...FUCK U....DUN U HAVE ANY COURTESY TO TELL ME WHEN I GOING HOME?!?!?WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH U!?!??!DO U LIKE TO BE TREATED AS A DUMBASS OR A JACKASS!!!!SPARE THE THOUGHT FOR THOSE WHO SUFFER!!!!I SUFFER BY YOUR IDIOTIC JOKE AND YOUR DISRESPECTING NONSENSE....HOW AM I GOING TO JOKE AND TALK WITH YOU ALL AS BEFORE!!!!FUCKER!!!!I NEED SENSE OF SECURITY NOT SENSE OF RUBBISH AND DISRESPECTFUL FEELING FROM EITHER FRIEND OR CLASSMATES.....IF THIS GONNA HAPPEN I RATHER BE ALONE....ALONE FROM MYSELF....FUCKER.....MUST GO CANAL LIAO....CCB...REALLY HAVE TO DESTRESS THERE ALREALY.....NA BEI!!!!WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE....THE OPPSITE NVR ACCEPT....I WANT TO FADE MYSELF AWAY FROM THIS WORLD.......I WILL REPAY THOSE GRATITUDE IN MY NEXT LIFE...DUN WORRY!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:50 PM on Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Hmm.....guo wei not bad le....still for one week plus still can say quit relax....maybe he haven seen alot of crowd yet.Somehow dunno why they get comission so high in just within a week.....sweat...envy**
Quit surprising that yesterday I had lunch with our animal kingdom...airpork,rhino,dog and water foundation are there.....with the penguin,snake,sotong and the zombie cat dunno hiding at where.....cant believe that kelvin is going to use a maza3 car black colour one.....piang....do I say I had to envy him??I dun think so.....renting a car without using your own money is the same as squandering parent money.Those who see step into the darkness will understand why.Although I dun really think I will be able to buy a car in the future but then public transport also not bad wat...haha.....with such a idiotic mind I have....sometime really ave to get preparation to be loner forever......sian...my words can move her heart while my mind is arguing with the other side of the brain where reasoning is fighting against the corruption.......I seek for a guide through the storm......
Since kelvin going to army soon I also nothing more to say except really wish that he can think when he go army......when u come out from army......most are mature enough alrealy......sometime dun really want to say him le....I am too tired to say anything about him.My life is mine....I go my own way while he go on his own.....there are unaccountable lives in this world with only few sharing one same path that mean same starting same proccess same ending.........
There only one thing that disappoint me.....disappoint is at least better than despair or sorrw which make a mark on the heart shaped XO bottle.......somebody is intending to steal some XO by poking a needle into the bottle......take a step back and I understand the situation......even if thing go smoothly....I will not be the coffee in her cup of tea.....pple normal drink one flavour of coffee at one time.....unless u bastard come find me and drink two different kind of coffeee in front of me I boi way gong la...haha.....
What there to grumble anyway?Even I didnt expect the way I wanted yet I make another person happy.....although now only normal friend but life is unpredictable who know she open the door for me?However if that door never open and worst she had her door heavily guarded......it mean cant even be friend liao.....hmmm.....let thing go naturally....wait like a folly man that wander around the meadow waiting for good to happen.....hahax....later stand in the middle kanna struck by lighting....dot dot...
Dun have time to contact jason sia......arhh...hope he is fine and so is his mother.....winter have arrived........yet in singapore....still so hot.....piang....give me a chance I will wipe out the world....end those people who are suffering and those who are happily enjoying themselves away......a fair trial.....one for all...all for one...
The past month let me know about you and I still remember the first time when our eye met.Though the I believe it is the first gleam of our love yet I was wrong in the first place.A mistake I hope I wont make again and a chance to be a loner again seeking shelter in the arm of my brothers and friends to ease the torment of loneliness.....I dare not to grumble for what happen is fated to be.Destiny that hold upon us is still leading but yet how I wish that destiny could let me have a chance to be with u...a slight moment will be enough to make an impact.When one see only the appearance of me then she shall lose her right to be with me,when one see the statue of me she lose her intgerity,when one see only the character of me she will be the right one for me.
The way is long but yet there are many thing undone and ned to be done.The days maybe sorching to walk upon but determination will lead me to the next shelter while the night maybe chilling to move a finger yet hope and abit of faith will be enough to push me forward.....I see through the sky and to think only of your face is enough rest......
When I am down with loneliness,I started to see u....
although sadness fill my mind yet I see joy now.....
the smile on your face just melt my heart....
though my heart was clouded with tears yesterday...
I see the sliver lining behind the dark cloud....
do you remember the moment when our eye met for the first time....
oh it was the first gleam of love between u and me.......
do you remember the time when our hand in touch......
I love you so.......
oh yea.....just finish many macross anima....nice...although macorss 7 was abit boring but the meaning is there.....weapon are not everything.....peace dude....
Thx for those who help me....guess all sure dot dot...but dun worry this weekend I will go back teckwhye and make all go crazy!!!!Arhhhhhhh........may the tranqulit canal be the only place that console my little star......mosieh!!!!
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:08 AM on
tiny shells crawling toward the incoming waves,
constant sound of the waves clashing the rocks,
I gaze across the never ending ocean...
alone through the evening and the windy night,
bit and pieces of leaves flowing down endlessly,
bottling up all my emotion and troubled mind,
I cast it away to sea that swallow it hungerily,
how I wish I can just fade away into thin air,
how I wish I can fly freely to the edge of the world,
how I wish my life can just end instanly,
how I wish but only wish when I saw despair
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 5:05 PM on Sunday, December 10, 2006
TOday homework by Miss pei is totally very tiring sia.....from 12pm noon to 5pm plus....I just work on one homework only....I really thx the heaven...cant imgaine what If I do at home...sure die one I confirm...it is something that I get to know from gabriel and we share abit of our life exp making us more trustworthy toward each other......and I am glad for his words in something that I do not know...support u dude...haha...
Today really damn blur again......cube can cut wrongly one....cut and glue together then realise omg!!!so small sia....yuck.....bad thursday I guess..then go find shihan....thought like will walk walk around with her one.However she with the chefs*....how come so young like that....then go home le.....
Hmmm.....tonight conversation do give me some of the feeling she actually worry....is worry or thinking I also not quite sure...If I know everything......everyday win totto le.....woa!!! XD
tonight chatting with her.......hmmm....the word loner really me very interested....so long have one mention this word to me....hmmm....like someone also....really loner...no friend...nothing... -.=
Maybe she still not very confident in me.Dunno....I only know just do the best I can for her.....
-light that creep upon-
a feeling of loneliness grip your heart,
a sense of isolation that fill your mind,
a thought of confusion rampant over you,
the hand of the darkness cover you,
even the days give you nothing but doubt,
a step you walk make you a thinking hat,
lost in the middle of the no where,
where everything is white and beautiful,
yet u feel cold and lonely and in despair,
no matter how long you walk and stagger,
there no end to escape from the snowy land,
when you are going to fall into darkness,
I will be the warm light that hold on you,
I will clear your confusion,doubt and loneliness,
I will be there to lead you out of this icy land,
in the day I be the bird that look over you,
in the night I be the stalker watching you sleep,
constantly watching your back for hours and hours,
if ever the web of loneliness entangle you,
if ever the pricky thorns that ensnare you,
let me be the one and the only one to free u,
the short moment of one month between us,
the short conversation face to face together,
the short memory that we have ever enjoy,
let me be the time watcher to make it long,
let me be the stay side by side with you,
let me bring you out with me and enjoy,
no matter how strong darkness may hold,
I will be the undying light that creep upon,
a bit of trust and confident in me....
I bring u to the sky of dream and wonder,
to see the everlasting beauty of nature,
the magifcient light from the stars and moon,
I may not and cant perform a perfect job,
yet I promise to do my bestof the best for you,
even it may or not mean to self scarifical....
just hold on to my hand...hold on tight.....
light that creep upon.....
sianzz....totally write rubbish like that....somehow should be spilt into 2poem one....ayiaa...nvr mind..done my best le...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 12:20 AM on Friday, December 08, 2006
Edmund and guo wei started working le....left qing zhou at home waiting for call....hope brenda dun employ him. =X lolx!!!....no la....jkjk....peng green hair and can work one month so I cant help him la.....jian long cant be reached and forget to inform teow kim....sweet liao lor.....he sure come kill me... XD
Jason went to work too......honestly speaking I really feel better if we are just friend instead of being bros. I dun remember helping him for that near 2yrs........ =/ Jereld haven start work bai I think....the sentosa check ticket one...ayiaaa.....he happy he do lor....hope he will really start to grow up.
Hmm...something very important to take note.Hui qing and jonathon still solving out the problem of gal outing and the guy unhappy.True fact is that jonathon is the first time having bgr.Thus it is very simple to explain that he took the relationship too seriously as in the way he control her right overshot of his limit.His reason was struggling with his domination.When I say domination,there wasnt any ill intention.It is true that reader at this stage could have an idea that the guy is immensely obessed with her but yet the room for development and pirvacy was almost left nothing and too cramp. It abit too far to chat everyday for hours about crab and starfish.U eat a crab for everyday and see stars every night,u sure have nightmare of crab and starfish chasing u throughout your dream.lolx.....what I feel is that.Give each other abit of rest.tok everyday is ok.....not so long la.....sms a few times only for that 2-3days also ok one....u ok I ok everyone also OK!!! =D
Everyone had their own shortcoming,to love each other.Both party must understand love is also based on acceptance and adapting.If he dun feel happy when u go out.Tell him to go out with u la.....as a matter of fact.why the guy dun want to go also?group dating isnt a bad thing,if u want romance everday with her.I rather advice you to save some for yourself in case u ran out of idea for the next few years or decades. =X human brain do grow....but making creative and romantic stuff everyday is asking someone to jump down from 2nd floor.2nd floor wont die one...but sure pain one la.....until the day when u cannot bear to hold the pain.U will go to the lift and press the top button and try jumping down with an umbrella or a big blanket.... =X
I dunno why jonathon dun want to go out with hui qing and her friend.....dun be so anti social mahx.....simile simile and hihi and bye bye.....end of the day u get a cert of friend with XXX le....waa liao not bad le....lolx....arhxx....as a guy I believe u should try it out.In this world,everything must try one wat.Example why u play basketball?Even u like it or not,the most important thing is that u have try it that why you know u like it.If u never try it out,your relationship with hui qing will stopped from that stage alrealy.Nowaday so many diovrce cases in singapore that this yr I do remember alrealy reach 7k le..Most of the divorce reason are miscommunciation,extra affair,quarreling over small matter and unable to reach an agreement together and background problem and a small number of health problem.The vow they make on the day of marriage was a disgrace.Breaking the heaven oath is a great sin...for centuries in our ancestor land...couple live to old age together whether they happy or not =X anyway one divorce case need lawyer money also...not cheap wor...alamak...should go study law....then sure rich from helping people getting divorce..... =X If anyone got this idea....really is one bastard sia....When both party cant get to an agreement.Dun hao lian by solo thinking only.In your own world lie the crown of your hand.You are only in your own world not through the other world.Step abit into the world of the one you love and understand how she feel and not just on how u feel.U are a guy and u have your pride but not to the extend of pride that gobble up your reason in relationship.Prove me wrong if u think I am not right.I gladly explain to you.....and oh ya...dun say me kapo...I alrealy tell everyone I only infere my brothers and sister life and not those buddy or friend.Is Hui qing come ask me and such problem is alrealy easiler seen by the 3rd party that it is the guy who doesnt make the effort.U claim you like and love her but yet u never understand her feeling and how are u going to explain for yourself when u didnt scarifce part of yourself for her while as she comply with your strict grip of those rules u created for her.This problem is very easy one,it is you who doesnt wish to look from another angle and you are the one not making the effort.Although I am now on one sided story due to the fact I only hear from hui qing.However I guess I alrealy out what should written down here......
Today saw kelvin....he rent another car....the car cover can close and open one....I really feel like saying bastard sia u...no money to return wei keat but got money to rent car...that car rent cost 1.2k per month le.....the way he drive hor...$10 of petrol per not enough for him one....if happy happy say $10 petrol for him everday...one month 31days and another $310 gone.....I still remember how my cousin told me that he remember kelvin case....he say him kasiee....LOLX....I also know...hahahaha.....haizzz....money cant buy feeling....there are things that money cant buy one.....to say honestly....trust is something that buy everything........see the bank....trust the bank that why pple like me also put money there...hahaha.....or simple ..friend asking u to keep secret for them or asking to work with them in a business..... =) Anyway thank for driving me back to my grandma house...I know u sure drive gals one instead of sure drive us your good friends one... =X
Hmmm...actually I found myself abit stupid sia....anyhow give my blog to someone.Arrggghhh.....wat done cannot be undone.....I want to write down how I really feel and directly also will feel scare sia......eeeekk...all my personnal stuff all hidden here sia..... =3 how how how!!! I think she got sstm and I think she a computer nerd....so I think she alrealy forget my blog le bai...hope sia...hahaaha...
Piang...actually want to write down long time ago....but ayiaa....just write what I feel la....I`m a man ok?heex....get to know a gal name shihan my classmate la......hmmmm.....I remember the first very very first time I tok to her is on the friday......that time when we walk to Mrt together with also chantel....yea...I prefer to call her singtel!!! =X unique name also.....hiya....hmmm....classmate okok la.....ah shit....wat I toking....of course ok la......ehhh...I know le.....and so it start at tuesday the next week......I was rushing the word stuff....piang....louis they all do so fast......not I slow hor..hurr....then the guy go smoke as usual and then the gal all go makan....left me and shihan only sia.....the white painted cool room was totally in a state of only hearing my scissor chip chip here and there like fraggot dunno cutting what....hahahaha....and also the effect of pages being flipped through like as if some siao kia is rushing to hell like that.......while working halfway to complete my work....I see her also rushing....ayiooo...lucky I not the slowest.....but I guess I got 1st prize for being the slowest while she got 2nd prize....hmmm...there is one thing that really surprise me....I remember clearly she also haven finish pasting her work on the paper le.....right or not..something like that.....she ask me I do until where.....somewhere near completion but lack of one word sia.....and tata....I saw one nono is 2hand approaching me......and the word goes as....choose one you like for your word.......waaa...style sia.....really make me bwg.... >.<....that why my brain go blank that whole day.....lolx....nice one....go bed early also sia.... she haven finish that serif or san serif word then she never choose herself and she just let me choose first.....I remember is like that......not bad arhx....special service...lolx...
The rest arhx....when add on msn....cant believe she tok alot...omg.....hmmm....but tok until like know each other dunno for how many yr liao like that.....lolx...hmm...in this week we do tok alot of crap...yet sometime the crap sound serious and make me abit unsure and abit uneasy too....the feeling of being and classmate totally exceeded in some factors......thought little bit of factors make one unnoticed yet the signifance of the whole factors added together give me that she like me.....this is how I feel ok...based from my feeling.....we just knew each other within an month.....this is actually one of the most troublesome fact to me....I dunno her well and considering the factors that I had nothing attractive is one good point that led me wonder why she like me.....heex....funny hor?
When I let fate decide for me,there are times that I miss out the chance of grabbing opportunity.In this time,I am more convinced that the time of fate have finally started.This few weeks she alrealy like hinting me but the hint not strong enough le...but weak enough to let me notice le...gulp gulp** Been through so many love stories only to find myself facing one unique story.....nice arhx edmund....one cup of plain water goes to u man....cheer!!! =P yupp.....thx to all those good friends,buddy and my bros.....I will take note of all your views.....thx alot.....dun thx guo xiong only.....bastard...tell him happily what happened during that night...he only give me one word of dunno. (-.=)....^%$&%&*^*(&)(*$$@)(_+ no la....haha...
Just a few days she sms me wanna go escape....she nvr sms to any of the guys...and then that make me suspect something alrealy....I got a feeling she want to ask me accompany her......but I also not quite sure....so my mind turn to kuku mind and give her one pail of water mixed with ice....hahahah......after that conversation.....I really got the feeling sia....omg.....despite this short period,she treat me very good and I like it the way she treat me.....how come sound like I am a pet sia......weee.....there are so alot of thing to say but yet I cannot write out one by one so detail sia.....waa liew....I really long time nvr write so long sia....eeek...alrealy spend one hour plus writing and thinking le.......ned to do 20sketches of hw also omg.....how to say I like u too?I know very simple to say....but hard to say to one u like le....hahahahaha.....
tml she wan to eat irish ice cream wor.......waa liew....nvr heard be4.....man....I alrealy bankrupt le.....time to work part time if there a need......eeeek....jialat.....I still dunno how to start....uh uh ummm....brain tired liao....can go sleep and wake up ealry tml to do the 20 sketch......too happy or too excited to type any meaningful stuff.....
Moon rise to the dark tide,
truth reveal from beneath,
a twinkling star shine of you,
wondering will u shine for me?
-If I had the pen moving on the new page,will I be able to finish the story?-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 6:03 PM on Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Then went home... of course went home la..haha....ehh....walk all the way home as usual....man the sun so hot hot hot sia....make me more hot...zzz....totally wet with my sweat....sweat more mahx...can turn more slim...heex...while on the way shihan sms me that she buy mp3......512 for $70...actually I want to tell her got cheaper price one....but boi bian she alrealy buy le...thought she got friend help her to get cheaper but same lemon mp3......but then since got charger...ok le lor...not for me la...wahahaha.....actually hp also can play song one....but her model is wat I also dunno so too bad la..starting I was quite surprise that she like black colour.....eeek.....too bad I love white colour....white and blue....that will be my colour for the rest of my life...hoho....just like the empty sky...
Get to know this classmate shishan.....hmmmm...tok alot sia...piang...cant believe it sia...lolx....but she also another type who is able to remain silent and talkitive....hmmm....stubborn syptom?She quite friendly.....or should I state too friendly?lolx....no idea la....but she quite a nice gal to me.In class u can see her head alway kanna pull down by the table gravity one.....after that u can a few word rising from her head....z.Z.z.Z.... =/
I only know guy like yuan man and jasper alway very late sleep but this is the first time I meet a gal who also very late sleep....ayiaaa...everyone got his/her own body charactertisc...like me...one night must at least sleep or else..... =X
In the afternoon it is good that 3shui bring me along to buy groccery....yea...morale increase le....heex...told him what I am facing....yea...then we go out buy those basic need and then chatting with him I REALISE human body are very weak.....arrrgghh...my big tummy...damn...I going to kill it off....stroke and heart attack rate is increasing even to those mid age people sia....gaga....then he bought weight and I choose the weight for leg one...that night....of course I got a nap....weee...then then....hmmmm then sleep very long...after that wat happen I also dunno.hoho
So it come to friday....friday lesson really sian la.....the afternoon lesson alway bring me disappointment one....alway dun understand anything....I also cant believe aaron is able to know more than me sia.....impressive wor......after that go banquet le......yes la...food food!!! XD I love food....go the chervon there in boon lay or jurong east there I also not quite sure le....but then the resturant very lame le......4speaker only 2 working....couple strolling then put water in the dry ice.....u blocking the camera man and waa liao ehh.....no atomsphere la.....cant even sense the beauty of marriage.....yuck.......then see kenny they all.....then tok alot about games and how everyone life....the banquet start at 8.30 like that and can end at 10.15......this is very fast sia.....I dunno how to say liao...lolx.....
About 11pm reach teckwhye and chiong to meet huat they all....yea.....finally can catch up the gathering...heex....then we discuss about go wei birthday celebration should be held at where......guo wei left le then peng yu come and find us....then he offer us ride.....woot.....then everyone total got 7 of us chiong geylang...hahahah....everyone nvr go see be4 want to see see how it is like sia.......go there also nothing special le.....alot of gals la...but then common sense can show that those foreigners most have to work that kind of job to survive....somemore singapre guy also alot so pevert and despo.....sure earn alot one...haha...
Then we ride to bugis there....then stop outside the school around there and ask how....so we went to the back of bugis junction and saw several steamboat shop....waaa set le....then everyone went home....through the way back.....those 5 pple huat they all shoick sia...lolx....the wind blow at them...can see everyone hair up up like dragonball sia...haahahah....
finally saturnday le wor......actually I want to contact shishan one...but she working and I think we tok too much crap le...maybe I alrealy frozen her le...hahaha.....sleep until 1pm plus...shoick man...actually I dun feel like waking up but then I wake up and play dota with yuan man they...play halfway my so call guardian visit us sia....weee......hmmm....then tok and tok lor....tok and play until 3pm then they left and I also have to go buy that dunno wat vingear for my mother...waa liao...non stop action sia her mouth....buy for me can repeat so many times one.....arrrhxxx...ma chiam like chanting sutras to me. >.<
Went for haircut...yea.......finally.....I dun like that bushy hair of mine...like....freako!!!! =D
4pm meet guo xiong and approach lot1......I tell everyone 4pm but near 5 then everyone reach....tiaozzz...and then the main organiser shuan didnt come...arrgghhh.....but then totaly there are 11pple including guo wei...we reach bugis at evening.....very stupid le u know....I realise when we reach bugis mrt station.Nobody attempt to check whether we reach anot....tiaozz....the train lucky dunno why so long then close door....when the door going to close u can hear guo wei shouting....waa reach liao...out out...faster...then those passengers all looking at us....piang ehh....never mind...we all thick skinned one...hahahahaha....then we go eat steamboat.....waaa shoick sia the steamboat...I love it....better than marine south....no fry totally is put your food in the soup one......cool....the food dun have alot of variety but then nice lor...heex.....I like the fish....fish fish fish!!!!
after the dinner everyone walk to paradiz center....thenI lead and walk one long path....oop...lolx....then we passby the art musem at the SMU there.Alot of people sia....we go take a look....rofl!!!! I saw a man standing on a stand with water flowing out from his penis there....then the water spilt into two and head also got water pop out and suddenly the whole body got water flow out one....people urining so many people see....why I go urine no one come see de...lolx.....jkjk....
the performance is nice.....the best i like is the firework....awwww....too bad if got gf sure hold hand with her watching that one short special moment of romance...heexx......
then ping siong went home first due to the assignment he ned to pass p on monday...the rest proceed to paradiz center and play lan.....I should say this 2 hour of lan make us totally happy....reminding me of the past we have playing basketball..... XD
11.24pm like that me,guo wei and huat take MRT home while the rest take bus 190 home....we chiong sia....waa liew....si huat walk so fast.....then I was really rolf when huat they all take the last train home...when the operator say last train...we giggle to ourselves...LOLX....so heng sia....they left first...then I wait for paris pir one.....I guess I still in the 2nd last train le.........yup yup.....then walk back to grandma home again fromt he mrt station....abit of long distance but yet there are things to see....sometime I see how big and nice the bunglow are...I do envy abit but I dare not....this is the effect of karma.....they do good in their previous life....I also got live in but not I buy one....lolx.....wonder why my generation is getting poorer.....wonder why my family also poor....poor yet contended.....yea...I love this phrases.....
This weekend arhx....hui qing come find me to ask how to solve the problem between her and jonathon.......tok to her so long in the afternoon....hope she summarise my word and tell jonathon bai........then that melody brother....fuking idiot.....if he dun believe in god then there no reason for him to insult god....and serve him right to see ghost right in the canal there.....his parent go there offering to appease the gods le...whether the god is appease anot the problem is not there.....lot and lot of free tinker are on the rise.....there are thing that mankind wont be able to solve.....free thinker got alot of character flaws..... =X that my view bai...haha...
-friendly-
your action that you alway tell me,
it is your way of living toward other,
it is your strength as well as weakness,
confront and convert it into your power,
why tear your heart when you are fine,
even sewn back a scare is still visible.
shut youself isnt a solution in reality,
embrace it and face the colourful world,
you will attract friend and guy interested,
you will find pool of resources available,
let your friendly attitude give warmth,
to me and to those who need it......
-thank you-
I dunno u but what u say on the MRT train on that night solve my trouble and pain I am facing....simple words yet u enlighten me thought I evadropping....love is something u cannot predict nor expect......love may not hit off well....the proccess may filled with danger and obstacles...but I wish for you to have a choice of your own and cherish it and hope u will live happily forever......
-the sufferer cherish the most-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:54 AM on Sunday, December 03, 2006
a probing mind of confusion and uncertainly,
where confusion lead to wonder and despair,
where uncertainly bring me fear and doom,
in this silent cell with the fan blowing at me,
hoping to fly away with the wind into the sky,
where I can rest on the stars and sing alone,
to enjoy the glittering light from the ground,
I ain a feeling of love coming toward me,
reaching out for the feeling right from my heart,
just to realise that it isnt as easy as it seen to be,
it so near but yet so far to reach from my limit,
where can I hide away from this inveitable trouble,
where can I get an assurance answer for it,
until the day I found the answer myself,
I will hope to wait for it until that very day,
This week alot of hw sia.....yuck.....how should I say for this week?much more happy or much or confusion?I dunno cos I got a unique story....a story that most believe that got a gal interested in me but yet not so obvious and some even say can be my god sister....hmm...not again!!! The thought of it alrealy dampen my spirit.....
Me myself not so sure since there isnt any strong hint but yet even the small action and words is enough to make a small hint and when u plus all the hint together...u got a strong hint... =)
life is unpredictable is what I fear...will it be true or just another stupid brain of mine anyhow go mistaken the feeling....no idea...I guess as tme pass.It will reveal in time for me to see and answer for myself......edmund word is one of the most lamest answer.However I do try to tell him something too
true friend are alway by your side.....dun worry or suspect about their attitude nor their language toward u....go by feeling.....even they are not true to u.There are so many pple are out to be with u and to brother with.....
he think too much...and so am I.... XD man...well nap nap time le....
bro forever-edmund-
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 5:30 PM on Sunday, November 26, 2006
Peng yu told me that the MX actually quite easy...eeeek...I start new one..yes la...stuck liao...arrghhh....I return home straight away after sending peng yu back to school.....Um...afternoon so free and update one le...but dunno why my brain love to thinker thinker tink like that......
oh yeaa.....I remember liao...kelvin rent another car liao...omg...I really no comment sia....not working and he really squandering his parent away....argggh...haizzz....when will he grow up?oH boy.....like what elder say some pple treat car like their only life.... =) car really so good mehx?ayiooo.....I dun understand sia....perhap I not good in this area le.....
I remember kelvin can overturn the first car he rent near his school....waa liao....drift car until that.....his 3other friend also hurt...but then I guess all got the greatest fear of their lives!!!! XD
dun speed!!!
I see people driving but never see a people drive with his head up and down giving me a strong answer that this driver is going to sleep soon!?!?!&*^*%&$%^$^*&(* Sometime kelvin really like to sudden brake....everytime I alway hit the front sit....eeek...the thought of it...waa pain sia....
hmmm....wonder why I love to mention his deed....eeekk...so scary....cant believe it...
I love the nap.....I put 2 speaker side by side on my bed....then having those classical music in quite a low volume...and tata....fell into a deep sleep....with the raining weather....the wind blow across my feet....shoick!!!!weee.....did I make a dream?hmmm...dun think so..but I love the nap...hehex..
somehow my brain going to say out something but who know wat it is?oh yea....I remember le...today lesson very lame sia......dunno which idiot tell me no ned to go raffles place take pic and in the I go ecp to take....however I still enjoy cos I start to go out alone sia....man I still hate the feeling of being lonely...zzzzz
today lesson the teacher is who arhx....ahhh...nvr mind...I dun remember at all.....he funny sia...yea...real funny guy....dun let me have a smooth presentation but I am very impress that he seen to be know What I am trying to focus at....heex....salute!!!
the pic I borrow from yan was actually got boat one...but then lame lor...I am one of the last few....then so many pple say boat...boat and building...what is left for me to tok sia?omg...then I choose another one...then I got this water pic....hmmm.....water?!?!yea.....suddenly all kind of crap flow into my brain and tata......got alot of crap when it is my turn.....hmmm......
ehh going to 2am liao...siao liao..better go bed le...
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 1:27 AM on Thursday, November 23, 2006
wednesday teacher I guess he the most comedic teacher I ever had although abit of prank on the student yet he is able not to offend the pride of the student.respect man....
last week staying at the beach I get a chance to enjoy and reflect myself till the night where artifical light brighten up the whole night.What am I doing now and what am I thinking?For such life I have walk alone not forgetting those many friends and brothers who had once lend their shoulder for me give me a chance to enjoy the bright side of life....the brightest side of life is to enjoy the nature.Why nature?I cant help but keep starting into the endlesss seawave calming me down and giving me life.we have a lot to cherish while we have with us but yet to what extend?This is one good problem that just pop up to me.....I alway mention cherish yet no one question to what extend?
I see the sandy seashore with small shell and hermit crab....I Like it I must say.....it is perfect for me when during the evening I manage to capture shot of newly wed couple in their wedding dress taken along the shore........
When I see marriage.....I see the beauty of it...I see joy and true love in that moment....however true love do fade or should we say that it is just another illusionary love after all.....so that the reason why divorce rate shoot so high to 7000plus???In this country I see that good man die early while villian live the longest....what kind of logic of this when I am a buddist and I strongly believe in karma......the good repay with evil?While evil repay with good?Might as well pay for a goodies bag.... heex
Seeing those couple sitting down together enjoying the breeze and the pinkish cloud which halffill the sky with the sun slowly making it farewell to the motherland.....ship and boat and different colour of light from indonesia added the romantic atomsphere attract those student or people who like nature to stop and have a look.....the most beautiful thing that happen twice per day......what can there be more beautiful?The sweeping soft voice of the waves up the shore smoothen the aura of this tranquilt land.......with the sun sleeping and the moon rising up in the sky...I see the twinkling little stars and I watch it myself alone.....neverthless how lonely the night I been facing for these several years I stand to understand how painful that love can reach to.....no one was with me or near me.....how I really wish that the time will just stop for me.....let me enjoy this peaceful heaven in earth.....music that I heard in mp3 cant even fully pour out my sorrw and confusion.I stare and was in a blank mind...what future is there to hold for me?Planes just keep landing down in every few minutes with it`s light shinning bright on the sea surface totally have me immersed with it...I love this night and I forever love this night......will it be better to watch alone or watch it with someone I love?Will the person I love enjoy much as much as I do and will she apprenciate the wonder of nature.So much thought and yet not even a conclusion can be able to cover up my doubt...I left that very spot back to my grandma in vain....the life of a person is hard predict as the phrases go life is unpredictable......
I dun like to offend nor hurting anyone but yet such simple logic is totally out question.It is unavoidable that everyone face miscommunciation or misunderstanding...even couple have to quarrel to get their bonding closer.....nobody like it but yet it part of our growing proccess....how much can one ask for?That night is very beautiful for me.....although I only get to watch the sunset yet it is something we should apprenciate.....this is one of the special moment I really enjoy.....
thought going back into urban places make me stress......stress in any factor ranging from family to money and to school and to friend and to blah blah.....sometime I really recommend to vist ecp as much they can......
Youngster anyhow say want to be single after a failure in bgr never make a thought that such thing is only a growing proccess and the most important thing is that what if the time has finally come?Fate shower those who done good to themselves and to those who are suffering.......a successful business had to face the 10 happening of failure in order to success......he get what he want with a high price he pay.....this match with the phrases that there no free lunch in this world.....
when u see from another angle....what u see?do u see that bgr that come easily tend to break up much more faster and easily compared to those who sincerely scarfice their time and money and their heart in that period just to exchange for the acceptance of the one they love....dun u see??It is something we teenagers should really think hard.......Who doesnt like to be loved?A baby fall down....u still see them similing away giving u a sensation of an angel warmth...they keep fallling down but when time pass they finally get to walk on their own.......what does this few incident and story telling us?life is not easy.....even the richest man in this world had problem of his own....most likely his wife =X
Behind the school on every friday last time......I enjoy the stars too....clearly seen but yet a dead atomsphere that is far too creepy than romantic for a couple....but then idiot....somebody go there make love....that one really bwg liao...condom just anyhow leave on the bridge there...zzzz...perhap that also one of the greatest freedom I can feel when a weekly gathering is held there....although some alway feed mosquito and complain.....but we all love it when the luminous moon show her blessing on us.........the wonder of nature we all get to enjoy.....so much memories yet unable to revive........everyone change with the time.....I am further sadden when I move to siglap on that very month....More alone that I ever face......when I am bored I cant go out due to my habit of not going out alone....in teckwhye whenever I go out at least someone will accompied.....go kopitam drink tea and chat...but here?chat with the neighbour dogs?woa.....guess the only time I can enjoy is to go the beach.....no one to tok to but yet your troubled mind will slowly seep into the sea......
As we live and encounter do our best as learning not to repeat such mistake that other done....however history alway repeat...hahax....although no one know what future await us but I like the sentence that live our life to the fullest.....fullest does not only mean enjoyment only ***
I read this joke and I like it seriously speaking....man...if all the gal are like that...think I be a monk better...hehe
-=Husband Store =-
A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates. You may visit the store ONLY ONCE !
There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch . . .. you may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband . .
On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.
The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids.
The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely good looking. "Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going. She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads:
Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead good looking and help with the housework. "Oh, mercy me!"she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!" Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads:
Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak. She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads:
Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.
Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day! =D
well....nice one man...guess it is time for my afternoon nap le...heex...afternoon rainning sia.....weeex.....
.2nd-Hamsterlord dreamt at 2:14 PM on Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Love is so sweet and so tempting that me myself is shaken by the movie.....this is reality and real life.....we cannot gurantee our love can be as wonderful and sweet as fairytale but one thing we do hold is that we really push ourselves to the very best and of course self scarfice when there a time needed to prove your love.....
Hmm.....just now went to see alicia friendster....somehow I am very interested in that sentence.....dun ned to be rich dun ned to be handsome and dun ned to be sweetmouth.....haha....action is louder than word...that what I believe.....although I can so call understand la...but then hmmm.....not all gal can share the burden of their bf.....no money how to go out.....lolx... in singapore u go out alrealy pay money to the government liao...haha....transport fee...or buy drink....all this are money...lolx....I still remember got an idiot tell me no money to pay phone bill...can only tok using public phone.... T.T.....dun believe lor...where got pple poor until so funny one sia...haha....although it is true that there are alot of poor family but then poverty cant be avoid in any nation.....no matter how everyone help each other...there will still be many out there poor....
all of the sudden I start to like high school muscial song -breaking free- starting I dun feel any special in it but th